I Miss Him So Much!, Why him? Options

[janika]

Thinking of you, Missy.


love and hugs xx Jan and my Angels and Pixie xx

[missy]

Thanks so much you guys.
I'm still totally devastated. What drives me nuts is, there is nothing I can do to bring him back. I want him back. But I can't get him back. It's hard to deal with. I know a lot of you are dealing with the same feelings. I keep telling myself that his life wouldn't have been good if he were still here. But that doesn't help me much. Nothing seems to make me feel better. I guess I just have to keep waiting for time to heal me.

[missy]

Feeling sad today.
Today was grocery day. For the first time since Opie died, I got some meat at the deli. I used to always get a little bit of shaved roast beef for him as a treat. I would tell the guy at the deli that it was for my cat. He would say what a lucky cat I had. Today I told him that Opie passed away. It's just so sad

[Loci]

I'm so sorry that you're feeling your loss so badly. It's so weird when it hits us and how it hits us. I just met our new neighbors and they started talking about their dog and they said "hope he's not too annoying". OF course I proceeded to say how much I love dogs and how we had to put our doggie down right before the move and then I started crying......in front of people I don't even know. Crazy.

In any case, be kind to yourself. Know that your baby is with you in spirit. Talk to Opie. Let her know how much you miss her and love her. I am sure Opie is listening.

[missy]

Friday was the 3 month anniversary of Opie's passing.
I am still so heart broken. I have come to accept it a bit better, but I feel a part of me is missing.

[ladywolf]

I'm thinking of you today, Missie, and wondering how you are doing over the long weekend? Opie was a big part of your life--I'm not surprised that his loss still really really hurts. But am glad to hear that you have come to accept it more.

Opie was a real sweety-pie and very beautiful!

Big Hugs from Margi and Ladywolf

[missy]

Thank you so much for your kind words.
A lot of not-so-nice things have been happening around me lately. Opie was always such a bright light in my life. A sweet ray of sunshine. That cat never ever was in a bad mood. Not once. He was always purring and happy to see you.
I miss him so much. I really need that sunshine back in my life. My other cat is nice, but just not the same. She is a nervous cat and doesn't show love the way Opie did. I feel like getting a kitten, but I am quite sure Lily wouldn't like it. I will just wait a bit longer and see how I feel.
Hugs again for your comment!

[missy]

I'm having a hard day. I was on my way to the post office before it closed and saw two people looking at a squirrel laying the on the sidewalk. I went over and asked what happened and they said he just fell out of the tree and was still alive. I didn't know what to do! I didn't have a cell phone and I was late for the post office. So I ran to the post office dropped off the packages, and ran back. The squirrel was still there he had moved a bit from where he was. He was covered in flies and would have what looked like seizures every so often. I started to cry. One man came over and he said that someone had already called animal services and that they were on their way. I wanted to move the squirrel out of the way of cars (it's kind of like a drive way there where cars pull in) so this guy went and got a sallow cardboard box and helped me move the squirrel to where he was safe from traffic in the garden. Everyone then left and I stayed with the squirrel. He would convulse every few minutes. I ran back into the building to make sure they called animal service to come help. He said they did and that they would come within the hour. I stood out there for three hours. The squirrel stopped breathing. I am quite sure he is dead. They never showed up to help.
I am sad now. Brings back sad feelings of my Opie.

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Missy
I guess they didnt come because it was a squirrel but they to are also a living and beautiful animal. Some people just dont have feelings. We here like I have said many many times are special people that is why are angels were sent to us. I know your angel Opie
is now caring for that little guy. I am sorry it brought back sad feelings.

Hugs
Anna and my precious angels

[tahoeden]

I think it's very sweet of you, and kind, that you stayed there with the squirrel. That happenned to me years ago, at the Post Office also, finding a baby bird hopping around the parking lot. I got a box, picked her up, went to different business' to find someone to take her. Then found out about a local pet rescue/rehab that took the bird. Up here where I live, there are a lot of deer, and I see dead ones along the hiway every now and then. And like you, it makes me think of having had to put Kota down. It's nice to know there are people like you in the world. I am sorry for your loss of Opie.

Dennis
"My religion is simple...my religion is kindness."
--Dalai Lama--

[JohnG]

Missy,

I'm sorry you're having to go through this grief period. It seems as though it will never end. Your story of the squirrel broke my heart. I've been feeding squirrels in the park lately and it's one of the few things that distracts me from my own grieving.

I once tried to rescue a tiny mouse where I worked. They had put out glue traps, which I think is absolutely horrible. I found the tiny little mouse trapped but still alive. I rode the bus to and from work at the time and had the mouse (still stuck to the trap) in a small box on my lap. When I got home I proceeded to cut the fur away and get him free. It took a couple hours altogether. I have no idea how long he had been stuck but I'm certain that the glue was toxic and even though I couldn't ultimately save him I at least made his last few hours more comfortable. I was heavy into journaling at the time and wrote a long entry that ultimately became stained with tears. I buried him in the garden of my apartment building.

I think the death of any creature is terrible. When we form an emotional connection it becomes especially hard to cope with. Our little bundles of furry love have forever changed us for the better. And their loss changes us yet again. I only hope that you continue to push through this terrible grief and that each day gets a little easier.

Today is one week since my little Gabby passed. It's so difficult. Almost unbearable. I keep wishing her back. Wishing this was all some awful nightmare. Almost too hard to go on. But we must endure.

Please be well and find happiness when you can.

John

[missy]

Your story about the mouse made me cry. It is so sad what people do to animals that they don't consider "pets". It is heartbreaking. It's good to know there are people like you who care about all animals
.
I'm hanging in there. Some days are worse than others. I find I can distract myself from Opie's passing, but every once in a while something will trigger a certain memory and I will fall apart. It will be 4 months since he died this Friday. In some ways it feels like it was yesterday. I don't know when I will get over it. I am actually moving in a couple of months. I partly decided because there are too many memories here that break my heart all the time. A new place will help me heal and give me a new start. I feel sad though that Opie won't be there with me to see the new place....but I am bringing his ashes, so it will kind of be like he is there too. My other cat Lily will get a fresh start too. Even though it has been 4 month since Opie died, she still looks for him and expects him to pop out of his usual spots. A new place will be good for her too I think.
Anyways, thank you so much for your response.

[missy]

It was four months ago today Opie died. My heart breaks for him everyday.