Grieving My Beautiful Little Girl Options

[AlexisMarie]

I hope the adoption goes well at the end of the week for you. Any one of these beautiful creatures would be lucky to have you as a mom.

Lots of Hugs,
Annette

[Cheryl83]

Hi Juturna,

Just catching up with your journey, also. I am a firm believer that was is meant to be, will be. Our instincts are our angels way of trying to guide us in the right direction. So please listen carefully to them, and have trust in them. This way, I am certain, that whatever decision you make in the end, will be the right one.

If you are in any way unsure, then please try not to rush things. If little Haley is the girl for you, then she will still be there, when you are ready.

Take care of yourself and good luck,
Cheryl x

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I am glad you enjoyed your trip to NYC on Saturday. It is truly horrific what Japan is having to deal with. I cannot even fathom having to cope with TWO major natural disasters AT THE SAME TIME, with always the threat that subsequent "aftershocks" can add severe insult to existing devastation. My heart and prayers go out to them.

Juturna, how sweet that your significant other has so many pictures of your beloved Victoria on his computer, always ready for you to look at as you're up to doing so. Just take it slow and easy, my friend. At some point in time, when you least expect it, you will be able to look at these beautiful pictures and smile at each one, I promise you.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers as you continue your consideration of adopting Haley. I hope today is being kind to you, my friend, and that your evening will be blessed with your Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort, cheer, and guide you. I look forward to knowing how things are going for you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Dear Annette,

Thank you so very much for your warm affirming response. I really appreciate your saying that any would be fortunate to have me as a Mom. It feels like a huge decision, and I only wish that I could adopt more than one special needs companion right now.

With gratitude, peace and hugs,
Juturna

[Juturna]

Dear Cheryl,

Thank you so very much for your affirming support. I appreciate your reminder to trust my instincts and I will be guided. I've decided that I need to give this decision the necessary time to come into place. And know that I have been led to these canine adoption possibilities for a reason.

Wishing you a serene night.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

[Juturna]

Hi Moon_beam,

My heart goes out to the people and animals of Japan, as well. It is so horrific.

Thank you very much for your ever reassuring words that one day I will be able to view the abundance of beloved Victoria photos on my significant other's computer. We have pics of her in both our homes, but it became overwhelmingly sad yesterday seeing her on the computer.

Your thoughts and prayers are much appreciated related to my possible adoption of little Haley. (I would be changing her name; One of my clients has a precious Haley that I adore.) Right now I'm in canine deprivation, but I can not let that rush my decision. This is the longest that I have been without a canine companion in my adult life.

Hope you and precious Noah are having a peaceful night snuggling together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. How exciting that little Haley would be getting a new name!! I'm sure you have been thinking of names for her. I know as much as this is an exciting time for you, I also know there is still the sorrow in your heart missing your precious Victoria. The fact that you are now able to consider embracing a new lifetime companion is an endearing tribute to the love bond you and Victoria share, along with each of your beloved companions through the years. This is a big decision, so take your time, my friend.

I hope today is being kind to you, and that your evening will be blessed with the presence of your precious Victoria to comfort and cheer you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, just stopping by to say hello before shutting down this techno gizmo for the day. I hope today is being kind to you, and that your appointment with your accountant went well. I hope you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Presence to cheer and comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Dear Moon_beam,

Thank you very much for comforting words.

The accountant visit went well today.

Yesterday one of my clients brought in her little dog. It felt wonderful to have a sweet soft little love bug in my lap. I miss holding my beautiful Victoria. Today I was able to pet my neighbor's delightful little terrier mix.

Wishing you and your precious Noah a serene night together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, stopping by to get caught up on your news and say "hello." I'm glad the meeting with your accountant went well - - that's always good.

I'm glad you are finding comfort in the company of other fur friends, and I'm glad you are not feeling guilty about it - - as though you are being disloyal to your precious Victoria. In fact, this is what your precious Victoria wants for you - - to be comforted, and I firmly believe she is there whispering in the ears of these fur friends how to bring a smile to your heart. So, enjoy, my friend. By the way, have you had a chance to visit with Carousel this week and the goats?

I hope today is treating you kindly, my friend, and hope your evening is blessed with the presence of your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you. And please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Hi Moon_beam,

Thank you again for your kind compassionate words. It feels as though I am in canine deprivation; I just want to touch every dog that I see. I think I'm ready to adopt one.

I have not been able to visit Carousel and the goats since Mon. due to a hectic schedule this week and rainy weather. My plan is to visit and pet them tomorrow morning which I'm looking forward to. Carousel is the sweetest donkey, and I know she will be happy to see me.

Hope you and your precious Noah have a serene snuggle filled night. Please give him a hug for me.

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, thank you for sharing how things are going for you. "Furchild withdrawal" is a sure indication that your precious Victoria is encouraging you to definitely keep your options open. The how, when, and who depends on when you truly feel ready, and you believe with all your heart that your new potential companion is "the one".

Oh, I can so well relate to the "hectic" schedule. Remember - - it is the "quality" of time that you share with Carousel and the goats that matters the most. While quantity of time is always nice, it isn't always possible. This is why we must make the "most of the time" available, and I know you, Carousel, and the goats are going to do that today - - weather permitting.

I hope you have a very peaceful and pleasant day, my friend, - - and hopefully a relaxing one - - and that your evening will be blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Hi Moon_beam,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful message.

Visiting Carousel and the goats was joyful today. Carousel was busy eating her breakfast when I arrived. She stopped eating, turned around, and walked over to me. Lots of head petting, and the little goats followed.

I'm trying to trust that the adoption decision will gain clarity.

Wishing you and precious little Noah a peaceful night's sleep with pleasant dreams, and a serene weekend together.
With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, so glad to share with you how you're doing. Sounds like you had a wonderful visit with Carousel and the goats yesterday. How so very special that they preferred to be with you than to focus on their breakfasts. Now that's a real testimony to how much they look forward to seeing you.

I hope today will be a good one for you, a peaceful and pleasant one. And may your evening tonight be blessed with your precious Victoria's sweet Living Spirit to comfort and cheer you, and to bring an ease to your heart and mind about adoption decisions. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[JoanneL]

Got to get to bed but wanted to write you a quick note first. I have tried to catch up with you by reading some of your recent posts. Sounds like things are not solid for you yet. Please keep us posted on your decision.
I have found Kasper brings us so much joy and fun but we both still miss Zoe every day. It is a lot of work to bring a new fur child into the home but at least in your case you won't have to start from scratch with a puppy.
Got to go but please know I am thinking about you and praying with you in your journey to make the right decision.

[Juturna]

Dear Moon_beam and Joanne,

Thank you both so very much for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.

My beautiful Victoria would have turned 14 years old last week. I miss her greatly. Her spirit was always so strong and vibrant. It is oftentimes with me. I thought that I could hear her in her crate a couple nights ago. Her photos are all over my home.

I have moved on in my adoption search, and have a rescue application pending for another ##er spaniel. She has amber and white hair and is 2 years old. A home inspection is scheduled for tomorrow. I will keep you posted.

With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

[tahoeden]

Juturna,

I haven't been on this site much these last few months, though lately I've felt a need to check in, and saw your reply. Read your postings about having had to say good-bye to Victoria and saw the pics you posted. You stated that she would have recently turned 14. The birthdays and all the "first times" (holidays, day you got her, your own birthday) just hurt. I am sorry for your loss. I've been reading about your plans to adopt another. That's great. When you were talking about Haley (the deaf dog) it made me think back about 4 years ago when my dog, Kota, was starting to lose her hearing. I told her that I would be her ears and hear for her. And like you the last two years of her life I was more of in a caretaker role but I let her know that all of her suffering was never a burden on me.

I think that whatever decision you make, about an adoption, or even waiting, will be from the heart, and that somewhere along the way, the one you adopt is also in the process of choosing you. Let us know.

Dennis

[moon_beam]

Hi, Juturna, what WONDERFUL NEWS!! Today you are having a "home inspection" for your potential adoption. I am so o o excited for you!!! But as you look forward to a new lifetime companion, please know you are never ever leaving your precious Victoria "behind". Your beloved Victoria is sharing your earthly journey just as she always has and always will, and is SO APPROVING of your attempts to embrace another furchild into your heart and home.

It is hard when we have an "angel-versary" - - including the physical birthdays of our beloved companions. They are reminders of better times when they were physically with us. Our lives change for the better when they share our earthly journey, and they change again when they precede us to the angels. The good news is that we are blessed with their cherished memories in our hearts - - which are ours and ours alone to have, to hold, and to cherish - -for we are the ones who were "chosen" to be their earthly guardians and caregivers - - and to be blessed with their eternal love.

Juturna, thank you so much for sharing this new chapter in your adoption search with us. I will look forward to knowing how things go for you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, my friend.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[JoanneL]

Hi Juturna,
Anxiously awaiting news from you about your potential adoption. I hope the home visit went well and you will soon have a little furchild again. Please let us know.

[Peggy's Human]

HI Juturna,

Please accept my deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved Victoria. What beautiful pics you have of her! Looking at the pictures, it's clear that she was a dog who knew her mind and had joy in her life. There is a confident air of contentment about her. I am glad to hear that you're moving forward with the adoption process. Your story outlining how you've arrived at this point is very helpful. I lost my beautiful, loving Peggy 7 weeks ago. I have found myself drawn to websites with Golden's who are puppies and rescues but am not anywhere near ready to 'pull the trigger' to adopt.

Much of what you described, including the day you picked up Victoria's remains, hit home for me. After reading your story, I'm hoping my mother and I will be able to move beyond the pain of loss and possibly look toward adopting another dog later this year. I went to a shelter last week to drop off some of Peggy's things and some food. My 8 year old niece came with me and we took a dog for a walk, which she wanted me to adopt immediately. My heart was pulled toward the dog since he was a stray who is seriously underweight and he’s over the age of 10 so his chances of being adopted are a bit lower than for a puppy or young dog. However, I just can’t do it. I so much miss having a dog in my life but just can’t bring anyone in when we’re still so desperately sad about not having Peggy here. Reading your story gives me hope that I will eventually hit a point where I can open my heart to another animal who needs a loving home. And it helped me to realize that I need to take the necessary time to heal so I don’t move too soon. Personally, I have never been this deeply impacted by the loss of a beloved pet. I have had many in my life and loved them all but Peggy was special, even among the special pets. It sounds like you had a similar bond with Victoria so if you were finally able to get past the crippling pain, there is hope for the rest of us, if we’re patient enough to work our way through it. Thank you so much for sharing your story. It helped me and I’m sure it will help others as we (almost) blindly find our way through this terrible darkness of loss and back to a point of healing.

You will be in my prayers and I hope your home inspection went well and you are soon able to welcome the dog that’s meant for you.

Take care,

Peggy (the human)