Rocky My Precious Hero, i really need help Options

[Cheri]

Hi Hesista
Hoping your today was better than yesterday.
Finding good,supportive friends is truly a blessing and I am praying you come to meet good people who honestly care. And you can be sure we do here at LS!
Hesista you are always assured we will understand and be there to just listen or send our prayers your way.
You are in my thoughts and prayers tonight, please be still and let your mind rest.
Cheri

[hesista]

Thank you Cheri,
Today had more distractions so sometimes makes the day go faster, maybe not easier but faster which is a small favor but helpful
Thank you so much for writing me

Hesista

[Cheri]

Hey Hesista,
Just checkin in, and hoping you are having a peaceful eve. I know that's a lot to ask of you during this stressful time, but I am praying for moments of peace mixed in for your days ahead.
Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Cheri

[moon_beam]

Hi, hesista, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Stopping by to say hello and to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope today is treating you kindly, hesista, and look forward to knowing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[DannysMom]

Hi Cheri and Moonbeam, it was so nice to get another letter from both of you

Yesterday and today have been reeeeally hard. I feel soo much anziety, feel terrified at times missing Rocky.
Its like my whole being is in shock again and again. If I feel a little relief the anxiety just comes a wave unannounced and I don't know how to cope with it except just be try to hang in there somehow. I talked to a few people today, a friend who was so hurtful with what she said because I hoped to get some support from her instead she injured me with devastating comments. I feel so much worse from talking to her

I know I shouldn't talk to people who aren't where were at but sometimes I just get desperate and try and hope for the best


That's why it was so nice to come here to your letters.
I don't know how I would get through without them

Very grateful
Hesista

Hello Hesista, I am sorry I haven't written for a while. I am still grieving over Danny and my little Tina has been so sick and that has taken its toll on me. The fear and anxiety are part of the grief journey. It is normal that you are feeling anxiety. Something precious was taken from you, and it feels like you're a ship adrift on the open seas. You're trying to regain control, and the higher your expectations the more anxiety you will probably experience. It could be fear of the future, fear of another loss, fear of how to deal with it.

I am so sorry that your friend was hurtful with what she said. Most people just don't really know what to say and they will probably say the wrong things. I've had to deal with that as well, but you know what? The people here in this forum understand and they have been so wonderful. Please know that we are all here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

Hugs,
DannysMom

[hesista]

Hi Moonbeam, Cheri, and Dannysmom,

Dannysmom, I m praying mighty strong that your beloved Tina is going to recover full health. I found that when I started feeding fresh real meat to my furbabies that were much healthier. You might want to try that.

Thank you all for your prayers and healing thoughts because they are helping me so much and making this journery much much more fortified with all your caring and kindness. Your constant and reliable support is so amazin it just amazes me


Much gratitude
Jungyon

[moon_beam]

Hi, Jungyon, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I know you are finding some days easier than others, and this pattern is still very unpredictable. If this is the case please let me try to reassure you that this is very normal for this grief adjustment journey. But I promise you, Jungyon, that eventually you will have more better days and the not so easy ones will not be quite as painful. Please know we are always here for you. There are no judgments here - - please know we are here for you to share whatever is in your heart and on your mind - - whatever you feel comfortable sharing with us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Jungyon, and that you will have a peaceful evening. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing and to sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Rocky.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Cheri]

Hi Hesista
I too hope this day will bring you a moment of solitude. You need to take time to heal and go easy on yourself. There is limits to our grief, only brief moments of light through the gray skies, one day, one moment at a time. I only wish for your peace to come and be here to share in whatever the days may bring. Keep us posted, we're here for you.
In my prayers ,
Cheri

[xxForeverxx]

Hi Hesista

I am so glad you found this wonderful site. It really is the best place to come to when feeling down and lost as these people know exactly how you feel. I am very sorry for your loss and the grief path is a journey of ups and downs but remember how much love you gave your baby and how much love your baby gave you.

Unfortunately when it comes to friends and families we have to tread carefully when choosing who we talk to....and it shouldn't have to be like that as people should accept that pets are like children for us. I am sorry to hear your friend was not very supportive but that does not mean another one will be the same. I hope you can find someone to talk to this about as keeping it held in makes the grief journey so much harder but this place will still help with the many people here who have been through or are still going through the journey.

I hope you are feeling ok today Hesista.

xxForeverxx

[DannysMom]

Hesista, I hope this finds you well. I agree with xxForeverxx that just because one friend turned out to be less than supportive doesn't mean that another one won't be supportive. And yes, holding in the grief makes it harder. I know that from my own experience. I would sometimes find a quiet and lonely place to drive to and I would park there and just cry. I didn't want to cry so much in front of Tina and Mindy. You may find it safe to cry in your own home. It will get better. We are all here for you if you need us.

Hugs,
DannysMom

[hesista]

Thank you so much Moonbeam, Cheri, xxForeverxx,and Dannysmom

I had signed my previous letter using my pen name but I am so glad you all knew it was still me.
Thank you all my beloved friends forall your loving thoughts and words, I look foward to your letters everday
I love reading your words of encouragement and support and what you did to help yourself in your journey

You're all my wonderful anckor
Hesista

[moon_beam]

Hi, hesista, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I hope today is treating you kindly, and that your evenings are blessed with your beloved Rocky's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. This grief journey is a one day at a time journey, for what can feel like a nightmare eternity. But I promise you, hesista, that one day your heart will once again be able to smile and you will here your beloved Rocky's sweet voice say: "I love you always and I'm always with you."

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, hesista, and look forward to knowing how you're doing and sharing your treasured memories of your beloved Rocky.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Cheri]

Hi Hesista
Just a quick note to say hello. Hoping your weekend was a bit better than the last few. You are such a good person and you will one day see this roller coaster slowing down. I know that doesnt seem possible now, but it will come in your own time. Meanwhile, we are here for you.
Cheri

[hesista]

Hi Moonbeam and Cheri

Thank you again for writing and for all your reassurances and support. I had to deal with practical matters yesterday that I had put off for a month. It seems like another lifetime

I came here to read your letters today and they are so comforting

Much gratitude
Hesista

[hesista]

Hi everyone,
I had to go to town and deal with the world, which I very much dread but it was all going well. Then a smart ass young inexperienced cop pulled me over and was very rude and pullng a power trip. I wanted to scream at him don't talk to me that way, my best dog died, I can't deal with you, and your little boy power trip. But I had to swallow that because the consequences would have made it worse. Why can't the world see how knocked down we already are and can't stand to be nocked down any further.

[Cheri]

Hey Hesista,
It does seem that life goes on all around us when we feel like everyone's world should be crashing because ours is. There isn't logic to others who haven't experienced this deep grief, so they will never be understanding. That s why we come here, to this site to get affirmation.
You are the better person for keeping your cool. You are going to run into these situations again and again, but you will get stronger because of them. We do know it is painful to deal with the everyday chores without our fur babies, we also know not everyone understands, but you can share with us here and always feel safe.
Be good to yourself, be strong.
Cheri

[hesista]

Hi Cheri
Thank you for writing me and your words of encouragement. You're friendship is so appreciated. I do feel better today. Its not that I think everyone's world should be crashing too but like you said its really hard to deal with a world that doesn't have any clue what you're going through. Yesterday and today I miss rocky more than ever, I keep on...

Hesista

[DannysMom]

Hello hesista, I am sorry to hear about your run-in with the cop. And you are so right, the last thing we need is someone going off on a power trip when we're knee deep in grief. The world doesn't know we're grieving, because we don't walk around with a big sign on our forehead, and plus grief over our beloved furry friends is not socially sanctioned. People just want us to "get over it" quickly and move on with life. But it doesn't work that way. We need to shed the tears, because they express things that words alone cannot express. Your Rocky was special, and he gave you so much. He will always live on in your heart. I hope life is treating you kindly today.

Hugs,
DannysMom

[asorryone]

Hello All.

I lost my beloved best friend two weeks ago Tyson! She had a tumor in her gut and had been vomitting the two weeks previous. We left her in for an xray and got a phonecall to say there was nothing the vet could do. We were all so shocked. I thought she'd be fine, i never entertained the idea we would lose her. I miss her phyical presence so much, she was constant support and love in a very unstable world. I feel so lost. The house feels empty. I am struggling so hard to come to terms with it. It has provoked thoughts of death and ive become so worried about losing everyone i love. I miss her i just want to hold her once more!

Im lost at the moment. Its led me to thoughts of god, the afterlife, faith..i really want there to be a heaven..but we are bombarded with TV shows, science EVERYTHING that says God isnt real. Can somebody please talk to me. Help me get back to god. I want to be reunited with her again.

[hesista]

Dannysmom,thank you for writing the letter of support. That really helps. I have seen the pictures your new beautiful baby and her eyes are absolutely stunning. You are so lucky to have such a jewel as your beloved. How is yourbeloved Tina, is she improving? I really pray that she will live happy, healthy, and joyous

Asorryone, sweetheart, what you are going through is so hard. Did you post on the forum this letter so you can get the support that you need because that will really help you right now

Hesista