I Feel Different Because... Options

[petmum]

It's been 5 days since Buddy went to sleep.
I feel different!!!
I feel different because I'm not waiting to take him to the vets to go to sleep.
I feel different because I'm not worried about him being outside when it's cold & rainy.
I just got the call from the vet that Buddy's ashes are there for me to pick up, I wonder how horrible that will feel when I get them.
I wonder if it will make me realise that he really is up in doggie heaven.
It's my daughters birthday tomorrow she will be 11yrs. We asked what she wld like for her birthday & of course she said "I'de like Buddy to come back".
Later the same day someone made a reference to it looks like it's gunna rain cats & dogs & she looks & me and says "I hope so, cos then it might rain Buddy back to us".

[goliath]

It's my daughters birthday tomorrow she will be 11yrs. We asked what she wld like for her birthday & of course she said "I'de like Buddy to come back".
Later the same day someone made a reference to it looks like it's gunna rain cats & dogs & she looks & me and says "I hope so, cos then it might rain Buddy back to us".

Bless her sweet little heart!

[Sammie girl'...]

Petmum,
It's been 8 days since Sammie left me. I feel different too. That's a good way to put it. Nothing seems to make sense. Everything is just wrong. I try to go about my day doing the things that I absolutley have to like going to work but the order of things is just really messed up. Everything is different. I can't find any joy. I look out the door where I would let her out so often and all I can see is the place we buried her. Everything is different and I don't like it at all. I hope your daughter can find some happiness and enjoy her 11th birthday. My prayers are going out to all of you and you will be on my mind. Our babies left us pretty close to the same time.
Melanie

[petmum]

it's amazing that we can feel similar in our losses, I have Buddy's ashes now & i keep looking @ them and thinking this just doesn't seem like him @ all. I was outside a while ago and just picked up Buddy's doggie collar & just inhaled that doggy smell, I cant believe what''s happened.
It does make a difference if you see them though from what we have shared it doesn't always ease the pain..... and it doesn't seem to stop that "different" feeling that springs up......it's so hard to plod on.....I think my daughter will enjoy her birthday as the kids seem quite ok that we have his ashes.....I don't think any of this has really sunk in yet......u r so right nothing makes sense & i'm with u on not enjoying it at all....it's hard to focus on much isn't it.......our companions mean so much to us..


elaine

[lynette]

Yes it feels so different.

When we lost Lily suddenly and unexpectedly last June, my whole world was turned upside down. Things were put into perspective. Work was not important anymore. All I wanted to do was stay home. And then we found out Hunny had cancer just a few days later. So we had that battle to fight. I would look off in the distance and see Lily running down the road to my parents where she loved to go visit their dogs. I would see her when I closed my eyes. Losing Lily was so hard. But we had to deal with Hunny's cancer. She made it to April 4th of this year, when we had to let her go be with Lily. There was nothing more we could do for her and making that decision was just awful. But when she was gone, it just felt like she was outside. Hunny loved being outside. We knew her time with us here was coming to an end so we made the most of everyday that we had left with her. But when she was gone, it just felt odd. But I have to admit there was a kinda of a peace about it, because she was sick for so long. When I picked up her ashes two weeks later it was hard. But once I had them, and put them on my wall unit in the living room, I felt better. She was home! In a different form, but she was with us again. I felt lost before that.

I miss them both so very much. It will be a year June 24 that Lily left. We still haven't buried Hunny's ashes next to her. Somehow, I just can't seem to bring myself to do that yet. But I feel like I'm disrespecting Lily by not laying Hunny next to her. Maybe on June 24, we'll lay Hunny next to her sister and they can be completely together again.

Well, gotta go, the tears are streaming down my face. I know they're together again running and playing in the fields and meadows of heaven. And each time I go for a walk, I see them walking ahead together and that brings a little smile to my face. I love them both so much.

[petmum]

thx Lynette i know how hard jit is to type thru tears hence this short reply

[Felicia]

It's been 5 days since Buddy went to sleep.
I feel different!!!
I feel different because I'm not waiting to take him to the vets to go to sleep.
I feel different because I'm not worried about him being outside when it's cold & rainy.
I just got the call from the vet that Buddy's ashes are there for me to pick up, I wonder how horrible that will feel when I get them.
I wonder if it will make me realise that he really is up in doggie heaven.
It's my daughters birthday tomorrow she will be 11yrs. We asked what she wld like for her birthday & of course she said "I'de like Buddy to come back".
Later the same day someone made a reference to it looks like it's gunna rain cats & dogs & she looks & me and says "I hope so, cos then it might rain Buddy back to us".

[Felicia]

It that were the case about raining cats & dogs.......I'd be right outside waiting for my Brittany....I have to return some meds that my dog didn't.......the hardest thing will be going back to that vet. Because my last trip there was to take Brittany to be put to sleep.

They say time heals all wounds.....but when a part of your heart is ripped out, will that ever heal..... I call out her name so many times without thinking that she's not there. Get up ready to take her out....In lightening storms, she was always afraid........4th of July was very scary for her. This will be the 1st without her.....12 yrs. of having her by my side.....How do you get over that?

Please know that my thoughts are with you.

[dancer]

It's been 5 days since Buddy went to sleep.
I feel different!!!
I feel different because I'm not waiting to take him to the vets to go to sleep.
I feel different because I'm not worried about him being outside when it's cold & rainy.
I just got the call from the vet that Buddy's ashes are there for me to pick up, I wonder how horrible that will feel when I get them.
I wonder if it will make me realise that he really is up in doggie heaven.
It's my daughters birthday tomorrow she will be 11yrs. We asked what she wld like for her birthday & of course she said "I'de like Buddy to come back".
Later the same day someone made a reference to it looks like it's gunna rain cats & dogs & she looks & me and says "I hope so, cos then it might rain Buddy back to us".

Hi pet mum, Its been 10 days for me since dancer was put to sleep, I was unable to afford the cost of cremation, (not sure if this is what I would want) Go with what your heart speaks, and you should feel different we've been through a tramatic time in our lives.. Dash and I are ok, not great but okay..I'm thinking of you and yours..Peace Judith

[petmum]

thankyou Judith, I can so relate to your comment being ok but not great.
peace to u & dash
elaine