Lost My Best Friend

I don't really know how this works, but it helps me reading all the posts.

I lost my 18 year old beautiful Mimi on 7/31/08; luckily,she was not sick and I think she just wore out. But the grief I am feeling on a daily basis is so overwhelming, I sometimes wonder if it will ever be better. She was the love of my life; and you can't talk about the loss of a pet with just anyone.

I am still crying every day; feeling guilty (was she suffering and I didn't know it?; was I right to have her put to sleep?)

And I don't want to let go of the grief because I'm afraid I will forget her. My heart is broken. I have lost 2 other cats who meant the world to me, but this is the worst. I walk into my house and say "WHY AREN'T YOU HERE?? YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE WITH ME ALWAYS". I know she is in cat heaven and a kitten again; I just miss her so much.

At the same time, I am so blessed to have such an incredible animal as my companion for so many years.

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