My Precious Baby Girl Options

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, thank you so much for sharing with us about your conversation with the ranger. It's always amazing to me how perpetrators of animal - - and human - - cruelty always somehow manage to elude responsibility. I, too, am hoping and praying with all my heart that the girlfriend will be able to help the ranger bring some justice for you and your precious Bohdi.

Here in the United States there are some individual States that have laws making the owner responsible for their animals that attack other animals and people with legal charges that are felonies instead of misdemeanors. This is relatively new here in the US, and is a very slow process for the individual local courts to uphold, but still there is a growing recognition that responsibility is paramount in tragic and traumatic circumstances. Also, some jurisdictions do have laws preventing a repeated human offender of owning any animals in the future, and if found to break this ruling can be imprisoned. There have been quite a few cases here in my rural area of Franklin County, Virginia, over the years that have resulted in felony animal cruelty charges and imprisonment. It sounds to me like the owner of the poor unfortunate dog who murdered your precious Bohdi needs to have the harshest penalties processed against him -- and follow him for the rest of his life. He obviously has very little care for the dog, and probably any animal in general, so I'm seriously wondering what level of compassion he has for another human being. Both Scotland Yard and the FBI have profiled that sociopaths and sociopsychopaths have a proven history of animal abuse. Just from what you shared with us today, Rainbohdi, I cannot help but wonder what other abusive behaviors the owner of the dog might be doing. Perhaps if the ranger could get some history on this person he might be able to present a case of repeated offenses that would bring the judge / court to render the harshest judgment possible against him.

As for the dog, I agree with you that the most humane thing to happen is for him to be euthanized, for at this point he is probably not a candidate for behavioral rehabilitation. This is so sad because as a puppy he was an innocent little being who, if he had the fortune of a loving human caregiver - - the circumstances of his life - - and yours and your precious Bohdi's - - would be much different.

Rainbohdi, my heart goes out to you, for you are being subjected to one of the most horrible experiences on this side of eternity. I know what it's like to lose beloved companions as a result of cruelty by others, and I pray with all my heart that you will come to know that what happened to your precious Bohdi is NOT your fault - - NOT EVER - - NEVER - - your fault.

Rainbohdi, I am so glad you are wearing your Bohdi's heart ID tag around your neck, close to your heart. I hope this brings you comfort and peace, my friend, for you so deserve it. I hope you will have a peaceful evening, Rainbohdi, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Dear Rainbohdi,

Thank you for sharing your conversation with the ranger today. You are showing much strength and courage going through this. The owners of the attacking dog need to be punished severely and I only hope he/they are found with the dog before there is another tragedy.

As Moon-beam expressed so eloquently, what you have gone through is a most horrific experience and it was not your fault AT ALL. I love how you are wearing Bohdi's heart tag and know he is happy with that, as well. I hope wearing this brings you closer to his spirit offering you some peace.

With peace and healing thoughts from my heart,
Juturna

[rainbohdi]

thankyou so much for your responses. i know i wait a while between writing, but i do think of you and your furbabies often. it has been quite hot here, so if you feel a sudden warmth, it's thoughts from me.

i am in australia. he will have a number of infringement notices placed on him but i have been told that even they wont end up being alot of money and he cannot be prevented from owning more pets. so not alot will happen to him really. it makes me so incredibly sad and disheartened that in the eyes of the authorities, my precious baby girl really had no value. her life was taken in the most horrific of ways, she did absolutely nothing at all to cause that, but the person ultimately responsible for it will suffer a only small financial loss. i think his poor dog was just a possession to him that he will be able to replace.

i am having trouble sleeping. while i am awake i can steer my thoughts away from the horror of her death and make myself remember her whole and beautiful and clever and funny and just absolutely perfectly bohdi. in order to fall asleep though, you need to let go and it is in that moment that i get flooded with it full strength which jolts me awake. also, once i am asleep there are the nightmares and this trauma has unearthed old traumas too (ones i thought i had dealt with but find returning anyway).

i think my friends expect me to be moving on and so i find myself pretending to be coping. it is only here that i feel i can say how i really am.

i like wearing her heart id tag and i have a rolled up blanket i snuggle that i think i can still smell her on (not sure if i am deluding myself, not that it matters really so long as it helps). i talk to her and i find myself stroking her picture on my laptop.

i struggle with the fault thing. it is one of the reasons i will not get another dog. i don't trust in my ability to keep another one safe. more importantly though, i would be so paranoid and have to wrap it in cotton wool so much that it just would not be a good way for a dog to live. i could not knowingly subject a dog to that kind of life. but, like i said, that is not the only reason.

words can be so inadequate at times, especially in times of grief and especially when the grief is for the being that meant more to you than any other ever had or ever will, when you loved her so much you hadn't known it was possible to love someone so much and especially when her death was an act of senseless random violence that should never have been allowed to happen.




this is for bohdi and all your furbabies (i didn't write names, because i didn't want to accidentally miss someone out when the intent is for ALL of them, except of course if you don't want it)


take the gentlest of care
rb

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I do so understand what you're going through, for different traumatic circumstances. What you experienced with the horrible attack and fatal consequences of your precious Bohdi is a life changing event. I pray with all my heart that in time you will be able to feel peace in your heart once again.

I'm so sorry that the laws in Australia are not as strict about protecting companion furkids as they must surely be for the protection of livestock. Perhaps this is something you might be able to change - - or begin the process of changing - - if / when you feel up to the challenge of researching and making contacts, etc.. I'm just thinking that if you could bring public attention to the circumstances of what happened to your precious Bohdi then perhaps your precious Bohdi's bravery in her final moments can be a source of inspiritation and perhaps set in motion the upgrading of the protection of all beloved companions - - including the removal of furkids from people like the individual who had the poor unfortunate little soul who attacked your precious Bohdi. And this may in some way bring justice for you and your precious Bohdi.

Rainbohdi, I wish there was some way I could take this horrible pain from your heart, mind, and soul, but I do not have that power. I deeply feel your sorrow, for I have been where you are and know first hand the deep sadness that is in your heart - - and emptiness that is in your life - - and so truly understand why you feel it best for you to not have another furchild. Please know that whatever "decision" you make now is not engraved in stone, - - it does not have to permanent, for in time your precious Bohdi may be able to help you find some peace and comfort in your heart and reassure you that it's really okay to have another fur companion in your heart and life. But wherever your journey leads you, Rainbhodi, I can only reassure you that you are not alone, my friend, and to reaffirm to you that this is one place where you do not have to put on a "public face" with us.

Rainbohdi, I hope and pray that you will have a peaceful night tonight, filled with the sweet presence of your precious Bohdi's Living Spirit to keep you company. You are in my thoughts and prayers, Rainbohdi, and look forward to knowing how your doing whenever possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Dear Rainbohdi,

It is very disheartening that the authorities are not willing or able to protect companion dogs. You must be soooo
discouraged. Here in the US when there is an injustice to an animal, I've contacted PETA, and they have given me direction. I know there is a PETA in Australia. Also, as a member of animal rights groups, I know that if one of them decides to take on a case, the authorities will receive thousands of letters and emails, making it hard to ignore.

My heart feels your pain and emptiness. And as Moon_beam said, you are not alone. The sleep disturbance must be so very difficult on you. Your willingness to continue sharing your pain is a step towards healing, even though the pain seems endless right now.

I love how you roll up Bohdi's blanket. I often smell my precious Victoria's blankets, and at this point refuse to wash them. And I agree with you that words can be inadequate when the love and grief are enormously overwhelming.

Wishing you peace. And thank you for the candle.
With healing thoughts, and hugs,
Juturna

[Cheryl83]

Dear Rainbohdi,

My heart fills with such sadness at the injustice of what happened. I've wanted to write another response to you for a while now, but as you so eloquently said, words are just so inadequate at times, and I just couldn't find the right ones. So, I just want to say that I'm sorry for all you're going through, and that I'm thinking of you. Please continue to let us know how you're doing whenever you can.

Take care as best as you can,
Cheryl x

[rainbohdi]

Cheryl, Juturna and moon_beam - i can't thank to each of you enough for your time and your support and for sharing of yourselves. the world is a better place because you and people like you are in it.



i've been struggling to find words yet again which is why i've been so quiet.

i typed and deleted paragraph after paragraph so many times.

not sure why i'm even posting this, maybe someone will understand all of what i seem not to be able to say.



take gentle care
rb

[rainbohdi]

me again

writing to others has opened up a path to me. interesting how this site works in so many different ways.

for now i am going to let the ranger run the full course of his investigation and see what solution comes from it.

i've spoken to a neighbour recently and she had a dog seriously injured by another dog when she was living a couple of suburbs away. the ranger from that council did nothing and told her that they never did anything unless a human was involved, even if there was an animal fatality. she went to the newspapers and did some campaigning for action, all to no avail. so it's apparently lucky to even have a ranger that will take any action.

although i've been collecting information from various sources about the handling of dog attacks and dog laws in my state, if there isn't a satisfactory resolution through the ranger, im feeling very uncertain about me being able to do anything to change that in any way. for one thing, due to safety issues (for separate reason) i cannot be part of any media campaign. it also has been difficult to get alot of specific information from the ranger. i don't even know the breed of the dog that killed my girl. ugghh ... i'm rambling. i certainly have not given up on doing whatever i can to make sure the right thing gets done.





my bohdi girl

i miss you more than ever. even though you had just a wee little body, you had such a big presence and i miss that space that you filled with your joy and your cutenss. i miss your kisses and licks and snuggles. i miss how soft you were and how you looked at me full of love and knowing. i miss you being my nurse when i was sick. i miss watching you chuck your toys around and the awesome greetings you gave all your people. i could write forever of the things i miss about you.

i'm so blessed to have had you in my life for the time i did. you healed me, you taught me and most of all you loved me. you were such an amazing little poppet.

i hope you are happy and bouncing about all over the place. i hope you met up with your 'him', he would have been so overwhelmed with delight and love to see you again.

i'm sorry baby, so sorry.

remember my one and only baby girl that i love you with all my heart, forever and always
snuggles and kisses and the biggest loves

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, thank you so much for letting us know how you're doing and how things are going. You are very wise to let the ranger handle things, particularly since there are safety issues for you if you were to try to go public. Just remember there are many different paths to obtaining "justice," - - sometimes it's the smallest thing you say to someone who can then relate your story to someone else who is "higher up" in the judicial system, who can then share your story with someone else who can actually begin the process to change the law - - which takes a very long time. Here in the US it took literally YEARS for specific counties to even discuss the problem of dangerous animals unless it affected livestock - - there was NO interest in the emotional value of a beloved companion unless it was of Pedigree, and then only financial compensation was offered for the "cost" of the companion. Only within the last 15 to 20 years have the laws here in the US begun to recognize that companion animals have "worth" - - both physical and emotional - - and the laws that have been changed to reflect this are now slowly in the process of being uniformly upheld in the courts. It still all depends on the judge who gets the case.

The thing for you to remember is that you are TRYING to do what is right for your precious Bohdi, to obtain some form of justice for the both of you. This is all you can do, Rainbodhi, and I promise you your efforts will not go unnoticed by the most important person of all - - your precious Bohdi who is watching over you and loving you with all her heart.

Please believe me when I say this can also be very consuming - - both physically and emotionally - - and I know your precious Bohdi would want you to focus on your loving memories of the earthly journey you shared together - - not just on the horrible moments that took her physically away from you. I say this because I know how deeply a traumatic event can change a person emotionally - - I live with it every day, too. So, please know that you have an advocate on your side - - although on a different continent. I wish there were something more tangible, more real, I could do for you, Rainbohdi. I wish I could hop a plane and come visit you and look in your eyes and tell you face to face how very sorry I am for all that you are going through, but that isn't in the finances, I'm sorry to say. Nonetheless I hope and pray with all my heart that you can feel my heart reaching out to you across the cyber miles offering you my sincerest friendship to comfort and encourage you.

Thank you so much for sharing your loving letter to your precious Bohdi with us. Believe it or not your love bond will grow stronger through your continued earthly journey - - for she is always with you - - always a heartbeat close to you.

Rainbohdi, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Juturna]

Dear Rainbohdi,

You have a course of action now in your search for justice. And the ranger seems to have a real interest in this. Trauma such as you went through is more than an extremely difficult life experience. As Moon_beam said, it can change you forever.

I adore the note to your precious Bohdi girl. Your memories are so dear and full of love. I believe she is smiling and happy.

And thank you for supporting my feelings with my new canine adoption. It was just too soon and I will be taking him back to the shelter tomorrow. I trust that he will be adopted very quickly by someone who is ready for him, as he's a little love. I'm anxious about it, and need to work on forgiving myself. Your friendship is so very much appreciated.

With gratitude and peace,
Juturna

[JoanneL]

I have not posted to you as I have been away with no computer.

I can't imagine what a horrible experience you had when your baby was attacked. I just want you to know that I am thinking of you and hoping with time things will get easier.

[rainbohdi]

the dog who murdered my precious girl has been euthanised. the owner will receive infringement notices amounting to several hundred dollars (dog causing a nuisance, dog not on a lead & dog not wearing registration/id).

i feel empty and sad and angry and confused and lost. i don't think it was enough, the owner was at the very least incredibly irresponsible and this resulted in two dogs dying. what is with 'dog causing a nuisance' ... it savagely mauled my girl to death.

i don't think that justice was served for the loss of my most precious baby girl.

i miss her more than i can cope with. it feels like i just lost her all over again. my thoughts are constantly overtaken by the horror of that day, no matter how hard i try to make it otherwise.

i'm sorry to you all, i'm sorry to my sweet bohdi girl, i'm just so so sorry.

[Cheryl83]

Rainbohdi,

I'm so, so sorry for this terrible outcome. I really was hoping and praying for a more just punishment. I cannot believe that they can label what happened as a "dog causing a nuisance". That's just disgusting. A dog barking all night long; a dog constantly tolieting on somebody else's garden -- these are all things that should be labeled as a "dog causing a nuisance" -- not a dog taking the life of somebody's baby. This is so, so sad and all I can say is -- I'm sorry.

Rainbohdi, I hope you're getting some help from conselling services. You are going to need all the support in the world to get this through. All I can say is, try not to worry about your precious Bohdi now -- she is in a wonderful place, full of sunshine and happiness, surrounded by all of her favourite treats. And she is sensing your heartache and thinking, "Don't be sad, Mommy, I love it here. It's great! And I will keep coming to visit you. I'll never leave you! And I will wait for you, here at rainbow bridge, until it's your appropriate time to join me; and then we will cross the bridge together..."

Hang in there, Rainbohdi. Keep taking it one day at a time. We're all here for you.

Hugs, Cheryl xx

[Juturna]

Dear Rainbohdi,

Justice was not served. What a disgusting outcome that the owner was fined so minimally, and received no jail time. Karma will take place in due time for him.

This has brought the trauma to the surface again for you. And the pain must be so overwhelming. Please know that I only wish that I could take it away for you. My heart aches for you and with you. I am so very sorry that you have to go through this. You are not alone here.

As Cheryl said, your precious Bohdi is in a wonderful place. And she wants you to know that.

With peace and prayers,
Juturna

[moon_beam]

Dear Rainbohdi, please permit me add my sincerest sympathies in the outrageous injustice that has been done to both you and your precious Bohdi by the "judicial" system. I, too, am very sad that more penalities were not invoked against the "owner" of the dog who brutally murdered your precious girl. For different tragic reasons many years ago I do understand your anger and frustration and desolate feelings. For me, I had no healthy way to vent my anger, and everyone around me was telling me it was time to "move on." This only deepened my anger, and eventually I ended up in a crisis situation that took a lot of counseling to get me to where I can function.

As Cheryl has already so compassionately mentioned, so I also wish to add that I pray with all my heart that you will be afforded the assistance of a compassionate counselor who can help you through this trauma. And as both Cheryl and Juturna have reassured you, so I add mine to theirs: We are here with you, for you, and beside you every step of your journey, Rainbohdi. I hope and pray with all my heart that you can feel both our collective and individual support and encouragement reaching out to you across the cyber miles to comfort and strengthen you in this time of deepest sorrow.

Rainbohdi, I know right now things look very dark in your heart, and you're questioning how you can possibly continue on in your earthly journey. Please believe me I do understand your pain. Hopefully with a lot of support from each of us here and your friends, and the assistance of a compassionate counselor, you will be able to find an acceptable answer to this question, and others, that are burdening your heart. Your precious Bohdi does not want you overcome with grief and guilt with what happened to her - - it is NOT and NEVER WILL BE your fault.

Rainbohdi, please know you are close in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[rainbohdi]

*~*~*~* i can feel your support and caring and i really don't know where i'd be without you. i have read this thread many times, trying to soak up the comfort and validation and great advice you've offered. i can't thank you enough for hanging in with me. i wish i could offer you more ... please know that even though i may not post in your threads much, i do think of you and your furbabies often and send you gentle healing thoughts. *~*~*~*



the ranger is supposed to contact me to arrange to show me evidence that the dog was euthanised (the right dog, as much as anything). he was waiting for proof of it when i spoke to him on friday. when i see him then i plan to tell him a little more of what i think about the fines, especially seeing as he told me a couple of weeks ago that he would be giving the owner every infringement he possibly could (and i am sure the dog act gives him scope to fine for much more than just 'dog causing nuisance').

i'm angry at the owner and at the system, like really really angry. i don't know what to do with that at all. i hate being angry, it's not who i am. i have had plenty of bad things happen to me that most people would get really angry about but i haven't. this is different because it happened to my sweet innocent baby girl. she was so fit and healthy, walked for miles every day, played and ate well, loved with all her huge heart and found joy in every moment she was awake for. nobody ever believed her age when they were told, they guessed her to be so much younger. it was not her time to go and it would never have been the right way for her (or any furbaby) to go.

sleep is a real problem, even with medications. when i close my eyes i am flooded with visions of my precious bohdi being so violently attacked. try as i may i can't seem to stop it happening. during the day i can control it more. i'm so tired.

tomorrow (well actually later today as it's 1.50am now) i have an appointment with my doctor and i am going to ask him for help regarding finding some counselling. he has been very supportive, helpful and compassionate over the years with various physical and emotional issues. he also knows that bohdi was my world. i hope he can help, it's not easy to find someone good that i can both afford and get to (i can't drive). i need help so badly though, i know that and i know it needs to be soon.

i talked with my 91 year old aunt yesterday, she isn't really my aunt and she's actually much more like a grandma. she adored bohdi and used to brag about her and talk about her antics to everyone she met. she babysat bodhi for me many times. her health isn't great and her family didn't think she could cope with knowing how bohdi died. it makes it so hard. she said something about bohdi dying without suffering and i had to hold on tight to stop from breaking down in tears and telling her that was as far from the truth as possible.

[moon_beam]

Hi, Rainbohdi, thank you so much for letting us know how you're doing. Please believe me when I say I do so understand how you're feeling with the anger, "i'm angry at the owner and at the system, like really really angry. i don't know what to do with that at all." For different reasons I do so understand, and it is something that even now I sometimes still struggle with the anger of the U.S. judicial system. But it no longer is a daily obsession, and for that I am very grateful.

As for the lack of sleep, I also know what you mean. It took quite awhile for the nightmares and "stuck needle in a groove of a vinyl record" to ease for me, too, when I tried to sleep. But I promise you, Rainbohdi, the nightmares and flashbacks do subside - - it just takes time, my friend. I know it seems to you right now that things now are the way they will always be, but I promise you, my friend, they will eventually get better. It's just going to take time, and lots of support from those who truly do understand, and believe me - - - each of us here truly DO understand. I"m glad you have an appointment with your doctor today, and I hope he is able to offer you both some encouragement and a referral to a compassionate counselor.

I am so sorry that your elderly friend is not cognizant of the trauma you are going through, although for her fragile situation it is so special of you to continue to protect her from the shock. Your selfless compassion is admirable, Rainbohdi, and is a testimony to the very special person you are.

Rainbohdi, I hope and pray with all my heart that you feel my friendship reaching out to you across the cyber miles. I truly do understand what you are going through, my friend. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to knowing you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Peggy's Human]

*~*~*~* i can feel your support and caring and i really don't know where i'd be without you. i have read this thread many times, trying to soak up the comfort and validation and great advice you've offered. i can't thank you enough for hanging in with me. i wish i could offer you more ... please know that even though i may not post in your threads much, i do think of you and your furbabies often and send you gentle healing thoughts. *~*~*~*



the ranger is supposed to contact me to arrange to show me evidence that the dog was euthanised (the right dog, as much as anything). he was waiting for proof of it when i spoke to him on friday. when i see him then i plan to tell him a little more of what i think about the fines, especially seeing as he told me a couple of weeks ago that he would be giving the owner every infringement he possibly could (and i am sure the dog act gives him scope to fine for much more than just 'dog causing nuisance').

i'm angry at the owner and at the system, like really really angry. i don't know what to do with that at all. i hate being angry, it's not who i am. i have had plenty of bad things happen to me that most people would get really angry about but i haven't. this is different because it happened to my sweet innocent baby girl. she was so fit and healthy, walked for miles every day, played and ate well, loved with all her huge heart and found joy in every moment she was awake for. nobody ever believed her age when they were told, they guessed her to be so much younger. it was not her time to go and it would never have been the right way for her (or any furbaby) to go.

sleep is a real problem, even with medications. when i close my eyes i am flooded with visions of my precious bohdi being so violently attacked. try as i may i can't seem to stop it happening. during the day i can control it more. i'm so tired.

tomorrow (well actually later today as it's 1.50am now) i have an appointment with my doctor and i am going to ask him for help regarding finding some counselling. he has been very supportive, helpful and compassionate over the years with various physical and emotional issues. he also knows that bohdi was my world. i hope he can help, it's not easy to find someone good that i can both afford and get to (i can't drive). i need help so badly though, i know that and i know it needs to be soon.

i talked with my 91 year old aunt yesterday, she isn't really my aunt and she's actually much more like a grandma. she adored bohdi and used to brag about her and talk about her antics to everyone she met. she babysat bodhi for me many times. her health isn't great and her family didn't think she could cope with knowing how bohdi died. it makes it so hard. she said something about bohdi dying without suffering and i had to hold on tight to stop from breaking down in tears and telling her that was as far from the truth as possible.

Dear Rainbohdi,

I am new to this site and just finished reading your story. I lost my sweet Golden Retriever, Peggy, 2 weeks ago and my heart is broken into a million pieces. Reading your story, the pieces shattered even more. I am so sorry for the loss, pain and the horrible memories you've been forced to endure. I wish I could hold you in my arms and rock to you to a gentle,peaceful, healing sleep. I truly hope your Dr is able to help direct you to a compassionate, skilled counsler who can help you through this incredibly painful time. I wish there was a magic phrase I could offer, which would help ease your pain.

Please forgive me if what I'm about to say is out of line but from what you said a little earlier, working on Bohdi's very touching memorial service offered you an opportunity to focus on something other than those final moments. I'm wondering if it would help you to initiate legal action against the owner? Since the true consequence of the event was to his dog, who paid with his life, and not the owner, maybe taking legal action and forcing him to accept some consequences for his irresponsible disregard would help you gain back some of your power - which was cruely ripped away. I think the injustice of the situation is adding further to your pain and frankly, the owner of the other dog should be paying for any counseling you need. He is the only one responsible for the entire situation - his dog wasn't taught to be social and safe, his dog wasn't properly restrained and if the dog was used for illegal hunting, he clearly encourged aggressive behavior against other animals. There is nothing you or anyone else (except the owner) could have done to prevent this horrible tragedy. It may be possible to create some legal/civil repercussions for him. And usually with irresponsible, uncaring bottom-dwellers like this owner, making them pay out of their wallet usually is the only thing that gets their attention and possibly changes their future behavior - this type bonds stronger with their money than they do with other living things. I know suing for money won't really help you or bring your beautiful Bohdi back, but maybe it would help empower you again and force this irresponsible owner to change his complete disregard for the safety of others.

I pray with all my heart that your pain and horrific memories ease and that someday soon you are able to celebrate Bohdi's life with only fond memories and smiles. It is totally understandable that you have been so deeply traumatized and it's taking time for those images to fade to the background. Please know that anyone who has a special bond with their furry family member would be going through exactly the same pain. It is completely 'normal' and there is nothing you have to apologize for, to anyone.

Please be assured that Bohdi is healthy, happy and missing you but patiently waiting until the day you are reunited and probably trying to find ways to ease your pain. I am positive he is safe, and knows he's safe so please don't worry about where he is and if he's okay. Animals hold a special place in God's eyes and heart and he loves and protects them when he calls them home. Bohdi and the other dog will never cross paths again, so please rest easy on that account.

I will keep you and Bohdi in my prayers, asking that your heart be granted the peace you so desperately need and deserve. Please hang in there. I know it's almost impossible to breathe or even move forward at times but I promise you, you are not alone. You will never forget him but the pain and horrible memories will eventually move back enough so they're not the strongest memories of his beautiful life.

Please know that you are in my heart and I will continue to pray for you.

Peggy

[Juturna]

Dear Rainbohdi,

Of course you are angry. You were expecting justice and this was not what happened. I'm sorry that sleep is so difficult. Sleep deprivation feels so awful.

I'm glad you are asking your docotr for a referral, and hope he knows of a compassionate couselor who you can work with.

Please know that I'm sending you healing thoughts and prayers.
With peace and gratitude,
Juturna

[rainbohdi]

not sure why, no words coming so we got a picture instead



12 weeks today, 3 months on the 26th