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[abrm325]

Saturday night my mom told me she found my cat on the driveway and that she had been bitten in the stomach by an animal an hour earlier. She said they buried her afterward. I had my cat for about 11 years and I'm absolutely devastated. I've been going out of my mind since. It kills me because she was a tiny cat and very sweet she would of never intiated a fight with any animal so I know it attacked her first. To make matters worse, I was the one who let her outside that day and she didnt really seem like she even wanted to go outside when normally she runs to the door. I opened the door and she just stood there, then I was like "come on go outside" and she slowly walked outside. It's like she knew something would happen or something. I can't help but blame myself. Everyone is telling me not to but in reality, she would still be here if I didnt let her outside. I've never lost a person who was really close to me so this is probably one of my biggest losses I've experienced. I almost feel as though my child died. My heart is just completely shattered. Does anyone have any advice on how to get through this?