Poisoned Princess

Well, it is my turn to join this forum. Although, my Kiowa did not have to go so early. She was a beautiful and playful Siberian Husky, just two years old, who was maliciously poisoned while I was away from the house for just 2 hours.

At first, the pain is truly unbearable, I felt completely in a daze...and, then I went through my angry phase immediately, because one of the neighbors had complained about her howling.....I'm sorry....My doggy loved me! She didn't deserve to be poisoned.

After reading a few of these posts, I find myself trying to be strong, yet wanting to be weak. I've always had a hard time dealing with death, but I find it strange I hardly cry for family members, and this is tearing my whole world apart. I don't want to eat, I can't rest, and I'm doing the What If game...What if I had been a better owner, what if I had brought her inside instead of leaving her in the yard.....what if....And, I know its wrong...but during the idle times I dwell on her and how much I miss her...especially those wet kisses and licks to the ear.

The 4-5 mile runs weren't so bad....but, did she have to get so fast so quick? My goodness, I could hardly keep up and she was only 2. We were gonna have so many good years running together. And, she was so loving to my daughter, who wants to know where her daddys "snow dog" went...

This is painful....seeing my baby suffering was rough. Her eyes pleaded to me when I first detected the symptoms..Save me daddy, save me. I tried, baby. I really tried. But the toxins were too strong, and the medicine was weak.....I love you Kiowa...

I hope you are running in Doggy heaven, and showing all the other dogs thats how we do it! You are still my Champion.

Love,

ME- Just wanting to be whole again...