I Am Heart-broken, Feeling So Sad Options

[banditsmom]

I had to put my beautiful girl Bandit to sleep on saturday. She was 17 years old. I adopted her when she was 3, and for 14 years, she was with me 24/7. I work from home, so we were always together. I honestly don't remember not having her anymore it has been so long. She was such a huge part of my life. Whenever I was sad, I just had to look at that face and I would smile. I can't believe I'll never see her again, never get to hold her. I'm so sad - she really was my best friend.

[janika]

Dear Banditsmom

I am so sorry for the sad loss of your darling girl Bandit. I love the picture of her, she sure looks beautiful.
What a wonderful life you shared together, and no matter how many years we are honoured to share with our precious fur babies, it is never long enough. Try and remember how looking at her dear little face made you so happy, when you were down. She would not want her Mom to be hurting and she will be watching over you. The are many of us here who know the dreadful heartache you are feeling. The kind and caring people on here certainly helped me so very much.
I am thinking of you and your Angel girl Bandit and sending comforting hugs.
Love Jan and my Angels Tasha and Noushka x

[banditsmom]

Thanks so much Jan - I really appreciate. It is so wonderful that there is a place like this where we can share how heartbroken we are. I knew I was going to have a very hard time when I lost her. She was my angel, just a wonderful soul and the sweetest dog anyone could hope for. You angels are beautiful!

[janika]

Thankyou Banditsmom

Yes we are so lucky to have our beautiful Angel Fur Babies who will watch over us, our soulmates forever.
Hugs
Jan and My Angels x

[banditsmom]

It is unreal what an empty feeling losing your pet can have. I keep thinking she will be there, I am so conditioned to her being her, always with me. I was lucky to have her, and I will miss her always. Sorry, just going to post my ramblings here.

A few dog quotes:

Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole. ~Roger Caras

My goal in life is to be as good of a person my dog already thinks I am. ~Author Unknown

I think dogs are the most amazing creatures; they give unconditional love. For me they are the role model for being alive. ~Gilda Radner

[ladywolf]

Hi Banditsmom--

What a beautiful little pugster! I've always loved the breed--they have such character and they ARE such characters. I am so sorry for your loss of her--how very very sad.

I know what you mean with all you said. My story will likely be similar. My Ladywolf is about 15 now, I've had her since she was 3, and we have been together almost all the time too--rarely separated. Through gaining and losing a lot of money, gaining and dumping a serious boyfriend, almost dying, losing everything I owned, moving several times, living in the woods for periods of time, Ladywolf has been the only constant in my life. Now she has cancer--tumors on her rear leg, and though I am pampering her with people food and doing everything I can think of to keep her comfortable, I think that I am going to be facing the same thing myself pretty soon. I can't imagine life without her--I feel as if I will lose much of my identity. My friends recognize the specialness of our bond too, and they also can't imagine me without my Wolf. Woe is me, I am trying to make the best of our remaining days or weeks or months...

My heart goes out to you. Yes, thank God this forum exists--I just lost my other critter, Poppers, about five weeks ago--that's when I found this heartful, soulful place to express my feelings and try to help others a little bit...

Keep the faith, and keep on remembering the good times as much as you can, as I'm trying to do too...

Hugs--

Margi and Ladywolf

[hopelessheart]

Banditsmom,

I too have lost a pet near and dear to me. Finding this website was a Godsend for me, and I hope that it too helps you in the way it's helped me. Feel free to "rant" as it seems to be a very comforting source for many of us.

Bandit is such a beautiful girl and I know you were lucky to have her. Though these times are tough know that you have others here who know and feel exactly what you are going through. We understand every ounce of pain. I am sorry for your loss and know that Bandit is in heaven now hanging with all of our lost pets. Keep her in your heart and keep her memory alive. Know that even though she is gone in body her spirit is forever surrounding you.

Sending lots of love and hugs your way
Hopelessheart (Friend's mom)

[banditsmom]

Oh Margi, I'm so sorry - even though we know it's inevitable, it doesn't make it any easier. It was the hardest decision I ever had to make, but I knew if I didn't do it, it was for me and not for her. She meant(s) too much to me to watch her suffer. You and Ladywolf will be in my thoughts.

[banditsmom]

Thank you so much Hopelessheart. I am so sorry for your loss. I have read some of the other stories, but this is still so new to me I haven't been able to offer comfort to others yet. Yes, she will always be with me. She truly was my angel!

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Banditsmom,

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Please accept my deepest condolences. My heart truly goes out to you and I can very much empathize. Alex was 15 and 1/2 years old, had never been sick one day in his life and had a life span expectancy of 35 to 40 years or longer. Like you, my feather kid spent every waking moment with me and we did lots and lots of things together. I miss him more than mere words can express. So, I hoped I could find something special to help ease your gosh awful pain and grief. It took me quite a while, then beautiful Bandit suggested that she pay you a visit and give you many kisses right here and now.

I hope and pray that this brings you some small comfort, Dear One.

Please click on Bandit's picture.

You and your precious Angel Fur Child Bandit are in my thoughts and prayers as I wing many loving Angels to soothe and gently guide you through this most difficult time. Please come back as often as you're able to talk more about your beloved Bandit and how you're feeling. It's by sharing and caring that we help each other find that Healing Path.

I Wish You Peace!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[banditsmom]

Oh Dottie, thank you so much. The pug licking the screen is a favorite of mine, it always makes me smile. I am so sorry for you loss as well. It's amazing what an empty feeling losing a treasured friend can bring. She truly was my furry angel - such a good girl, never sick either. I still can't believe it's true. I thought I heard her cry out last night, and at times I forget and get up to do something for her. It's amazing how conditioned I am to her.

A few photos of my baby:

[Brutus]

I am so sorry for your loss. Bandit is a cutie pie. It's been 10 weeks for me since I lost my soulmate dog. The first couple weeks it was hard for me to breathe, eat, sleep...I didn't start functioning until about 6 weeks...I was just letting life roll on by. Brutus was like Bandit...with me constantly, I only took one vacation away from him in his 13 years...if Brutus couldn't go along, then we wouldn't go. I don't cry everyday anymore, but still get a tear in my eye whenever I think of him, which is constantly. It is a hard road you have ahead of you...I will be praying for you...praying for peace and acceptance..praying for happy memories of your dear Bandit.

Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

[banditsmom]

Thanks Brutus Mom - I read your story the first night I came here - I am so sorry for you loss. I haven't been able to leave words of encouragement for anyone else yet, I have been so sad, and it is still so new. I'm so grateful I have this site to come to when it hits me how much I miss her (which is does so often).

[Brutus]

I haven't been able to leave words of encouragement for anyone else yet, I have been so sad, and it is still so new. I'm so grateful I have this site to come to when it hits me how much I miss her (which is does so often).

I know what you mean...take your time. I went through stages (and still do)...I went over a week without posting until just the other day...I just couldn't bring myself to post. I read others threads but felt I had no words to help them...could only say "I'm sorry" and I felt they deserved more so I just didn't post at all. I know how much you miss her...I'm crying for you. Hang in there.

[banditsmom]

I can't even get rid of anything of her's yet. I have it in a bag, but I can't throw it out. Some things, no question, I will keep forever, but the little things, her shampoo, eye drops, I can't even seem to get rid of that stuff. I'm not ready to lose any of her yet. 14 years of things for her I have accumulated. I will find stuff everywhere.

[ladywolf]

I can't even get rid of anything of her's yet. I have it in a bag, but I can't throw it out. Some things, no question, I will keep forever, but the little things, her shampoo, eye drops, I can't even seem to get rid of that stuff. I'm not ready to lose any of her yet. 14 years of things for her I have accumulated. I will find stuff everywhere.

Banditsmom--

There's nothing wrong with holding onto Bandit's "stuff" for a long time--even for the rest of your life, if you want to! It doesn't take up much space, and it's a reminder for you of her. I have at least the tags of every pet I've had since 1955... (What a cool collection that is now! It brings tears to my eyes, but they're mostly tears of joy by now, except for Poppers, whom I just lost. I'm not quite at the joy stage yet with her...)

Don't push yourself to do ANYTHING before you're ready!

Hugs--

Margi and Ladywolf

[banditsmom]

I know, I'm not going to. I have a bag of stuff sitting in my hallway - I haven't been able to move it. It's really stuff I do need to get rid of, but I can't yet. I feel like I'm trying to clear her out, and that's the last thing I really want.

I am picking up her ashes on Saturday, it's already making me anxious thinking about it.

[Brutus]

I am picking up her ashes on Saturday, it's already making me anxious thinking about it.

Brutus' ashes were ready the next day, I picked them up 3 days after though. I thought I would just totally freak out, but it actually helped to get them...almost like a type of closure...at least I knew where he was. I put up a shelf with his 2nd fav toy, his collars, a couple plants, photo, poem I wrote for him, candle and a couple other misc. things...that's where I keep his ashes when we are at that house. I put a colliage up above it...it was actually very theraputic for me to do all that stuff...the shelf is in my bedroom above where his bed used to be....I can see it perfectly from my spot in the bed. If you go to the memorial section of the forum, there is a pic there of it and my poem...it could give you some ideas of things you could do for Bandit if you wanted....it really helped me get through the first couple weeks.

[ABT]

I had to put my beautiful girl Bandit to sleep on saturday. She was 17 years old. I adopted her when she was 3, and for 14 years, she was with me 24/7. I work from home, so we were always together. I honestly don't remember not having her anymore it has been so long. She was such a huge part of my life. Whenever I was sad, I just had to look at that face and I would smile. I can't believe I'll never see her again, never get to hold her. I'm so sad - she really was my best friend.

What a sweet baby. I can see why looking at her face brought a smile to your face. I love her just from one glance. My heart is with you.
Barb

[AngelCareOne]

Oh Dottie, thank you so much. The pug licking the screen is a favorite of mine, it always makes me smile. I am so sorry for you loss as well. It's amazing what an empty feeling losing a treasured friend can bring. She truly was my furry angel - such a good girl, never sick either. I still can't believe it's true. I thought I heard her cry out last night, and at times I forget and get up to do something for her. It's amazing how conditioned I am to her.

A few photos of my baby:

I know exactly what you mean Banditsmom. It's sort of like a really bad nightmare from which we cannot awake. Oh, but what a beautiful baby girl! Obviously so loved and cared for enormously. It's really hard, if not impossible, at this time to rest assured that we will be reunited with our Rainbow Bridge Babies on That One Sweet Day and for all Eternity!

Now? All those funny, lovely, cute and other times we shared seem to serve as only hurtful reminders because we cannot reach out to touch, pet, kiss, hold, smell their puppy breath and watch them frolic. Time. It takes time to find that Healing Path. We just gotta keep reminding ourselves that our babies are young again, healthy, whole, have lots of pals with which to play and all their hearts desire at The Bride. All except you. But, that day will come. You and your beloved Angel Fur Child Bandit both remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Perhaps you'd like to see a very lovely and loving site about The Rainbow Bridge where Bandit waits patiently for you. Please turn up your volume and click on Bandit Angel's picture below. Allow for a short loading time, then click where it tells you to do so. Here it is ...

Many Comforting Hugs to you and your Angel Fur Kid Bandit!

Winging More Loving Angels Your Way!

I Wish You Peace!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox