So Lonely Options

[Elton's Mommy]

I'll begin by saying that my dog Elton truely was the most amazing living being I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I would love to say that we adopted him, but in truth he adopted me. He was part of a group outside my local Petsmart in April 2005. He was so calm that they didn't even have him in a cage, but instead his leash was just attached to another cage and he was hiding under the bus that they came there on. I was walking by, looking at a dog in a cage and out comes Elton. This frightened, underweight dog - who cowered at every sound, walked directly up to me - and just like that I was in love. We took him home and over the next 5 years he won over every person that he came in contact with. He was the happiest dog. He never asked anything of anyone except to be pet, constantly, and to be allowed to cuddle up next to you. He was the definition of my soul mate. And then last November I took him to the vet because he was sneezing a lot - and our lives changed dramatically. These past 3 months have been the hardest 3 months of my life. Watching my baby suffer, I felt like a part of me was dying. Just this past Wednesday we made the hardest decision of lives, and we let him go.

Now what? My husband and I don't have children yet. Elton was our child. I always assumed that he was going to be our children's dog. He was just a baby - only going to be 6 this April. I don't know how to explain this emptiness inside of me. My husband is amazing, and yet I feel so lonely. I just don't know what to do. Everyone says that it will get easier, but when? I just miss my baby so much.

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