My Baby Boy :( Options

[DannysMom]

I also wanted to thank you for your last post in Danny's topic under the "Death and Dying support". I think you found just the right words and I was comforted by reading them. Thank you so much for caring!

[xxForeverxx]

Hi DannysMom and moon_beam

moon_beam your words have helped so much on this hard day today. Chewy's one year angelversary. I actually cannot believe how fast this year has gone. You are right I am sure Chewy is encouraging me to smile as he was such a special cat.....still is......that he would think of me first just like he always use to be my first thought. Your continued support really helps and I know you only know this through having to go through the same painful experience so I appreciate your wise words so much.

DannysMom thank you for thinking of me not just yesterday but throughout the whole year. This website really does find some incredible people the amount of support we get on here. I am glad you managed to find some times throughout christmas where you could smile. I think like moon_beam said it is what our lost loved ones are probably trying to encourage us to do. I am going to light some candles when my fiance comes back. At the moment I am avoiding anything that will remind me of the events of that day so instead of sitting n the sofa (like I was last year waiting helplessly for news) I am upstairs on the bed. I can not write my own poems either but I have found many today online that have found me comfort. I think your right about the knowing without knowing. It was almost like the whole of 2011 I had an obsession with him. I spent the whole year trying to find the perfect house not for me or my fiance or even our child we had planned but for Chewy. I think all along wherever I had chosen something would have happened as I feel it is too coincedental that after a whole year of trying to find the perfect house for him he is still cruelly taken away from me.

I still think back to that day after we had to let him go. My fiance also cried. I have never in the 7 years we have been together seen him cry. I think that shows just how special our little boy was and how much he had touched both our hearts.

I miss him terribly. Its weird Fudge, Pixie and Ellie have all come upstairs with me to sit in the bedroom. It is almost as if Chewy has sent them to comfort me. It is making me smile suprisingly.

I also think Chewy has played a part in something else today. On new years day I ordered the bedding for the cot and the pushchair which I was a little excited about. Whenever I order from the website it always take about a week for the stuff to turn up. The delivery is coming in the next hour......almost as if he is sending me something to keep me occupied this afternoon.

I love him so much. I always will. I am going to start a new post in the pet memorial and tribute section as I think it is the next place he should be remembered. Thank you all for your support through this difficult time. I will see you in my new post hopefully.

Chewy you are in my thoughts all the time and I miss you terribly. Love you baby.

xxForeverxx