Lonely

I didn't want to go living.On the surface I may seem better,but if truth be told I still feel the same way underneath.I feel so sad for you and your lovely cat Scotty. I have a female cat called Midnight who reminds me of you r Scotty, but I know all pets are different. My Taggy was special, She had been with me for 18 yearsand I miss her so. I can't imagine ever coming to terms with it.I felt distanced from my other pets when she died, I must love them but my grief for Taggy overwhelmed me. This site is helping me to keep going and I have been to my doctor.Thank you Marc for this wonderful site.

Devastated

Thank you Lucky Nono's Mom for your message.I have just come in and the pain was so terrible that Taggy is no longer here .I think this site might have saved my life and my sanity. I went out because I couldn't bear to stay in the house.It hurts to go out into the garden because she is buried there.I don't Know how I can bear it. I know what you mean about some people not understanding how it feels.I so want to believe that Taggy is in heaven. I do have 2 good friends nearby who are animal lovers too. Before i could send messages, i read a message that someone and got their husband to dig up their pet because it had started to rain .I knew then that I wasn,t going mad because the first night I found it unbearablethat she was out there in the rain and dark.What also upset me more was that she loved to lay in the sunshine and I had been waiting for a sunny day so that even though she had gone blind and was ill , she wanted to go outside.The day after she passed away, it was warm in the garden and so wished I could have given her a las t day.Thank you also DeeDee for your message. i will write again later.Grief is so tiring I feel like I'm carrying a heavy load around with me. There are some other feelings I am having that I wonder if others have experienced

Grief Striken And Desolate

I found this site when I was desperately looking for help .has comforted meto know that others had the same strange feelings and thoughts that I was suffering.Thank you.I went into a deep depression. I still feel that way but i am not crying all th time now. I want to write more but it is still so painful.I live in England and the only helpline I could find was Just an answerphone