I Still Love You, Trevor!, separated from a most special doggie Options

[My Doxie and Me]

To my friend that holds the world against her shield i am just a peasant that Kneels in your presence
And wish for the Flight of Butterfly that each wing that spreads brings beautiful colors to
lift us all to the Heavens as we take breath find the ones that lead us to are friends
As they wait by Heavens Gate to Kiss each tear from are face.

[My Doxie and Me]

[Bobbie]

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy is BACK from the unyielding grip of chemotherapy. I have such a tremendous appreciation and, yes, immese anger towards those that failed you, appreciation for all that you suffered SILENTLY until you could no more. Next time (?) don't be so darn brave. Mommy will always be here/there for you.

And have you seen all the mesages and beautiful pictures from My Doxie and Me? WOW! Maybe I should stay off the site more often? NAH!! So many people now love YOU and are so good to me, that I could never do such a thing to them. I am only off this site when I am not feeling well physically. And that's a promise!!!!!!!

Oh, Trevor! You are the delight of my life always and forever. moon_beam was right again. Although I still miss you with a shredded heart and crushed soul, the stinging, searing, torturous pain has changed - just a bit - to a comfort that I did not think existed anywhere. Don't get me wrong. I miss you with everything I have, had or will have. I want to hug and kiss you over and over and over again. But now I know I must wait my time.....which most likely will be sooner than later. But, no matter! Our love flows freely back and forth all the time!

Have a peace-filled night with all your friends and the newbies that arrive every second!

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[LoveMyMickey]

Hello Sweet Trevor....Auntie LoveMyMickey checking in and sending your mommy a poem I found:


I Care

I’m sending this to let you know
I think of you each day,
And pray for your recovery,
Hoping soon you’ll be okay.

You’re going through a lot right now;
You’re treatments can be trying;
Remember while you do them
It’s your problem you’re defying.

Hold on to your positive attitude,
And when things get hard to bear,
Know that I am here for you;
Remember that I care.

And when you’re well and flourishing,
Look back and realize,
You learned what you were made of;
That’s a reward that satisfies!

I believe in you; You can do it!



Love you both!!!


LoveMyMickey

[Bobbie]

Hello my darling!

I love you, Trevor............................................and always will!


Your tired momma,
XOmommyXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to say hello and to bask in the warmth of your beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor. I know your sister Jeanne is arriving this weekend to be with you, and I wish her safe and happy trails. I hope today is treating you kindly, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dear LoveMyMickey, moon_beam and My Doxie and Me,

First, let me thank each of you for your unconditional support and understanding and I try to figure out this chemotherapy and side effects stuff. It sounds easy enough, but it isn't. For example, today my tongue has become very sensitive to anything even remotely carbonated or "rough" in texture. Don't know if that is just today for from now on.

I look forward to and relish in the loving thoughts that each of you send me. I feel honored that you would continue to do so when you don't always receive a reply or a thank you. Please know that every single word is very precious to me and is one of the best parts of my beating this monster. If you don't feel like writing, I understand and will print an reread your previous messages and memorize the images you send. I don't know what I have ever done to deserve such friendship, but I am eternally grateful and don't waste one word of the messages. Trevor loves them, too.

May God (or your Hgher Power) bless you for what you have given me and I hope will continue to bless me with. I truly have never had three more devoted and true friends than you.

To: Mr. Trevor,
And don't forget that if it wasn't for YOU in my life, I would never know these amazing individuals and they would never have known of YOU!

I LOVE YOU ALL!
XOmommyXO
XOBobbieXO

[LoveMyMickey]

Oh Bobbie, no thanks or replies are necessary. I know you don't feel well. I'm just glad we can be here for you. You have been a good friend to me and my Mickey....I hope and pray that chemo doesn't make you so sick and does the job it's supposed to do.....I pray every day for you, Bobbie, to get well and also for your family....God Bless You!

Loads of love coming your way...

LoveMyMickey


Hello my little Trevor, I'm especially remembering you and Mickey today, the 22nd. I still see butterflies and I saw a buff colored one the other day and I thought of you, Trevor........Keep sending those love rays to your mommy and all the encouragement you can find.

Loads of love coming your way too.

Auntie LoveMyMickey

[My Doxie and Me]

Bobbie i have found words for others that helps me lift this grief i carry and you have sparked a light so i might see
the path i walk in search of my friends... the many i have come across brings hope as i draw strength from all
I would never speak and i would never write and yet it seems...What a blessing LS is for my thoughts remain here it's where
Beautiful People come to Kneel for there friends;...


forgive me as words of past seems iam in the dark searching for my friend, when you could never ask enough of what thoughts might be<Spark>...
i prefer silence and yet i cannot keep silent;





Poem by Quiet Poetry
Author Unknown
So much to take from these words
it's as if all your friends are speaking; Beautiful...

The Willow Tree

Alone Willow Tree stands tall in a field
only a breath away from the forest of Pine Trees.
There she sits in her quiet and grace
As she listens to the chorus of their promise of glory.

She stands in awe of their strength and majesty
Nearly heading their music,"Come now and join me"
But the willow Tree knows she will never reach their heights
Nor grow in their beauty of near perfect symmetry.

Tears begin to fall as the willow Tree weeps
her limbs twisting in pain as her leaves touch the ground
but with that touch she reaches the land and feels the strength
of both the earth and the flowers that surround



They begin to serenade the Willow Tree in their own gentle way
a song filled with the aroma of life's simple truths
although she may never stand as tall within the forest of Pines
her own strength can be found within the life of her roots

Roots which are simply planted within earths loving hands
never ceasing to search for life's sustenance
allowing her to endure through the cold winter months
then awaken once again with the new hope of spring
to feel life born again and the wonder of renewing

Their shy choir sings filled with words of inspiration
imploring her to realize that although a majestic Pine Tree
is something she will never be, the acceptance of her own beauty
will be the truth to set us free

The willow Tree listened to the songs of the Earth's truth
feelings the nourishment of her own worth flow quietly through her limbs
and in her solitude she begins to gracefully shimmer and sway
embrace her own uniqueness in her dance with the winds


In searching for my friends forgivness i found a beautiful heart so happens Trevor was leading;
I send you a Knight for he will watch over you be well my Willow Tree...

[Bobbie]

Oh my Trevor (and all your brothers and friends);

Mr. My Doxie has written the perfect words describing how mommy is feeling right now. Thank you for reaching him and telling him!

Mommy loves and misses each and every one of you because you brought such joy and surprise and wonder and fun to my life, at the perfect times. You kissed me with your love and taught me lessons that, many times, took a long time for me to learn. Crocker is my gentle soul - so sensitive and so loving with such a short time together. Birney, well the best way to describe you is one word and that is "Sarah". You know her. You brought such delight and micshief to my every day and you just could not wait until mommy and daddy left the house............Poor Kelly became your cohort in crime, only following your lead and your bribery of letting him eat the crayons he loved. Kelly was my first rescue and gave me 10 additional years of devotion love. Kelly is the only one who would eat ice cube after ice cube until his core temperature would drop and mommy would have to wrap him in lankets and heating pads to warm him up. What a great time to hug and snuggle with him. Birney, you legacy wll live on one day beyond forever! Little Jasper came to us with fatal illnesses that we did not know of, but got to spend 3 weeks on soft floors, air conditioning, even softer beds and had his own toys. Jasper, I will love you forever. Then Came Rudy! What a joy! What fun! What a lover! The only dog I've know that barked every time he pooped!!! As if to tell the world how proud he was of his accomplishment! I let you down, too, Rudy, at the end. But learned a huge life and end-of-life lesson. I hope you have forgiven me.
Then, Trevor..........................................................................
.....

Mommy is scared, confused, sad, mixed up and a thousand emotions rolled into one - a little girl raised Catholic with all the "shoulds" to become a saint. I still love my faith and my God, in a new and gentler way, but those shoulds keep popping up when I really don't need them now. Dear Lord, help me to learn my God-given value and then I ca be filled with YOU!

Thank you, everyone, for reading this and tolerating my confusion. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

XOBobbieXO

[Bobbie]

Dearest Trevor, Rudy, Jasper, Birney, Kelly, Crocker, Spot & Squirt,

I love you all so very much and miss you with all that I am. Mommy needs some help/advice so she doesn't keep feeling so sad every single evening.

I know you all have great words of wisdom. Could you send some my way?

Oh! How I love you all!!!!!!


XOmommyXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing and your always beautiful love letters to your beloved Trevor and each of your companions. When we are experiencing a crisis we are very emotionally, physically, and spiritually vulnerable. There is a difference between the faith in our heart and man-made faith expectations. Hold fast to the faith in your heart, Bobbie. I promise you it is what is in your heart that God looks at - - for He knows you - -He fashioned you - - and He loves you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor and companions.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Thank you, so very much, moon_beam for your kind and gentle words. You are right - during times of crises one's heart and soul can become so very sensitive and uncertain. Thankfully, I have such good friends (like you) on this site to help guide me - each in their own totally wonderful way!

Dear Trevor,

The days of seeing butterflies are just about done for this year. The weather is getting colder and staying colder, so I hope they are all winging their way South to warmth and sunshine. We'll have to ask LoveMyMickey what takes their place in the other months.

You mom has been so up and down these past couple weeks. One thing I have been neglecting is you. And for that I deeply apologize. If there is anyone in this universe who can understand about the confusion, questions, pain, just wanting to feel better, searching for comfort and that comfort eluding you for so long....................that is YOU! I just don't want to add to the pain you've already had to suffer here on earth. But, I guess, in Heaven, the pain is instantly taken care of, so you are able to feel the love, joy, friendship, comfort and serenity all the time. And for that I will always be grateful.

Trevor, you continue to touch my heart in ways that I have never imagined before. I loved every one of my boys with everything I had, but YOU have somehow intensified the Love-bond between human and animal so that I will never look at it or feel it the "same ole way" again. I do love Dreamer and Kelley so much, but even that is different than our love. I am eternally grateful to God for bringing you into our lives. Oh, yes, the pain was excrutiating for all of us at times, but the LOVE was indescribable (sp). Some nights I just wallow in the memories of that love. And I'll bet you didn't even realize what an effect you had because it came so naturally to you.

Thank you, my Trevor, for being you and showing me how to be me! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[Bobbie]

thank you, Trevor! THANK you, Trevor!! THANK YOU, Trevor!!!! THANK YOU, TREVOR!!!!!


I found your lock of hair today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It wasn't in a baggie after all, but a really special place that I had forgotten about. But I FOUND IT and I TOUCHED YOU!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I COULD BURST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXOMommyXOXO

[LoveMyMickey]

Hi Sweet Little Trevor,

THANK YOU so much for guiding your mommy to the place where she hid your lock of hair. It is a great comfort to her. I have some of Mickey's in a locket, plus another bunch I have gathered. I kiss the hair and pretend it's his little head. We mommys love our angel babies so much.

About the butterflies, I talked about them and the birds in the other forum.......Take good care of your mommy, Trevor, and also you, Gretta, Mickey, and all the others stay out of mischief, or do you get into mischief in heaven? I guess that would be heavenly mischief.

Love and Prayers coming your way,

LoveMyMickey

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Sweet Trevor,

I've been thinking about your mommy today and praying for her as she gets her medicine. Keep sending her your love and encouragement to help her get well.

I love you all!

Auntie LoveMyMickey

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am SO ECSTATIC to share your news that you found your beloved Trevor's hair - - how so very WONDERFUL!!! I know you will TREASURE this - - as the woman who searched her house for the two coins she had lost and found them. I am SOOOOOO HAPPY for you!!!

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Trevor's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Please know you, Stan, and your precious Dreamer and Kelley are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your treasured memories of your beloved Trevor and companions.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dearest Trevor,

Just stopping by to say that MOMMY LOVES YOU WITH ALL HER HEART AND SOUL!!

Have a wonderful night filled with beautiful dreams!

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[Bobbie]

Good Evening, Mr. Hunky Bunky!

Mommy has been sleeping the past two days after her Chemo. Thank you for keeping watch over her. You have always been the A #1 lover of mommy and I know that will never change.

I love you, my honey and will say Good Night until tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU, MY TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

[LoveMyMickey]

My Dear Sweet Mommy,

I love you with all my heart and soul, always have and always will. You are the best mommy a little doggie could ever have. I want to thank you for all your love and care for me while I was on earth with you. You had so much patience with me. I'm sorry my earthly body had to leave you, but it was my time and God's will. But you know I am always with you.

Mommy. I want you to get plenty of rest so you can get well. I am sending you an Angel to help encourage you through your healing journey.

I LOVE YOU, MY MOMMY

XOXO YOUR SON, TREVOR - FOREVER XOXO