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Hello all......
my name is Lisa. My dog Milo, he was 8 yrs old, was put to sleep yesterday. I had found out Monday that there was no hope, and because of one of his tumors, in his sinuses growing rapidly, he would end up bleeding out or not being able to get any air. I'm sick over the decision, I really couldn't take part in it, just handed it over to my mom because there was no way I could let him go.
He was such an incredible dog. I 'rescued' him, and it seems he never forgot that because he never left my side. He was so protective. Wednesday night I could not stop crying... and he just knew... instead of sleeping at the foot of the bed he came up and layed right by my face. He loved going on walks, hated rain, loved blankets.... I haven't made my bed since I have had him because he would undo the bed so he could lie engulfed in blankets. Anyway, it just really hurts right now and I miss him so much.
I never thought I'd lose him this early. I feel like I am never going to stop crying, and only a few people really know the bond we had, and understand how much this is killing me. I feel like I let him down, he had these tumors growing in his body and I had no idea, and the poor dog was cheated, just his past checkup in the summer, perfectly healthy. It all happened so fast. He should be sitting right next to me right now.
Anyways sorry to let that all out. And I am sorry for everyone elses losses also.