Tobis Death Options

[gabriel312]

Today I woke up to the terrible news from my dad, that my beloved dog Tobi had passed away at night when I was sleeping. Tobi had been for a few hours in the vet because they offer lodging to dogs and we needed him to go there because there was a dinner at home and he usually gets nervous when there is too much noise. My dad picked him up at midnight and when they were taking a walk together he suddenly dropped stiff without any warning. He died immediately.
Tobi was only three years old and apparently he had a sudden and massive heart attack. Fortunately it looked like he didn't suffer much. He was probably one of the most beautiful Golden Retrievers I've ever seen and definitely the most loving one. When we would come from a trip he would jump on us and almost begged us to pet him when he dug his head into our legs. My brother, my mom, my dad and me loved him like crazy, he was our "Tobi-Lobi". We burried him in the garden this morning under a couple of trees and between tears. I am really shocked until now and I am really sorry I couldn't hold his paw when he died or at least say goodbye and give him an extra big hug. I don't think I even noticed him on his last day :'(. The day before that I had the chance of laying in the garden with him sleeping on my belly and me contemplating the night sky. I remember thinking about death and how it would be and thought that Tobi would die in 10 years not two days later but I cherish that memory a lot.
I just pray that he has now a great place in heaven and doesn't miss us on his first night alone. Tobi, I am gonna miss you a lot and I don't know how I will hold on. I just want to lay alongside with you on the kitchen floor like we used to when I came home from school and rest together. I will be forever thankful that you cheered me up when I had my depression crisis two years ago and you showed me love. Remember Tobi that no matter what you will always be in my heart and that you don't have to feel alone. You have me on your side forever and ever. From down here I sent you a big hug and kiss to you up there and I am sure we will see each other again. I love you sweetheart.
Gabriel

RIP Tobi May 27th 2011- July 13th 2014

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[moon_beam]

Hi, gabriel, please permit me to offer you my sincerest sympathies in the physical loss of your beloved Tobi. Losing a companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we are blessed with the privilege of their company. Losing a companion so suddenly intensifies the grief.

Gabriel, this grief journey is one of the most painful experiences you will know on this side of eternity. It is a journey that is filled with many different emotions that can overwhelm us all at one time - - it is a journey that is frequently referred to as a horror roller coaster ride. It is a journey that can only be traveled one day at a time, sometimes one moment at a time in your own way and in your own time - - for it is a journey that cannot be reconciled in a minute, an hour, a day, a week, a month, or even 6 months - - for you are now on a journey that is filled with all the first withouts and the memories that can be all too painful right now that include this time yesterday, last week, last month, last year to endure. And because your beloved Tobi transitioned home to the angels at such a young age, there will also be feelings of anger to work through - - feelings of being "cheated" out of the many years you were looking forward to sharing with your beloved Tobi by your side.

Please let me try to reassure you that everything you are, and may be, feeling through your grief journey is very normal deep grief, - - very painful both emotionally and physically, yes -- still very normal. And please let me try to reassure you that he is not lonely or frightened - - for he is surrounded by the love of the angels and all of the many beloved companions who are showing your beloved Tobi all around heaven's perfect garden. Your beloved Tobi is also telling the angels and beloved companions all about you and his family who love him and took good care of him - - and everyone in the garden is listening intently.

And his love for you is always with you, gabriel. Love is eternal - - it is not restricted to the physical laws of time and space. Your beloved Tobi's sweet Living Spirit continues to share your earthly journey as he always has and always will, for he is always and forever a part of your heart and memories, gabriel - - he is always and forever a heartbeat close to you - - no matter how much time passes as you continue with your earthly journey.

Gabriel, I do know so well from first hand experience that when our hearts are entrenched in deep grief there really are no adequate words in any language that can soothe the searing pain of sorrow. Still I hope the words I share with you will offer you some measure of comfort, support, encouragement, and hope as you travel your grief adjustment journey.

Thank you so much for honoring us in sharing your beloved Tobi with us, gabriel, and this wonderful picture of your handsome boy. It is clear from the expression on his face that he knows he is loved, and you are forever blessed to be his heir to his eternal love. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, gabriel, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Mistletoe]