Lost And Empty With My Boy Options

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Hello my little loves;

I miss you both very much, and am trying to understand why it all had to happen. So not easy. I tried spending the day up grammie's but every thing I went to do remind me of you two! Oh Jasper and Sassy I am truly lost and missing you both so much it hurts. I just hope you two are very happy and pain free.

I just dont see how I will ever come to terms with any of this. Days are hard and nights are harder! I am very lonely.

Sleep well my wonderful angels, and know mommie misses you both very much, and that I love you both very much!
Hugs, kisses, and tons of LOVE, Mommie xoxoxoxoxoxo

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My dearest babies;

I have not forgot about you, I am in the process of packing up my life and going to move in with grandma; I have been taking boxes to grammies everyday. I hope you are both happy and safe. I miss you both so much it hurts, time is not easing anything for me, and the lack of job and money is not helping me.

I will write to you both again, after I get settled at grammies!

I love and miss you both, always and forever, mommie xoxoxoxox