Not Her Too..., 3 weeks ago my dog...now my cat Options

[Darebaby]

Some of you may remember my last post. It has been about 3 weeks since I had to put Pox to sleep. I was having a hard time with everything. About 3 days after she died I was adopted by my roomates extremely unsociable cat, Warrior. Warrior Has been such a life saver to me. If you have a chance...read my ealier post and you can see for yourself. She gave me something to wake up to. I am sure you know what I mean when you dont even want to leave the house because you are afraid of that feeling of coming home to an empty house. Well, she totally savedme through Pox's death. I fell in love with her and I had vowed i wouldn't ever have cat...at least not for a while. But she came to me and rescued me. I wish I could express how grateful I am for her. Unfortunately 2 days ago she was somehow injured and killed. I can't even believe that we have (my roomate and I) lost 3 pets in 6 weeks. The bearded dragonin Late September, my best friend Pox 3 weeks ago andnow Warrior. Our house is so full of sorrow and grief. I cant understand it at all. I am still sonumb from Pox...I have never lost anything so close to me and I am having a hard time being happy aboutanything. I hate feeling. I mentioned before that tendays after I lost Pox I woke up one day and broke up with my boyfriend. It is almost like deep down inside I don'twant to love anything...now this ahppens. All of my emotionsare buried and I feel so abandonedand sad. It feels like it has beenan eternity since i last held my Pox. I feel so disconnected...from everything. Thanks for listening...I need type my feelings andfeel like somebody cares. I feel very lonely and sad. So sad that since Pox has goneI find it hard to pray. Ihave just diconnected myself from evrything. Whe I am at work I amokay...very distracted. The secondI pull intomy driveway andopen the door a panic feelingcomesover me. 13 years and she is gone. I miss her so much. I know it sounds dumb...but my life feels so purposeless. I feel that I am not needed by anybody. I guess i take comfort in the fact the Warrior and Pox are together but I am here...and I am all alone. No family, no man and no little furbabies. Maybe I am throwing myself a pity party...but I have never been alone before. It is very scary. I can't sleepatnight. I have been up until 5 or 6am evry night.
Sorry this keyboard dosn't work very well...I really am notthis bad of a typist

Thanks for listening, friends

[Steph]

I am so sorry about the kitty dying too. And about you breaking up with your boyfriend.

For sure, I didn't sleep either after Luba died. Same as you, up til around 5 or 6 am. I was literally not able to sleep without sedatives. It does get better. I'm still very sad about Luba (she died June 5th), but life does improve somehow.

Do you have any supportive friends around?

Take care - Steph

[BabyHannahsMom]

Hey,
I just was typing a reply to you. I had typed probably 5 pages! when my computer screen just faded to gray! I can't believe it. So, I'll have to retype it again later. I just wanted to say again how very sorry I am. I know you are devastated, as you have every right in the world to be. That's no "pity party." You have been through so much, lost so much. It breaks my heart. I was telling you about my little bird Babe in the message that I lost. You might go back to read in July where I posted, "I'm holding my dead bird in my lap." It was just too much! The mind can only take so much grief at one time. You were already devastated, and now this. Please know you are in my thoughts. You aren't alone. We are here for you. Please take care. I will write you again later.
Love,
Marcia

[Ann H]

I am so sorry to hear that Warrior is no longer with you I know that you were comforted by her when you lost Pox. Maybe someday when the time is right another furbaby will find you and end your loneliness. I have seen my son, a grown man cry because he too was so lonely. I sure was happy when he found someone to love him. I will pray that God sends you a kind gentle man who loves animals and a furbaby or 2 to fill your heart with joy. Oh I know I am not good with words but I wanted you to know I do care!
Ann

[pierre]

Sorry to hear of your losses. I can perfectly understand how you feel. No you are not feeling sorry for yourself,what you are going through is awesame, but it gets better with time.
I am going through the same grief for my dog Otino. (read my letter posted 9/11/04)
Please feel free to write back. take care, Pierre

[Bronte's Mom]

I'm so sorry to hear about your third loss in such a short period of time. I have become quite sociable with my boyfriend's cat, but in the back of my mind is "what if?" There are so many things out there that can hurt our babies. Take a deep breath and have a nice long heart wrenching cry. If you haven't already, do something nice for the three of them. A memorial, a garden stone, donate in their names to the Humane Society. I read an article on grieving for loss of a pet. Ironically when I took human psychology they tell you that people take each step one at a time, and finally work through their grief. With the loss of my Bronte and I'm sure with your loved ones, your hitting all levels of grief at once. Denial, depression, anger, and guilt. Not exactly a fun time. For me it depends on the day. All I can wish for you is a big hug from someone close, and offer the thought that calms me a little. I might not be able to see Bronte, but I imagine that she's still hiding under the bed, sleeping on my freshly laundered clothes, and next to me on the bed at night. I make sure I leave room for her. Good Luck and take heart. April

[zoeysdad]

So sorry to hear of your losses. You've been through so much in such a short period of time and I think it's incredible that you are even functioning at all. You're not feeling sorry for yourself, you have every right to mourn your losses.

You're in the first stage of the grieving process and you are doing exactly what you need to to try and keep everything in perspective. We here at LS fully understand and share your pain. Things will slowly get better---you won't always feel the almost unbearable pain and sense of loss you're currently feeling.

You're in my thoughts,
__Jim

[Pamela]

I'M SORRY, ....MY HOME IS FILLED WITH GRIEF ALSO, I AM HAVING SUCH A HARD TIME TOO, I JUST DONT WANT TO LEAVE MY HOME, I AM SECURE ON MY COUCH IN THE LIVING ROOM, I STILL CANT SLEEP IN MY BEDROOM, THAT MAY SOUND CORNY BUT I JUST CANT WAKE UP IN THERE AND NOT HAVE MOOSE TO CUDDLE, I AM GOING THROUGH LOSS OF APETITE, I HAVE NO ENGRY, EACH TIME I LEAVE THIS HOME, EVEN TO GO TO THE STORE, IT JUST KILLS ME TO COME HOME AND NOT HEAR MY BABY. MY COMMON SENCE TELLS ME I NEED TO GET WITH IT, BUT MY EMOTIONS SEEM TO HAVE THE UPPER HAND. I REALLY WANT TO POST MOOSE'S PIC BUT I JUST AM NOT READY TO TAKE THEM OUT YET. I STILL HAVE MY CAT GATO, HE IS 15YRS OLD, I KNOW EVEN MORE NOW THT HIS TIME WILL COME. I AM ALONE TOO, AND MY PETS WE'RE MY FAMILY, WE ALL LOVED EACH OTHER AND I LOVED THE FEELING IN THE EVENINGS THAT WE WE'RE ALL SAFE AND AT HOME. TODAY, I AM JUST GOING TO STAY HOME AND TRY AND EAT AND GET MY STRENGTH BACK. IT IS STILL SO HARD TO BELEIVE THIS HAS HAPPENED. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD LOSE MOOSE IN SUCH A SUDDEN TRAMATIC WAY, I WILL BE THINKING OF YOU AND PRAYING FOR YOU TODAY. PAMELA

[rfrederick]

The Lord is always with you-no matter how alone you feel, he is there . Waiting for you to talk to him. Never give up your prayers. Some times I think thats all that gets me through some days. And through tribulations is when your faith and obedience is put to the test. Put him first and the peace will come. You will be in my prayers to find peace without your little furbabies. You will make it. Think of all the times Pox made you smile, or laugh, that's what keeps me going. Pretty soon there will be no more tears. Just smiles.

[LittleGirl's...]

Hi Dare,

Thinking of you!! Can you try some sedatives for sleeping? I needed to, as well.

About feeling disconnected---maybe that's the mind's tool in order to survive under such devastating cir%%stances. I have wondered that myself. You have been through SO much.

And if you can't pray, just please know that the rest of us will be praying for you. Sometimes you have to let go and let others carry you through. We are here for you---every step of the way.

Much love,

Kathy

[LaNett]

Hello!

Wow - I'm not the only one that had a Bearded Dragon, dogs and cats all living under the same roof! I've adopted my sons Dragon because he joined the Coast Guard and moved to Puerto Rico last month. The Dragon, Billbo Dragon, couldn't go with him so he's staying with me. Unfortunately, I've lost both of my dogs over the past 7 months. But I still have 3 cats and I'm keeping a close eye on them all!

I hope you're feeling better.

In His service - LaNett <><