Missing My Babies Today Options

[lynette]

Hi my angels.

Carly just phoned to tell me that Earl is walking funny. She said he has a big lump on one of his back legs. I hope he's gonna be ok. I don't know what he could've done. He was in the house last night - I'm sure he was ok. I never notice anything. And when I put them outside I'm pretty sure he didn't land on anything. I feel so bad though - what if it was my fault. It's so cold out right now. If he can't feel his leg - he could freeze. Why does stuff have to happen. These poor kittens have been through enough in their short life.

I hope you guys are all well. I miss you all so much.

Love you. Talk to you later.

Mum.

[lynette]

Oh I hope it's nothing serious with Earl. He's such a sweetie. Carly's gonna bring him in after Dad leaves for work and give him some TLC.

You know babes - sometimes life just sucks.

I love you all.

[lynette]

Love you guys.

Love forever and ever - Mum

[lynette]

Morning my precious Angels.

Hope you're all well and happy and having the time of your lives. You know we all miss you here very much and that we love you beyond anything in this world. I just wanted to tell you all Happy Christmas. And that we will miss having you here with us so very much. And that we will be thinking of you.

Everyone is well. I have a bit of a cold - nice eh - in time for Christmas. Carly started a job December 1st. I think she's enjoying it. She has a lot of training to do and a couple of exams to pass before she can actually do anything. I am hoping so hard that she passes her exam next month. Of course she's going into it thinking she won't because most people don't pass the first time (so she's been told). I've told her to study hard and pass it on the first try. I think if she passes on the first try she will be so proud of herself. But she seems to have an interest in insurance so hopefully it'll go well for her. I certainly hope so. Just need her now to pass her road test and she can drive herself to work. She has to go to Eriksdale one day a week, a bit of pain, but hey, anything for our kid right? She deserves the chance. She can go for her test in March so not too bad. Only problem is having to rely on nan or gramp to drive her every two weeks. She's only working three days a week till she gets her certificate. Two days in Fisher Branch and one in Eriksdale.

Dad's busy working. He had to work through the weekend so that he can have Christmas Day and Boxing Day off. Oh well, the overtime is good money.

The pups are good. They are so looking forward to Christmas. They've been snooping under the tree!! I guess they can smell the treats there.

Well only two more sleeps then Santa will come. I'm excited for some time off. Can't wait. I;m working today and tomorrow and I have Christmas Eve off. So time is dragging today. It's not busy here either.

Anyway, better go and pretend I'm busy!!! At least I get to leave at four today, to go pick up Carly.

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Will talk to you all tonight.

Talk to you later my precious angels. I love you.

Love forever and ever - Mum.

[lynette]

My dearest Angels.

Just want to let you know how much I am missing you today - especially you George. I know it's only been just over a year, but it is still so very fresh. I miss you all so very much and I wish you could come home to me. I would love to wrap my arms around you and kiss you all.

The days are so short now, dark to and from work. And cold! Man has it been cold! I'm getting too old for this. It's crazy why we would live in such a brutal climate.

Christmas was ok. You should have seen how crazy the doodles were on Christmas morning! Especially Barney. They couldn't wait to open their presents any longer. They had been checking under the tree for weeks!

Carly writes her insurance exam on Monday. I am hoping so hard that she passes it on the first try. She's been told that not many pass it the first time. I sure hope she does though. I think she'll be so proud of herself. Once she's done that she has a five day course in Winnipeg for the autopac stuff. And then I think she gets a raise once she has all that. So I am hoping she can pass the first time.

Anyway gonna go. Time to go home. I'll talk to you all later.

I love you. And miss you.

Love for ever and ever Mum.

[lynette]

Hello my precious Angels.

Just writing to say I miss you.

I think of you all each and every day. And will do for the rest of my life.

Not much to write about. Carly passed her exam, although not on the first try. The second time. So next month she goes to Winnipeg to do the MPI stuff. She's working full-time now. Just wishing she would do her road test so that she can drive herself to and from work. I don't know why she is procrastinating on that. I'm getting kinda tired of driving to Eriksdale three days a week now. But I will do it as long as I need to.

Weather is still cold. Although there are warm days in between the cold. Sure wish it would start warming up. At least we haven't had crazy amounts of snow like they have out east and in the States.

Thank goodness it's Friday. Not that it has been a particularly long week, just slow at work right now so not too much to do.

Jessie - it's Danielle's birthday on Monday. I'm sure you remember. Not sure if they are doing anything for family - haven't heard anything yet. I know she's having her friends over tomorrow.

Hopefully Smokie is home tonight. Haven't seen him in a few days. I'm getting worried.

Anyway, better go. Talk to you all tonight. Oh yeah, everyone is well.

I love you forever and ever.

Love Mum.

[lynette]

Hi my darlings.

Hope you are all well. We're all good.

Smokey came home - or more likely came out of hiding. I don't think he ever goes too far.

Well, Grey - one of your babies went to a new home on Tuesday. Earl moved in with a guy I work with. I felt (still feel) so bad cos he looked at me as if to say "why are you giving me away - don't you want me anymore?". I know he's better off where he is now. He's gonna be a house cat and totally spoiled. He's got a new mum and dad and a human brother and sister. They're all young. I know he'll be happy there. But I miss him. He was such a big snuggler. And you should have seen the other cats wondering around looking for him - even Smokey. I write this with tears in my eyes. I miss him so much. He is such a sweetie. I'm sure he misses us all too. He slept with Rob the first night and then with Rob and his wife last night (in between them) - so he's made himself at home.

I have to change the subject - cos now I'm crying. Carly is in Winnipeg next week doing her MPI training. We're taking her down Sunday (Baba's birthday). Not sure if we will be meeting up with Uncle Don and the family too, but we will be with Aunty Donna, cos Carly is staying there. We'll probably pick up a cake to remember Baba on her birthday.

The doodles are all good. Barney won't let me cut his nails and they are so long. One is curling and I'm sure it's bothering him. Gonna have to try again this weekend - might have to get Dad to hold him. I don't know why he is being such a baby - he's usually the easiest one to do.

The weather seems to have finally warmed up. It's been melting like crazy. We didn't have too much snow this winter. So, if it stays on the plus side for another couple weeks it'll be all gone - sooner maybe. The dogs are happy cos they can stay out longer now and it's light till about 7:30 at night now. Hoping to start going for walks too.

Oh well - time to go. Just wanted to let you know about Earl Grey. Hoping to find homes for the other three as well.

Love and miss you all forever and ever.

Love Mum.

[lynette]

Morning babes.

I was just googling where we used to live in Dry Sandford and realized that who ever lives there now has done some changes in the yard. I hope they didn't disturb your graves Mitzy and Billy. That is so heartbreaking to think that your resting places have been disturbed. I know I'm nowhere near there now to watch over them, but god I hope they didn't move you. I miss you so much. I will always love you. I know you're not there - just your bodies, but still it's painful. I know it's been over 34 years - still hurts and I still miss you so much.

Just had to come here and say this.

Love you both with everything I am.

Love Lyn.

[lynette]

Hey angels.

Grey - just got an update on Earl. He's doing well, fitting in with his new family. Sounds like he's being spoiled too. He gets canned food morning and night. He has the run of the house, sleeps with his dad. He's got two young kids to play with and he has a yard all to himself. Rob says he's happy now and getting used to it all. I'm so glad. I was feeling bad for letting him go especially after the look he gave me when I handed him over to Rob. But I know it's the best for him. He'll have a long life with them. Now, if only I could find homes for the others!

Love you all.

Mum.

[lynette]

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.

[lynette]

Morning my precious Angels.

So, I know you've heard. Little Willy is there with you guys. I don't know if he is with you or with his own family there. Poor little guy died last Thursday (April 16th). Despite our differences with his parents it was still so very heartbreaking too learn that he passed away. He was only 6 1/2 - the same age as Barney and Casey. I know he was diagnosed with Addison's disease when he was young and I don't know if that played a factor here. But it still is very upsetting. If you see him, take care of him. He is just a little guy.

How are you all anyway. George, your birthday is this Friday. You'd be seven. God, I miss you. All of you. If I'd been home that day, would I have been able to save you? Why were you on the road Georgie? I miss you so much. I miss all of you. Willy's death just opened up old wounds too.

Anyway, I have to change the subject, I'm crying here.

Carly and I were looking at vehicles on Saturday. She wants a Dodge Journey so we went to Gimli to take a look. Test drove two - I did anyway. She really likes them. I do too actually. Very nice ride. So now she's bound and determined to buy one. We'll see. She still has to get her road test passed.

So, it snowed last night. Lovely eh? It is supposed to be spring. We had beautiful weather last week. Windy everyday though. Very windy. Still windy but now it's cold and snowy again. The weather is always just so crazy. I didn't take the dogs for a walk last night cos it was so cold and extremely windy. Went for a nap instead!!! I don't know if we'll go tonight either. It's gonna have to warm up a lot by then.

I'm feeling really stressed again. This vehicle stuff with Carly makes me stressed. Anything with money stresses me out. I wish life was easy. I wish I could afford anything whenever I wanted and never have to worry about money. Of course, I wish you were all here with me too.

Better go. I'm at work - supposed to be working!

I love you all and I miss you so much.

Love you all forever and ever.

Mum.

[lynette]

Hey guys.

God I miss you all so very much.

Duchess went into labour last night Grey. Poor thing - I don't think she knew what was going on. She was having them on the deck so I moved her into the dog house with an old towel. She had one hanging out of her last night. She'd had three when I checked on her this morning. All of them were dead. Not sure why because I know the one last night was alive. Not sure if she killed them or if they just died. Probably the best though as much as I hate to say that. They looked like Prince - too much inbreeding!! Plus we won't have to find a home for them. Terrible thing to say I know. She still looked huge so I'm sure she has more to come. Guess I'll see when I get home. Duchess is just a baby herself - just a year old. Hopefully she comes through this ok. I'm surprised Brain didn't come and help her. Brain and Rupert are hiding in the greenhouse. Not sure why.

Everyone is well. It was so hot over the weekend. A lot different than last weekend that's for sure. It was 30 degrees this weekend, last was just below zero. Crazy weather!!

Well Carly has another driving lesson tonight after work. She has her road test tomorrow. I so hope she passes this time. She'll be so upset if she doesn't. So will I. You know I'd do anything for her, but picking her up everyday after work is kind of a pain. So, I will be so glad when she can drive herself to and from work. I think she's nervous about driving alone. Not that I blame her, but she's gotta do it sometime right? So, can you all wish her good luck for tomorrow?

We put the pool up yesterday. Would've been nice to have been able to do it last weekend. Cos we sure would've used it this weekend.

Anyway, better go (at work).

I love you all and I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.

[lynette]

Hi Angels.

How are ya all?

I'm in a crappy mood. Carly failed her driving test - again! The guy told her she was a dangerous driver even though her score was a pass. Doesn't make sense. She took a couple driving lessons and did exactly what the instructor told her to do. She went out with him last night and she did good and this idiot told her she failed. And that she was dangerous. That makes me so mad. You're damned if you do and damed if you don't. I think they make the rules up as they go. Now we have to wait another month before she can do it again. I am so friggin disgusted!

Sorry babes, just needed to vent.

Well, Duchess ended up having five kittens. Four of them were dead. I know the first one was born alive, but yesterday morning when I checked on her, she'd had three and all were dead. When I got home last night I ended up pulling out one (a breach) and then she had another a while later, again breach. This one was alive but she wasn't interested in it at all. We put it on another cat that has kittens. So, not sure if she accepted it or not. I couldn't just leave it there to die. I figured it might have a chance if the other cat accepts it. But Duchess wasn't at all interested. I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that she was bottle fed when she was a baby. Doesn't have that maternal instinct - I dunno. I washed her off - she was a mess. But she was up and walking around last night.

What a long day! I've been anxious all day - about her test. And then she tells me she failed. Will she ever pass?

Finally 5 o'clock. Gonna go now.

Love you all. Thanks for listening babes.

Love for ever and ever. Mum.

[lynette]

Hi Babes.

I'm feeling really blue this morning. Missing you all so very much. Wish I could hold you tightly and kiss your soft heads.

So, found out why Carly failed her test. She didn't stop in the right places at the stop signs. So much for driving lessons. He obviously doesn't know what he's talking about. And then she had to listen to gramp bitch and complain all the way to work this morning. He has such a great knack of making someone feel so useless and worthless. I know, he did it to me all the time I was growing up. I hope she passes next time, that way she won't have to listen to his condensending crap.

Looks like the other cat took Duchess' kitten. I went to check on them last night but she had moved them. Found them though. And the little guy was still alive and she'd cleaned him up.

Not too much to talk about today. Really dead here at work. It is gonna be a looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnng day!! A very long day. There is hardly anyone here as well. So very quiet. I'm so bored already. There is so much I could be doing at home. It's cooler today so it would be a good day to work in the yard.

I wish I could be there with you. Sometimes life just sucks. Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun.

Anyway, I'm gonna go now. I will talk to you all later.

Love you forever and ever my precious angels. I miss you so much.

Love Mum.

[C-J]

It's been seven weeks since we had to send Hunny to meet Lily. I still miss her so very much. Most of the day is fine, but every once in a while it's just like being hit by a tidal wave. Just a sudden wash of pain and sorrow for both Hunny and Lily. I can't believe it's been 11 months since Lily had to leave. I wish I could see them again. I have them both on a pet memorial site too, but I find it hard to go there since Hunny left. It's such an empty feeling without them, even though we have four other dogs. It's not the same. I wish they could have lived a lot longer. I sure hope these pups live to a ripe old age.

Just having a blue morning I guess.

[moon_beam]

Hi, lynette, thank you for sharing with us how you're doing. I'm so sorry Carly failed her driving test. I remember going through a similar scenario when I applied for my first driver's license here in Virginia many eons of years ago. There was a publicized push to keep drivers under 21 years of age off the road, so every written test I took I always somehow managed to "fail." Then when I did "pass" the written test I was informed that I needed to get my eyes examined - - another delay in giving me my license. Like Carly, I needed my license so that I could drive myself to work when my classes were done at school - - part of the work program through my Senior year. The eye exam proved I had accurate vision - - no more excuses for the State to deny me my license. I will keep Carly in my thoughts and prayers that she will pass the exam this next time.

I'm so sorry that Duchess had a difficult delivery with her kittens. There can be several reasons why the kittens did not survive, particularly with her being a young mom and breach deliveries. So glad the other mom has taken Duchess' surviving kitten as her own, and hope the little one will survive.

I can understand how you feel when you share with us "Sometimes I just wish I could get off this merry-go-round they call life, cos it sure isn't much fun." This earthly journey can be a challenge even under the best of circumstances sometimes. Sometimes it can be a challenge to see the blessings and positives in our lives when our hearts are longing to be elsewhere. Please know we are here for you to share with you what is in your heart - - whatever you feel comfortable sharing with us.

I hope today is treating you kindly, lynette, and that you wil have peaceful evenings blessed with your beloved companions' sweet Living Spirits to comfort you. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayes, lynette, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[lynette]

Hi Angels.

Just dropping by to say hello. Thinking of you all, tears running down my cheeks. Thinking of you Bud and Lady. I hope some day you'll forgive me. I love you and I miss you so much.

Love forever and ever, Mum. Wish so much that I could hug you right now.

[lynette]

Hi Angels.

Hi Lily. I can't believe today it's been seven years since you left us. I miss you so very much - as much as the day we lost you. I hope you're happy wherever you are - I hope you're all happy. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again. I wish I could hold you Lily. Love you forever and ever. Mum.

[lynette]

Hi my Angels.

I love and miss you all with everything I am, but I hate coming here to write sometimes. Gramp found a dead cat in his garage this morning. Carly says it sounds like Prince. I hope not. He was one of the kittens we bottle fed last year. But I know Smokey has been trying his hardest to chase him off. But why he was at Gramp's is beyond me. He knew to stay away from there. Unless Lucy dragged him there. I hope it's not him. It hasn't been confirmed, but I didn't see him this morning. I've been trying to remember the last time I did see him. I don't know if it was yesterday or not. I can't remember. I am so terrible! I saw Duchess - she was sleeping on the van. I hope it wasn't Prince. I know he's been fighting with Smokey an awful lot, but I don't want to lose him. If it's him, you'll take good care of him right? He can be a real git sometimes, but he's very loving. You know there is just too many of you there now!!

I had to take Casey back to the vets today. Took here there Tuesday because she was dragging her bum all the time. She needed some glands drained - badly. I thought she was ok, till last night she started dragging again. When I looked she had a rash on her underside and was swollen and inflamed. So, I brought her to work with me in hopes that I could get her into the vet. Fortunately they were able to look at her just after nine. So, she's on some kind of allergy medication with some kind of mild steroid in it, plus they gave her a pain killer. They mentioned back in the spring when I took her in for her eye that she may be allergic to something. So, it's starting to look like maybe she is. Hopefully, only seasonal allergies. She is such a good girl. She was so well-behaved here today and at the vets. She's quite the social butterfly. She has to meet everyone. Took her home at lunch time though - it's too long of a day for her. And too stressful. The vet thinks we need to change her diet. She needs to eat hypoallergenic food and only treats that we know what's in them. No more store bought treats for her. She didn't like the dog food either! That's gonna take a while to change I think - if ever! Probably might have to try other brands also. Even Barney didn't care for it and he eats almost anything.

Anyway, better get back to work - not that I have anything to do. It's unbelievably quiet here these days.

I love you all and I miss you. Prince, if that's you - I'm so sorry. I love you and I will miss you bud.

Love Mum.

[lynette]

Hey Angels.

Just thinking of you guys.

I guess that was Prince. Hope you're happy there with your Mum and sister Prince. I don't understand why you were at Gramps.

So, we've switched dog food for all of them. Casey is still dragging her bum now and then - don't know why. Maybe she's just itchy. So, they've been eating this fish and sweet potato food for about two weeks now. I've definitely noticed that their coats are a lot softer and they don't seem to be shedding as much. They all seem to have more energy. This food is quite a bit more expensive than what they've been eating all these years, but they don't eat as much. We've cut back on the treats too. They still get, but we've been trying to stay away from beef and chicken. Funny how chicken is so high on the list of allergens! Casey still doesn't like that hypoallergenic food I got from the vet. But she eats the other stuff ok.

Everyone is good. Just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

I love you angels. And I miss you.

Love forever and ever, Mum.