Light Relief

i,ve just found this,so will share with everybody:
IN CULTURES ALL OVER THE WORLD,ANIMALS OF ALL KINDS SIGNIFY MANY DIFFERENT THINGS.ANIMALS ARE PERCIEVED BY MANY AS THE HOLDERS OF SECRETS THAT MANKIND CANNOT ACCESS,THE KEYS TO A WORLD OF GOODNESS THAT WE CANNOT ENTER WITHOUT THEM.ANIMALS OF ALL KINDS ARE SYMOLIC OF:LUCK,FORTUITOUSNESS.AGILITY,PROTECTION,GUIDANCE,ABUNDANCE,ENERGY,WISDOM,UNIQU
ENESS,KINDNESS,LOVE,LOYALTY,NOBILITY.

how many humans do you now with these qualities.
this is what they bring to our lives,and this is what we miss.

Lucky And Mitzy

LUCKY-6TH DECEMBER 2006, FOURTEEN AND A QUARTER.
MITZY-16TH FEBUARY 2007, FOURTEEN.
I LOVE YOU BOTH DEARLY,MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU BOTH.
I HOPE AND PRAY YOUR BOTH TOGETHER FOR ETERNITY TO LOOK AFTER EACH OTHER,PLEASE BE HAPPY.

The Nightmare Has Happerned Again

lost my german sheperd (LUCKY)on 6th dec.2006.
MITZY my springer spanial was only 6mths.younger,i rescued her from a dogs home as company for lucky,she was very timid and always felt safe with lucky.she was diagnosed with kidney failure 14mths ago,she had fluids and then went on a special diet and has done well,until the day i lost lucky.she went downhill.she was with me every minute after that because i didn,t want to leave her on her own.she was up and down.i had her blood levels checked and they had started to rise.after about a month she started having siezures.she had two in two days and then was okay for a couple of weeks,then she had more.everytime she became dis-orientated for a couple of hours.i nursed her through everything,always hoping they would stop.she ended up having more,the vet said it was because of her kidneys.the last 4 days were awful,i slept on the floor with her,i was told that i would have to consider her qaulity of life as she could have a seizure so bad ,it could put her into a coma or brain damage.they only lasted about a minute and she always picked up from them and you wouldn,t no anything had happerned.the last two days she had one and recovered,next morning she had one,questioning her quality of life ,i took her to the beach ,she just stood un-interested by anything.i bought a rump steak for her,which she ate most of.after a short while later she had a second seizure.two in one day.she was drained.they made her so wobbly for a while.she couldn,t take it she fell over everywhere,didn,t know where she was,she yelped out loud through fright. i couldn,t put her thru anymore,we phoned the vet and took a slow journey there.she lifted her head up on to my hand as if to let me know.the trouble is she always bounced back,but she knew if she looked up into my eyes and i thought she was okay ,i couldn,t go thru with it.the vet and nurse came out to the van,they had to lift her bed up and turn her round.she lifted her head for a second and then laid it back down.i new she couldn,t take anymore.i cried and panicked for days up to this point hoping the siezures would stop,but they just kept getting closer and closer.10 seconds and she drifted asleep.i took her back home and laid with her all night and had her cremated this morning.the vets say you know when it,s time.i couldn,t let her suffer.since losing LUCKY on the 6th dec,she kept me going.as her health went down the emotional bond was imense,i fought for every breath she took,but the pain of seeing her suffer with every siezure was to much to bare.the problem is her kidneys were failing and she would of suffered so much more.she was so devoted ,right up to the end,as long as she was with me -she was happy.i didn,t have the strength to bring LUCKY home for the night when i had to let her go,it happerned so fast,it was such a massive shock,i didn,t know how to handle it,for which i feel eternaly guilty now.
i have tortured myself on her quality of life,but she kept picking up.i have now lost both of my girls in less than ten weeks.they were together with me for over fourteen years.not one day did i begrudge them a walk in the woods,and every second of there life was wonderful beyond words.the house is just empty now.somehow i have to find a way forward.that sweet little girl helped me thru my first loss.i now have to deal with the loss of them both on my own,she,s been my rock,i just couldn,t let her suffer anymore.i do believe she had enough,i hope she forgives me.if i only ever have one wish ,it is that there back together running around happy.
GOODBYE MITZY-I LOVE YOU DEARLY AND HOPE YOUR HAPPY ONCE AGAIN. ******

My Dog Again

my german shepherd -lucky, always liked rubbing the side of her face on my leg or on the chair.she done this everyday.yesterday i was standing in the doorway and my spaniel walked in the door,smelt my leg,then started rubbing her face up and down the side of my leg.never in fourteen years has she ever done this or anything even similar.also sometimes when lucky used to eat her food,it was like she ate to quick and would try to get her food down,she acted almost like a cat with fur balls,trying to clear something.well my spaniel,while eating yesterday morning,did the same thing.this as well she has never ever done before.both incidents lasted liturally for seconds.
read my previous story.
went to work for first day-since losing her.rushed about to keep my mind off of it.as soon as i got back into van to come home-it all comes rushing back to you.my poor spaniel is fed up as well,she doesn,t seem the same anymore.they were together all there life.only good point of the days is going to sleep so you don,t have to think about it all.
this is the sixth day now.

My Dog

i lost my german shepard on 6/12/2006.we went out,she had her breakfast,then half hour later ,kept trying to be sick,started bringing up froth and in so much pain.she was in vets two minutes later.they phoned me ten minutes later .said she had a lot of trapped wind in her stomach ,and that her stomach was twisted.can,t do anything for her.she was fourteen and a quarter.i had three phone numbers to get my partner,which i rang and rang endlessly,even the vets tried her.i wanted to get hold of her ,cause i couldn,t bear being the one to be with my dog when they put her to sleep.but in the end i had to.seems like she only wanted me there.i had her cremated with dignity and brought her ashes home.she was with me day and night everywhere i went for over 14 years.i now i had to let her go,and we had the most wonderfull life together,but there is no where i can go where she wasn,t with me.it,s been eating me up day and night that she was out there on her own somewhere.i keep looking and searching,everything is numb.
A STRANGE THING HAPPERNED,outside my door i have a big garden canopy,i was standing at the door with it open,and a white balloon dropped down from nowhere and blew up to the door,just a normal one blown up,not filled with healiam,there was no wind,it didn,t come down from garden into door.it just dropped from above canopy.put it back outside and forgot about it.woke up 5.30 next day and balloon came into my head,went to door and it was still there about 16 hours later.i laid it on the shelf,not sure why ,just hanging onto anything.took my other dog out lunchtime.for some reason my partner went to it.she held it up to light and the exact image of my dog was in it ,just pale lines of the outline of her face how she laid in crematorium.the most prominent was her ear.when i said goodbye to her i was coaching that ear and talking into it.you could see the outline of her face and her eye just how she lay.her body had a blanket over it.evertime i touched the balloon it left a fingerprint,but they were inside and couldn,t be wiped off,but nothing happerned when she touched it.took it to her mothers,but ididn,t leave prints anymore,but she saw the outline as well.we went shopping and within half an hour the balloon had de-flated to the size of a large orange.
it,s been driving me insane to think she was on her own.i feel as though she has sent me this sign to let me now she,s okay and at peace(or am i just going mad).
it wasn,t a coinsidance-it was a sequance of avents. they say that if your sent a sign- that is very personal that only you can understand.i coudn,t understand why or where it came from,but makes sense because she died because of being full of air.why did it come down in front of me,why did i feel the need to bring it in next day,why was it still there,why did she hold it up to light,why did it hold the outline of my last memory talking into her ear,why did only i leave prints inside it.if people heard me talking ,i would be committed.it feels as though i had to leave prints for her to now i had seen it and that she wanted me to now she,s okay.i have spent so many hours crying for her.is this just to insane for words,maybe i am losing it.has anybody had strange experiances.
i absolutely swear to god this is all true,i love my dog dearly and would never give anybody false hope.i really want to believe it,it seems to strange to not be true.i am so grief stricken and hope to god she is okay.i can,t bear getting up in the morning,because it all comes back again.who wants christmas now.