Starting To Freak Out, new furbaby Options

[My heart Cooper]

A couple weeks ago, my husband and I decided to get a puppy. She was only a few weeks old so we knew it would be another month before we got her, which gave us a couple months after Cooper passed. We went to see her two weekends ago. I've been very excited about it and she is so cute. But last night and today, when I think of bringing her home, I get this heavy feeling in my chest. I just feel like I'm going to freak out. I'm afraid I'm not ready for it. I had been doing ok with Coop's loss but once I hit a month, I've been having a really awful time again. I'm so confused. I do want to add a dog to the house. I think Rudy needs it, as much as we do. But I'm so unsure all of a sudden. I know it will be an adjustment, but what if I'm not ready? I've also been taking fertility meds this past week, trying to get pregnant, so I'm hoping the intense emotions I've been having out of nowhere are partially due to that and they'll calm down now that I'm done with the meds. I'm just scared I won't be able to love Dori as much as I should or as much as she deserves.