Today Is 2 Years

To my sweet angel Dixie,
My litttle angel dog- It has been 2 years since you were violently ripped from my life. I miss you so much. I still cry often. I will never forget you. I still haven't forgiven myself for not having you on your leash at that horrible moment of fate.
You were the best dog ever...EVER. Even as you lay dying in front of me, your gentle demeanor shone in your beautiful eyes. How I wish I could go back in time and do that day over. I would do it in a second. Your sister Frances is still here. Two years later and I still sense sadness in her eyes from time to time. She misses you too, Miss Dixie Doodle. I hope and pray that we will be united one day in Heaven. Please wait for me. I love you always.
Mom

Today Is Exactly One Year

Hi all,
I haven't posted here in a while. I still read the posts, but usually end up bawling and can't type.
July 5, 2005, my precious Dixie was hit and killed by a car as I watched helplessly.
As I posted a year ago, it all happened in a flash.
We had just moved into a new house, new neighborhood. We had only been here a few weeks when it happened. I was doing a simple task...taking out the trash. Dixie followed, as she always did. In the 7 years I had her, she never ran off or strayed. She was at my side every second ALWAYS. As fate would have it, a cat appeared out of nowhere and crossed our path. The cat ran into the street and narrowly missed being hit by oncoming cars ( I live on the corner of a 4 way stop in a busy residential area). Dixie couldn't resist the temptation and chased after the cat. I saw the SUV and I thought the driver saw Dixie and would stop. She didn't. As I yelled and jumped up and down, I saw Dixie get hit by the SUV. She immediately crumbled and lay in the street, panting, bleeding out of her mouth and from her paws.
I'm sorry, I can't do this. It is too hard. I have cried every day for the last year. I dreaded this day, July 5th, and here it is.
I am not much of a writer and find it very difficult to say exactly what I am feeling.
What I am feeling, one year later, is complete devastation, guilt, and emptiness. I can't type anymore, but I want my angel Dixie to know that I miss her so much and love her so much and pray to God often that he has her. If there is no Heaven for pets, then I am completely lost as to why God would give us animals to love, only to have them ripped away too soon. Dixie was a little under 8 years old, but acted like a 1 year old. GOD, I miss her and am so sorry that I didn't protect her. I don't know that I will ever recover.
Dana

I Miss You, Dixie

Dixie,
I will never, ever get over losing you.
What happened to you is so unfair.
The sweetest, most gentle and shy girl taken from me in such a brutal and painful way.
Why?
I sometimes still can't believe it happened.
I can't believe that the "lady" who hit you didn't stop to help you, but simply drove away.
You, as a dog, had 10 times the character of most people I know.
I love you, Dee Dee.
Mama

Still Hurting Bad...

Hi All,
I have not posted here in a while.
I lost my Dixie to an accident that should have never happened.
She was hit by a car and died in front of me on July 5th.
The pain at first was indescribable. Then it got easier.
And now, well, here I sit in tears realizing that I will NEVER be ok.
I want my dog back. I am so sad. She should be here.
All I have is her ashes. She was my baby for 7 years. And gone in a second.
I have nothing to say...just wanted to get it out.

My Angel Dixie

Miss Dixie,
This will be short, because I am in no shape to write very much...
Today has been hard for me, Dee Dees. You were taken from me 2 months ago.
It seems like yesterday, but at the same time it feels like forever....
I miss you so much. I want you back so bad. I want to do that awful day over.
I would have done everything different and you would still be here.
I can't forgive myself.... If I had been responsible, I would have had you on a leash.
But I gave you your freedom always... I never wanted you confined.
I loved you so much and wanted you to live life to the fullest.
Your "freedom" took your life.
I hate that "woman" in the SUV that hit you and drove away. I have not forgiven her
as I know I should. If she hadn't been so damn preoccupied, you'd still be here and I
wouldn't be in agony.
I love you Dee Dees. I am so sorry. I know you wanted to live...you loved life like
no dog I had ever seen. I am so sorry. I love you.
Mom