Missing My Best Friend

I've never really belonged to a group or posted anything online before. Lately I feel as if I need to reach out and maybe connect with someone who may understand what I'm feeling or going through right now. Which has brought me to this website tonight.

I recently lost my beloved Mia to Kidney disease.

Mia was a beautiful long haired black cat whom I adopted from a woman who could no longer care for her.
I never had a cat before.
She came into my life at a time when I felt lost and lonely and she instantly changed my life.
She was my best friend, and later when I met my boyfriend, became his best friend too.

Mia was diagnosed with kidney disease a year ago and at the time I just couldn't believe it and I didn't know what to do.
Research helped but there were many complications and the doctors didn't give her a lot of time.

My boyfriend and I devoted everything we had into making her life wonderful while she was here. We planned our days around keeping her happy and comfortable, and we took each day as it came.

She was so strong and so very brave.

Through all of the medications and vet trips and blood pressure tests. Through the Anemia and the Eprex shots and Sub Q fluids.
It wasn't easy, but we kept her weight maintained and she looked good. It was hard to believe that she was ill.
She did well, for a long time - longer than the doctors had given her.

In September, she started losing weight and her behavior changed.
I could tell by looking at her little face - looking in her eyes, that she wasn't doing well.

She passed away on Sept 30th - we had to take her to emergency.
It was such a painful decision.
In my heart I had hoped that perhaps she would pass peaceful in her sleep, at her home.

I know it was best for my girl, but I miss her so much everyday.
We miss her so much.
And even though I know that we were so lucky to have her as long as we did - much longer than anyone thought, our house is different with her gone and sometimes I can't bear even coming home to its emptiness.

A day hasn't gone by that I haven't wished she were here, wanted to see her face when I came home or have her sitting with me while I read or watched TV.
I get by most days but I'm sad.

I miss My Girl