Buck, My precious angel sleeps Options

[Foxysmummy]

Oh Donna, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know what it's like to lose pets close together. The ONLY consolation is that Buck, Fasier and Niles are all together again. I feel so sad for you and your DH, look after yourselves.

Irene xx

[Brutus]

Oh Donna, I am so sorry. I totally understand...in Brutus' head he thought he was immortal, but the body just didn't cooperate.

Hugs to you and your husband and your beautiful angel Buck,
Sonya

[patricia]

dear donna. you are in my thoughts and prayers. - patricia

[Cheryl83]

Dear Donna,

There are no words. I know you are going through the rawest of pain right now. You feel like someone has ripped your insides out. You feel like you will never get over this. You are not sure if you even want to. All you can do right now - is breathe. As hard as it is, as much as it hurts - just keep breathing. Take each moment at a time. If you want to scream, scream. If you want to cry, cry. If you want to sit there and stare into space, sit there and stare into space. Try to drink plenty of water, grieving and crying takes its toll on your body and can dehydrate you easily. Don't worry about food too much right now, I know it will be impossible to get down. But if you can, just try to force a few bites of cracker etc. Your mind, body, and soul will be going through hell right now.

Try not to think too much. Push "what ifs" etc out of your mind. Don't think, just let yourself feel what you need to feel. Again, take each moment at a time.

You are in all our thoughts and prayers.

Cheryl

[tanbuck]

Cheryl, thank you. And thank you to everyone. Cheryl, your description of what I'm feeling could have been written by me. You captured it right on. I'm just wandering around the house like a zombie. I pick things up and put them down. I go to do things and then don't do them. I can't breathe sometimes. There's a wet blanket of depression draped over me. It's so heavy.
Being this is the third time, I feel flogged. Beaten down. And who would I talk to during this? Buck. But I can't. Not the way I need to.
You're right about the dehydration and I'm especially concerned about my husband. I know he's not drinking enough water at work today. I'm worried about him. And yes, food just isn't in the picture. I haven't eaten but a few bites since noon yesterday. My breakfast is still sitting on the stove. And it's 2:00 p.m.
My head hurts, my eyes are swollen, my mouth is dry. I hate this.
-Donna

[Cheryl83]

I know, Donna. I hate that you're going through this. I hate that we all have to go through this.

Just focus on those two things for now: breathing and hydrating. When the loss is as raw as it is right now, that's all you can do. Try to encourage your husband to drink more water. It will be even harder to cope with things and focus if he is dehydrated. I bet you have a pounding headache too? Again... water, and if it gets really bad take some painkillers.

Remember to breathe. Remember we are all thinking of you and going through this with you.

Hugs, Cheryl X

[moon_beam]

My dear friend, Donna, I'm home from work now and am getting caught up on posts. My ISP went down last night and that was aggravating because I couldn't access anything.

I am so, so very sorry about Buck. My heart sank when I read the topic header, and I'm sharing in your tears and heartbreak. As comforting as it is to know he's at peace now with Frasier and Niles it doesn't fill the dark void of having yet another adjustment to make as you continue in your journey on this side of eternity.

I still have Oslo's basket of toys out where they always were - - haven't been able to put them away - - may never put them away - - as well as a few of his other things. Do whatever feels comforting for you, Donna.

I know that this grief journey is a one day at a time journey, and that it can only be traveled in your own way and at your own pace. But whatever that pace is, Donna, and for however long it takes, please know you really are not alone. We are here to hold you up when you feel you don't have the strength to carry on and can't bear the burden of your sorrow any longer. We are here for you to scream at when your heart is filled with anger and frustration. We are here to embrace you when words are impossible because of the gut wrenching tears. We are here to listen when you just need to talk. And we are here to try to offer you comfort and encouragement as best as we can each step of the way.

Donna, please know you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers, my dear friend, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Donna
I understand how you would love to take away your husbands pain. Us as women even try to bare the pain of everyone around us that we love. When they hurt we hurt even more. I to couldnt stand to see my husband sobbing out of control. The day we brought Dozer ashes home my husband went in the bedroom and just held them and cried and cried. He said he had lost his best buddy. He talked to those ashes as if Dozer was laying in his arms. Telling him that he wanted him to know he would have done anything to save him. So I know exactly what you are going through watching your husband. These angels were are children they depended on us more so then our 2 legged ones. When you raise them from little babies, wipe up thier poop potty train them to go outside love them unconditional nurture them when they are sick, our lives will never be the same without them. We all here are a special breed of people. There are true animal people and there are people who just have them. We are the ones who truely loved and made them our family. That is why god blessed us with the angels we had, he knew we would take the best possible care of them. Each and everyone one of us did everything humanly possible to love and take care of them. I am thinking of you and your husband. Please tell him I am so sorry for his loss also.

Hugs to you Both
Anna and My Angels
xoxo

[tanbuck]

Thank you again for your words of comfort. No one but y'all could possibly offer the support that you do and I am eternally grateful to you all. As you know, it just helps so much to hear someone else put into words exactly how you feel. It makes it feel a little less lonely. I have finally taken a shower so I feel physically better. There's so much that needs to be done around the house but I just can't. Things that I'd like to have done before my husband gets home. Dinner being one of those things!
Here are a couple of my favorite pictures of Buck. I love the closeup one. And the one at the beach was from 4 years ago. It was his only trip to the beach and I am so happy that he got to go. That picture depicts the love and bond my husband and he had, I think. For 11 1/2 years, our lives were content just serving Buck. What a gift he was and is. I've sent a thank you note to the people I got him from to let them know and to thank them for the precious gift they gave. I believe he is the last of his litter to go. That makes me proud of my boy!

[smokey/lady/max]

Donna
It is true true pictures are worth a thousand words. Also makes me think how just the other day my husband said he is so
sad that we never got to take dozer to the beach he loved the water. We were planning to take him this summer. We got
our camper all fixed up and had planned to take it and him this year. Dozer loved the water he would get in the pool all the
time with my husband. I am so glad that your buck got to go and you have the pictures and beautiful memories to cherish.
Your angel was so pretty Donna. I know you just miss him to pieces. What a wonderful life our Angels had. None of us should have any guilt when I see everyones pictures posted here. The pictures tell a story and show the love and bond that we had with them. That bond reaches far from this world and will never die. We will always share the bond spiritual even if we can not see or touch them.

Hugs
Anna

[Cheryl83]

Beautiful. And just look at those happy eyes. A dog well-loved. :-)

Cheryl X

[moon_beam]

Dear Donna, what wonderful pictures of your handsome Buck. He knows that he is loved forever even though he is no longer physically with you and your husband. I pray that you will feel his sweet Living Spirit with you, always with you, wherever you go and whatever you do.

What you are going through physically and emotionally is very normal - - the wandering, the absent-mindedness, the lack of strength to do just the minimal of physical activity, the need to put all your strength - - literally - - into just focusing, the lack of appetite. Your mind and your body are in a state of shock, Donna, from everything that you have been through over the last several weeks, and months. It will be important to try to keep the stress levels as low as possible for awhile, even though I know that will be a challenge with having to go to work, etc..

It never ceases to amaze me how "life goes on" in spite of the fact that our lives are disintegrating around us wondering however on earth we are ever going to just get through the next minute - - and wondering why there should be a "next minute" at all.

Donna, I wish there were words that I could write that would help you to better know what is in my heart. I can only hope that somehow as you read my posts you will be able to read between the lines and feel the sincerest sorrow that I share with you in your loss of Buck and Niles and Frasier, and the sincerest friendship that is reaching out to you across the miles.

Donna, my friend, you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[tanbuck]

Anna, Cheryl, Moonbeam, thank you so much. Doesn't it make you feel good when someone else talks about how pretty your furbaby is? Moonbeam, I do hear you. I do get your comfort and understanding. It means more than words can ever tell. I would have gone insane over the last several months without this forum. I've never seen anything like it. Thank you for your words of comfort. It is so much appreciated.
-Donna

[janika]

Donna, the photos of your darling Buck are wonderful. What a beautiful, happy boy. I'm so glad that you have posted them for us to see. It's time for bed for me now. I will say special prayers for you and your husband and your darling Angels Frasier, Niles and Buck, who together will be watching over you. I know that this will have been the most dreadful day for you and your husband. Look after yourselves, the household chores can wait. I do hope that tomorrow brings you a little more peace. Keep posting the photos , I know it helps, and we all love to see them.
Good Night and God bless.
Love and hugs
Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx

[Storminyte]

Donna...I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through having lost all of your boys in a year. I'm glad to hear that you decided to take some time for yourself. Sometimes it helps to re-center yourself, so that you can get through the coming days.

Although there is absolutely nothing that anyone can say to make things better...know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...

Dee

[Storminyte]

Donna...I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you are going through having lost all of your boys in a year. I'm glad to hear that you decided to take some time for yourself. Sometimes it helps to re-center yourself, so that you can get through the coming days.

Although there is absolutely nothing that anyone can say to make things better...know that you are in my thoughts and prayers...

Dee

[Brutus]

Love the pics Donna....Buck so reminds me of Brutus...I understand how hard it is to breathe right now for you and your husband...I really do..Hugs is all I can say...I am thinking and praying for you both. I am hoping there really is a rainbow bridge and Brutus, Oslo,Poppers, and Callaway were all there to welcome Buck. Labs all together again.

Love,
Brutus' Mom

[tanbuck]

Jan, Dee, and Sonya, thank you for your kind words. And for the compliments on Buck's pictures. It's very quiet tonight in our home. We're just being washed over and over with the realization that Buck was so much a part of every little thing. We have been discussing all the things we did for him over the years. But everything we did for him, we did for ourselves because he was the blessing. What a special man he was! All of our furbabies are special. I appreciate everyone reaching out to me but I hate that the reason you can all do it is because you've been or still are where I am tonight. The hurt is suffocating at best. Letting go of our routines and considering him with everything is beyond hard. There just aren't words for the process you go through to get to the new normal. Normal, there's a word.
I'll go back to work tomorrow. So many changes this week. I'm going to bed. Thank you all again. Your friendship is awesome.
-Donna

[tanbuck]

oh gosh, I'm at work & I just checked the temperature outside to see if I needed to go home to let Buck inside.
-Donna

[missy]

I know just how you feel.
For the longest time I would open the front door slowly because Opie would always be right there waiting for me when I got home. I would even swear I felt his paws pressing against the door as I opened it. But he's not there.
At first there are so many things that remind you of your furbaby. Every single thing I did would involve Opie. It has taken these last 3 months to slowly get used to him not being here. I still cry every day. I miss him so much.
Take care.