Loss Of Pekingese, Brittany Options

[Donna]

This past Wednesday our sweet wonderful Brittany who was 15 1/2 years old passed away. She had been ill and recently diagniosed as being bypoglycemic. Since she was doing better the last few days we thought we had it under control. During the early morning hours I heard her give out a cry so I got out of bed and went to her and wrapped her in her fuzzy blanket and rocked her to sleep. She so loved to be rocked. When she woke up around 8:00 she ate her breakfast and went to take a nap. I left the house at 10:00am and my husband was home. When I returned around Noon he was standing by her with tears in his eys and said this is the way I found her I just went outside for a few minutes and came back in when Jake (our Aussie) was barking franticaly. Her little body lay twisted in her kennel and I said is she gone - he said yes. I went to her and hugged her as I felt her little body relax. She then looked so peaceful and it felt so natural. Which now is my problem - Brittany is the 3rd of my babies to have passed away suddenly this year. Krystal (a 15 yr old Yorkie) passed on March 13, 2004 and Benjamin (a 16 yr old Pekingese) passed on April 13, 2004. With both of their passing I totally lost control and cried for days I now am feeling guilty for not reacting the same way with Brittany. What is wrong with me? Jake our Aussie has been acting extremely sad with Brittany's passing he kept licking her and as I covered her he kept uncovering her and just layed by her. He didn't have this reaction with the others. So I am now so confused and full of emotions. I miss Brittany so much. It's hard not to hear her snoring (she had the best snore) and she loved to be held and rocked and would give you that wonderful Pekingese sneeze right in the face. Why did I take her passing so easily? Was that right?