Max, Just a little poem from my heart Options

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Angels
Mommy loves you and misses you very very much.
Sending you lots of kisses and love. You are always on my mind
my sweet angels.

Mommy
xoxoxo

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi My Angels
Mommy misses you very much. Doz Daddy's selling his big black truck tomorrow it will be bitter sweet. Mommy will be thinking of you alot tomorrow you knew the sound of that truck when it turned up the street. Daddy still has the little one though, the one that you and him took many many rides in. And his new one, your ashes have road in it mommy made sure of that. I love you both very much
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Sending you both lots of kisses and love
Mommy
xoxoxo

[tahoeden]

You brought up a point that sometimes we take for granted. All the little things like having them ride in our truck/car when going to a store, or visiting a friend. Or the excitement they had when knowing they were driving somewhere to go for a walk or hike or swim. You said you carry their ashes when you go places. I've spread some of Kota's ashes in the places she likes. I still find it uncomfortable to look at the little tin box of ashes above the fireplace. I guess for you you've found it to be a healing process. I know how much I constantly miss Kota, especially at night when it's quiet and empty here. And your post made me realize how much you, and others here, still miss your loved ones.

Dennis

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Dennis
I am sorry that you cant still look at Kota's Urn. I find it soo comforting holding my Dozer's ashes. I hold them kiss them I know its just
his remains but they are part of him. Many days I bring them from the bedroom and put him in the living room on the table in the sun. I guess in some weird way I feel as if I am still taking care of him. We all here truely do greive in so many different ways but we all feel the same way we love them and just want them back. My other 3 angels are burried and I do go talk to them. I have found it so much more comforting though haveing Dozer here in the house that is where he loved it. He was more an inside the house dog and only liked it outside when we were out with him. So he is where I know he loved to be right next to the bed on his daddy's side of the bed. At first I didnt think I would handle having remains in my home but it has been the total opposite for me. One day he will be burried with my husband. But yes they were so much apart of everything we did. You dont realize it until they are gone and the house is empty that is for sure. I miss him and my Max terribly. My smokey and Lady have been gone for 5 years I still miss them also, but the hurt has subsided to thinking of them in a happy way and all the joy they brought to us. That is how we came to get our Dozer and Max and now 3 months apart they both are gone it is gut wrenching the emptiness, the home so quiet you can here a pin drop. It will take much longer for the grief process this time with loosing 2. My heart goes out to you for I know you are alone with no companion. Its been 6 months since my Max and 3 months for Dozer and I still have days I just cry and cry. I know it will get better but it isnt happening fast enough. I am so glad we have this wonderful place to come and express our feelings, let out our anger and even just come here to write to our Angels. In my heart I will always keep them alive as alive as I can. I do think of everyone here going through this awful pain. I used to write on others post alot but some times I dont even know what to say, I know I cant take away the pain I would if I could. So please know I am thinking of you and your empty home.

Hugs
Anna and my Precious Angels

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi My Angels
Mommy wants you to please watch over little Chico when he comes to jon you. He is a precious little boy. There have been so many Angels that mommy has come to know and I know that you all are togehter there at the Rainbow bridge like us here that you have left behind. One day we all will be reunited and all of us here cant wait to be with our angels again. But until then my angels watch over us and never stray far from us and our hearts.

Love you
Mommy
xoxoxo

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Angels
Mommy is back home I went away for a couple days to celebrate your Grandma's 75th B-Day. I am now back home I JUST HAD TO COME HERE TO LET YOU KNOW MOMMY MISSES YOU AND LOVES very much. It seems so wierd to go away and not be so worried about my angels being left alone while daddy went to work. I now know though that you are in the best hands and know that you are being well taken care of and just running so free. My angels I know you are with mommy everywhere I go rather it be far or near. Mommy sends you lots of kisses and head scrates and belly rubs.

Hugs my Angels
Mommy
xoxoxox

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Angels
Mommy just wants you to know I am always thinking of you.

Missing You
Love Mommy
xoxoxo

[soojung]

Dear Anna,

Thank you again for leaving a reply on my post about Lucy, and for making the beautiful little angel picture of her.
I read the posts in this thread and also the other thread you started about Max.
I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your two losses so close to each other. Your Max and Dozer sound like wonderful dogs and you and your husband certainly gave them the most enviable lives--eating cheese & pizza & going for truck rides, it sounds like the definition of doggie heaven on earth!
It sounds like you are wondering about opening your heart & home to another dog. Unfortunately I can't offer any advice on this b/c Lucy was the only pet I've ever had, but I hope that you will soon be able to get a sense of what feels "right" to you.

take care,
soojung

[Brutus]

Thinking of you Anna and your furangels. How is the puppy search going?

Many hugs,
Sonya

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Sonya
I am still searching but I feel in my heart that I am not finding the right puppy because I truely keep looking for the ones I just lost and that will never happen. In my mind I want another puppy but in my heart I dont know if I am ready. I am just so afraid it will just make me cry even more for my angels. So I dont know if that is why I just dont seem to find that right puppy. I guess when the time is right and that puppy that steels my heart l comes along I will know it. I just want it to be right for I want to be able to fully love my new baby as much as I love my angels if that is possible. I often think of you and your angel Brutus. This will be the first place I announce a new addition for sure. Thanks for asking Sonya.

Hugs
Anna

[Brutus]

Anna, take your time. There is no rush....when it's right it will happen. A new pup will never replace such great souls as Max and Dozer...just add to it. I know someday the perfect pup/dog will find you...he/she is searching right now...it will happen.

Hugs,
Sonya

[oliver's mama]

it's always special to me when i read on here about other's whose pets have the same name and it's happened for all of them. i lost my max 5 days ago, and couldn't have said it better myself...lovely.

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Angels
Mommy just wants to stop by here to let you know you are on my mind yesterday, today, tomorrow, and always.
I love you. Four months today my Angel Dozer. It feels as if its been 4 years since I last kissed you and yet the pain feels as fresh as the day you left.

The hurt never goes away Max and Dozer
Mommy
xoxoxo

[tracey99]

Anna, I'm so sorry to hear about you losing Max and Dozer so close together, they are most certainly together. I have enjoyed reading your messages to them, telling them what you are doing, etc. They are both beautiful. What a wonderful life they had with you.
Just sending a message of love and support
Tracey

[smokey/lady/max]

Thank you Tracey I said they were so close in life. They were both 7 and no signs of Dozer ever being sick he just died suddenly. I knowl in my heart that they are togther. I guess they both were meant to be with each other. The night Dozer died he went out and laid by Max's dog house and would not come in, like he new he was going to go join him. It just breaks my heart everyday I miss them both sooooo much. I come here to send them messages this is like my connection to them. I feel the karma from this site reaches to that Rainbow Bridge.

Hugs to you
Anna and my angels
xoxo

[ladywolf]

Hi Anna and your angels--

I think it is so sweet that you come here all the time to send love to your angels. I'm not doing that, but maybe I should try it.

It was one month ago today that Ladywolf died. How long has it been now for Max and Dozer? I can't quite remember...

Just wanted to send you a lot of love, from

Margi and Spiritwolf

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi Margi its will be 7 months tomrrow for Max and it was just 4 months for Dozer on the 28th. I see it has been a month already for you. Gosh how time goes by so fast, just like thier life seemed to go. I come here to write to my angels it is good therapy for me, and I feel they here me when I come here to write to them. Many times like I have said while writing to them I have had very strong smells of them like they are letting me know they hear me. Also one day I will print these things I write it is like keeping a journal of my journey. I miss them soo much. I hope you are doing ok. I seen your beautiful photos of Ladywolf. Margi she sure was a pretty girl (wolf). I know all of our angels are togther with each other just waiting to be reunited with us. They sure aren't alone. I guess we should be so thankful for this site also for we arent not alone either.

Hugs to you Margi
Anna and my angels

[tahoeden]

I'm trying to catch up a little for being absent from here lately. I've been reading other's posts but can't find the energy or even the words to write. Like you said, with this site we aren't alone. I guess I'm here now writing to prove to myself that I exist and am not an invisible ghost. I'm so disconnected from life...it seems really harsh lately. You talk a lot about your "angels". My Kota was an angel when she was alive. I picture and see her in everything I do, but I can't touch her, and I really don't know where she is now. I hate having her now as a tin of ashes. The one thing you said, I can really relate to, "I miss them soo much!"


dennis

[smokey/lady/max]

Dennis
I want to beleive our angels are at the beautiful place called Rainbow BRIDGE WAITING FOR US. Like you said they were angels here so they have to be angels now. Angels dont die they live forever.

Hugs
Anna and my angels

[smokey/lady/max]

Hi My Angels
Mommy is sending you your own fireworks. Max I know you will be trying to catch them with your mouth like you used to do when daddy would light them off you would go crazy trying to get to them. But where you are my angel you can catch them and mommy knows they wont hurt you. Dozer my angel you where always afraid of the bang noise but these mommy is sending you dont make any noise. I love the ones at the rainbow my Angels I pray that where you are looks just like the picture. I love you both and miss you dearly. This year just isnt the same without you both here. We had a cookout today and it was very sad that you were not here laying out by the pool with us waiting for your hand outs. Makes me cry everytime we do something that you should be here enjoying also.
Hugs My Sweet Babies
Mommy
xoxoxox