Dearest Eileen Options

[magdalene]

Every so often I feel I need to come here and write to you. I know it's silly. It's certainly not like you're up in the sky somewhere logging onto a computer reading my messages. But oh well, I guess we all do what brings us a little comfort, huh?

I wanted to tell you your friend Cayenne is coming. We don't know when but probably soon. She has cancer. I'm heartbroken, of course. It comforts me, though, to know she'll be with you. She missed you terribly when you left and I'm sure you've missed her too. I've worried so much that you are lonely wherever you are now and it comforts me to know that after nearly five years, soon your friend will be with you and finally you won't be alone anymore.

Even though I know you need her and she needs you, I don't want to let her go. That's probably selfish in some way but in a way she is like my last connection to you. I love sharing my home with cats but I do not plan to get another after Cayenne goes. I still feel too much guilt over your death. I feel it would not be fair to another kitty for me to bring him or her home with me. I feel someone else can provide a better home. So Cayenne is my last kitty and it makes me sad to know that.

I love you still and I think of you all the time. And you'll be seeing your friend soon.

Mommy

[moon_beam]

Hi, Magdalene, thank you so much for sharing your loving letter to your precious Eileen with us. I am so sorry that you are now traveling the journey of anticipating the physical loss of your beloved Cayenne. Please know that your precious Eileen is reading every word you type, listening to every word you say, and is sharing everything in your daily activities just as she always has and always will. And she knows what is in your heart, for she is forever a part of your heart - - she is always a heartbeat close to you.

Magdalene, it isn't selfish to want to keep our beloved companions with us. We know your love for Cayenne is unselfish for we know you will make her journey to be reunited with Eileen in the company of the angels as peaceful as possible. Your love for your precious Cayenne is always focused on what is best for her, - - even when the sacrifice to you is the most painful sorrow you will know on this side of eternity.

Even though right now it feels like you are losing your connection to Eileen when Cayenne joins her in eternal joy, I hope in time you will know beyond all shadow of a doubt that they are forever with you in your heart and nothing can ever take them away from you. The love bond you share with your beloved Eileen and Cayenne is eternal.

Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Magdalene, and please let us know how things are going whenever possible. We are here for you, with you, and beside you.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[gailnightowl]

Every so often I feel I need to come here and write to you. I know it's silly. It's certainly not like you're up in the sky somewhere logging onto a computer reading my messages. But oh well, I guess we all do what brings us a little comfort, huh?

I wanted to tell you your friend Cayenne is coming. We don't know when but probably soon. She has cancer. I'm heartbroken, of course. It comforts me, though, to know she'll be with you. She missed you terribly when you left and I'm sure you've missed her too. I've worried so much that you are lonely wherever you are now and it comforts me to know that after nearly five years, soon your friend will be with you and finally you won't be alone anymore.

Even though I know you need her and she needs you, I don't want to let her go. That's probably selfish in some way but in a way she is like my last connection to you. I love sharing my home with cats but I do not plan to get another after Cayenne goes. I still feel too much guilt over your death. I feel it would not be fair to another kitty for me to bring him or her home with me. I feel someone else can provide a better home. So Cayenne is my last kitty and it makes me sad to know that.

I love you still and I think of you all the time. And you'll be seeing your friend soon.

Mommy

[gailnightowl]

Hi, I am new to this and just joined today. I just posted my story, and ran across yours. It made me cry to read that your losing another loved kitty. I am so sorry that you already have lost one, and now another one is going. I think sometimes it would be better not to have any feeling because of the pain we suffer when we lose our pets. I am not dealing well with the death of my cat that I had to have euthanized yesterday. I don't think I will ever be the same. My thoughts are with you. Angela!