Zita Gone, Now Ziggy, 3 Cats lost in two years Options

[AngelCareOne]

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Angels

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we´re grey and old
´cos I´ve been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I’m lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

when I’m feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know I’ll always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
when I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life won’t break me
when I come to call she won’t forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

{{{{{Jan}}}}} Awesome!!!
And look at your fur baby's precious, beautiful, sweet, dear, loving photos!!! My God! How you must miss them so much. HUGS!!!!! There are all kinds of Angels, Jan. Here's a poem that I wrote and chose the images. I pray with all my heart and soul it brings you some small comfort. More Hugs!!!

"Angels Abound"
By: AngelCareOne

Gray clouds spill droplets of water to ground.
Puddles then rivers begin to surround.
Engulfed in the rage of the storm I feel fear.
Where is my Angel? I hope that she's near.

Dear Angel, I cried out; Please don't leave me now.
I can't make it without you and wouldn't know how.
You're needed post haste to be by my side.
The storm's getting worse; In you I confide ...

Tell no one my secret; I'm scared of the dark.
You're always my comfort; My dove, my sweet lark.
I pray that you're close and can hear my call.
Please fly to me, Angel, and don't let me fall.

Are those wings that come closer and closer I hear?
It sounds like my Angel of hearts is so near.
She's here; Outspreading her wings oh so pure ...
Folds them around me; I feel safe and secure.

Thank you dear Angel; Now all will be fine.
Your compassion and love are truly Divine.
God bless you, dear Angel; Please tell me your name ...
"I'm within you always. You and I are the same."

"Your friends are all Angels; You know that already.
They care and they love you and help keep you steady.
Fear not when the storms come; Your friends are so vast.
Their love and compassion will shield any blast."

So there is the truth that I finally know.
You all are my Angels and I love you so!







Sweet, loving Jan ... I'll bet you already know that I think about and pray for your Beloved Treasured Fur Babies as much as I do my own! Honest and for True!

Tons of Hugs, Love, Peace and Om Shanti to you and your Fur Kids!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Zita'sMom]

And look at your fur baby's precious, beautiful, sweet, dear, loving photos!!! My God! How you must miss them so much. HUGS!!!!! There are all kinds of Angels, Jan. Here's a poem that I wrote and chose the images. I pray with all my heart and soul it brings you some small comfort. More Hugs!!!

Thanks so much for that comforting poem.

Yes, I missed my babies terribly today for some reason. I know haven't had a "normal" day since Ziggy died, but today was particularly hard and I don't even know why. I just felt so overcome with emotion.

I just want them back, both of them. I don't want to accept that I can't have my sweet little office partner and listen to her purr to me before bed. I still can't put away the crate that's in the room where Ziggy was so sick or the crate she was in when she died. I started to, but I could see her little hairs and I just can't clean that up.

Thank God for my other fur friends. I can't neglect them because they need me. Sprite is my happy border collie and she doesn't understand my tears, just wags her tail and licks my face. My Aussie Chance had a seizure last night. This isn't new but he is so helpless when it happens, I can just rub his tummy and give him syrop when he comes out of it. It usually only happens 2 or 3 times a year but he had one just a couple of weeks before Ziggy got shot so that's just a couple of months ago. His prognosis is good according to the vet, but if it happens again too soon I'll have him tested for thyroid problems. (I don't have a lot of money for vet bills after the thousand pus bill for a dead Ziggy.) Then there is Asha, my little border collie who is so terrified of the outside world because of her early abuse/neglect (all my pets are rescues). I took her to dog agility in a group class for the first time last week - she did private lessons before - and I was so proud of her! During the summer I tried to socialize her and took her to public places. She refused even her favorite treats from everybody and twice had seizures from hyperventilating. I have socialized dogs before but my little girl gets in a state of terror when there is too much activity and I was starting to lose hope that she can be a "normal" dog. So at agility when she was playing, taking treats and even approached a GULP man and let him pet her I was just smiling from ear to ear.

And Asha smiles too - I need to get pic's of this, as I now realize these precious moments just don't last forever - I so wish I had recorded Ziggy's beautiful special purr.

Even with my dogs distracting me, Ziggy's lack of presence is so huge. The house just feels so depressing.

Ziggy, Zita - I love you both and I so want to be able to enjoy you again....

My Merlin dog has been there before in my dreams reassuring me that he is safe, so I have to believe you are too.

Jan.

[Zita'sMom]

I just don't know if I will ever feel the joy that I once did.

I realize how little most people understand my connection with my furkids. My mom and dad used to love my old Merlin dog, but when I got new animals they sort of shut off from getting to know them. My mom decided she didn't like the dog hair and so they were no longer invited to her house. She's never been a big fan of cats. When I got Ziggy, my dad's reaction was something like "oh no, why would you get another cat." So much for congratulations. It was the same when I adopted Zeus and Zita.

I don't have kids of my own - not by choice. But I have always been so proud of my furkids. My parents live in a city close by. When Zita went missing, I said something to my mom about the grief I was feeling. She said "It's been a couple of weeks hasn't it?" I have explained to her that with Ziggy I do and will feel grief and that though she may not understand it, she must accept it. My dad seems mostly distinterested in the topic of Ziggy. They both talk constantly about my sister's children's problems, but a cat shot dead, well no big deal really. I know that some people just don't understand. But I feel hurt about it just the same. It's like why should I feel grief about it... when they don't. Not even when Ziggy was shot, murdered. My parents are generous, giving and caring people overall, and they treat animals well, so I guess I wish for more understanding.

I just feel alienated from most of the world right now.

I feel frustrated and concerned that people just don't "get it", especially for the well being of other animals like Ziggy who are at risk to predators who have no emotional attachment to animals. But I feel so tired of trying to reach the "unreachable". Can I even make a mark?

Jan.

[ann]

Hi Jan, I understand exactly where you're coming from. All my hurt is kept inside of me now. I only burst when I'm alone. Or type it out here. I thought I might be able to get some sympathy from those who lost a close pet too. I didn't. Maybe they didn't want to relive the pain having already moved on. I just finished posting a new topic in cyber chat room about my day today. I'm craving a new kitty to love and I'm surrounded by people who don't want them. I told my Dad how in the long run, having them around far outweighs to pain of losing them. His reaction "no it isn't, I'd rather not have them at all. My sister in law who just decided to dump their cat on me(I do love her and she's no problem) cuz she just didn't want it anymore and was going "to get rid of it" if she brought her back home, has found out her beloved dog Nala has cancer in the worst way. Only 1mo or so to live. She's quite upset and I don't blame her, but she was the most unsympathic person to me knowing about Arthur. Now she's going to know what it really feels like.
You know, I'v been thinking about this alot., What really can people say to us?.. Are you feeling any better about your pet? I know for myself I wouldn't say anything myself. They either ignor it like they don't care, or maybe the do care about us and just don't know what to say. I'd rather them not acknowlege my feelings than tell my why don't you just get another one. Or, you know, I think it's time you moved on. Or, It's just a cat, dog, bird etc. get over it. I've come up with a line that I'll use in the future its...I'm sorry for your loss, I know how much this hurts, in time you'll get another one when your ready, it takes a long time to heal from this..I think this would show concern and respect. I guess you really need to find that special bond with a fury friend to understand..Hugs..Ann

[AngelCareOne]

Hi Jan, I understand exactly where you're coming from. All my hurt is kept inside of me now. I only burst when I'm alone. Or type it out here. I thought I might be able to get some sympathy from those who lost a close pet too. I didn't. Maybe they didn't want to relive the pain having already moved on. I just finished posting a new topic in cyber chat room about my day today. I'm craving a new kitty to love and I'm surrounded by people who don't want them. I told my Dad how in the long run, having them around far outweighs to pain of losing them. His reaction "no it isn't, I'd rather not have them at all. My sister in law who just decided to dump their cat on me(I do love her and she's no problem) cuz she just didn't want it anymore and was going "to get rid of it" if she brought her back home, has found out her beloved dog Nala has cancer in the worst way. Only 1mo or so to live. She's quite upset and I don't blame her, but she was the most unsympathic person to me knowing about Arthur. Now she's going to know what it really feels like.

You know, I'v been thinking about this alot., What really can people say to us?.. Are you feeling any better about your pet? I know for myself I wouldn't say anything myself. They either ignor it like they don't care, or maybe the do care about us and just don't know what to say. I'd rather them not acknowlege my feelings than tell my why don't you just get another one. Or, you know, I think it's time you moved on. Or, It's just a cat, dog, bird etc. get over it. I've come up with a line that I'll use in the future its...I'm sorry for your loss, I know how much this hurts, in time you'll get another one when your ready, it takes a long time to heal from this..I think this would show concern and respect. I guess you really need to find that special bond with a fury friend to understand..Hugs..Ann

Oh man, oh man, oh man! I hear you, Ann! ARG! ... And I still want to spit! Patttoooiiieee!!!

Many Comforting HUGS!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxox

[Zita'sMom]

You know, I'v been thinking about this alot., What really can people say to us?.. Are you feeling any better about your pet? I know for myself I wouldn't say anything myself. They either ignor it like they don't care, or maybe the do care about us and just don't know what to say. I'd rather them not acknowlege my feelings than tell my why don't you just get another one. Or, you know, I think it's time you moved on. Or, It's just a cat, dog, bird etc. get over it. I've come up with a line that I'll use in the future its...I'm sorry for your loss, I know how much this hurts, in time you'll get another one when your ready, it takes a long time to heal from this..I think this would show concern and respect. I guess you really need to find that special bond with a fury friend to understand..Hugs..Ann

Thanks Ann, yes.

I think for my own dad he just doesn't go "there" like a lot of men. The dog I grew up with got hit by a car when he was 12 yrs old. My mom wanted to get a dog years later but my dad wouldn't. My parents don't travel, they are homebodies, they go on walks - what better home for a dog... but what it comes down to is that my dad could not face the pain of loss again, I'm sure of that. He says it's the responsibility but I know how attached he was to our dog. But at the same time my 5 yr old niece is on treatment for Lyme disease and he'll talk about that for hours as will my mom. My cat's death - nothing. I know that if I had a child that went missing or was murdered they would see it as a big deal, but it clearly isn't that way for them about a cat. Somehow they just don't "get" the attachment or just don't want to be involved in that...

thanks for your thoughts. And for your "spitting" Dottie.

Jan.

[Zita'sMom]

I don't like to dwell on sad anniversary dates, but I can't help to think that this exact day last year was the last time I ever saw my sweet Zita. It was a "rush around" day and I didn't even interact with her much because we were out most of the day. I do wish I had one moment at least to tell her how very much I loved her and to have felt her soft fur one last time.

I feel that she knows I love her, but things have been very challenging since my Zita disappeared last year.

When she didn't show up for breakfast I actually fully believed I would find her and had a strong feeling she was "safe". Now I don't know even what "safe" really is or means.

My sweet Zita, I do miss you. I hope you've met Ziggy and are cuddled together in the land of light and love.

I love my "pumpkin" and I hope to see you again, soon.

Jan.

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[ann]

Hi Jan, how adorable Zita is in that picture. I think you can say the word safe means that Zita and Ziggy are together and will be safe together until you see them again.. Many Hugs.. Ann

[Zita'sMom]

Thanks Ann!

It's exactly one year today that she went missing.

I wish that my Zita would just mysteriously arrive on my doorstep. I know she's in spirit, but we never found her body.

These are some of Zita's kitten pictures. What a special kitty.

Jan.

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[Candy's Dad]

What great pictures!!! Zita looks like a darling!!


Thanks for sharing them.

Candy's Dad
Hal

[Zita'sMom]

Thanks Hal

What she looks like in those pictures is what she was in life - just a bundle of love and sweetness.

Thinking of her a lot today... and as always my "helper" kitty Ziggy, who helped me cope with the loss of Zita.

Jan.

[Furkidlets' Mom]

I know it must be SO hard, Jan, remembering and missing your Zita today especially. I"m so sorry. Her pictures are beautiful, that's for certain...just like the love you two shared.

F's Mom

[Zita'sMom]

I know it must be SO hard, Jan, remembering and missing your Zita today especially. I"m so sorry. Her pictures are beautiful, that's for certain...just like the love you two shared.

F's Mom

Thanks F's Mom... thinking of both my kitties a lot.

Jan.

[Zita'sMom]

Just after Ziggy died I went down to our field and sat in the sun for awhile with my thoughts.

A red dragonfly landed on my arm. I've never seen a red dragonfly before. I've also never had one land on me since I've lived in this city. It sat for several moments.

Both Ziggy and Zita were "redheads".

I've heard about people seeing butterflies or other symbols from their passed love ones, and I did wonder... if it was a sign...

I was looking up dragonflies on the internet to see if anyone had had this particular symbol from a lost loved one and just came across this story. If this dragonfly was there for a reason, perhaps this story is the reason:

"In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could not understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the lily stems to the top of the water. They promised each other that the next one who was called to make the upward climb would return and tell what had happened to him. Soon one of them felt an urgent impulse to seek the surface; he rested himself on the top of a lily pad and went through a glorious transformation which made him a dragonfly with beautiful wings. In vain he tried to keep his promise. Flying back and forth over the pond, he peered down at his friends below. Then he realized that even if they could see him they would not recognize such a radiant creature as one of their number.

The fact that we cannot see our friends or communicate with them after the transformation which we call death is no proof that they cease to exist."


by Walter Dudley Cavert

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}} I've been wanting to do this for a very long time. It's good that I waited because Photobucket has added many, many new features and I'm finally figuring out how to use them all. I pray this brings you comfort, Dear One! I began with the awesome photo of Ziggy ... Well, I hope it's Ziggy but if I'm wrong then all I need do is change the poster which only would take a minute. I can tell you what all is available and I hope to gosh you know me well enough by now not to be shy and that you realize how much I love doing this. Big Hugs!!!

Next, I'd like to work on Zita sleeping with the very colorful comforter unless you have a special request. As is said in by the Genie in the bottle, "Your wish is my command." I am smiling at you. Okay, I'll put the URL links for you to click and bring up each image. I've written beneath each image a short explanation of what I've done. Here you go with all my love!

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MySpotFour/ZIGGY2.jpg
Original without any enhancements. Just as you posted the photo, Jan.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...ur/ZIGGY2-1.jpg
Many enhancement features applied but I sharpened the image too much so ...

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...ur/ZIGGY2-2.jpg
Same enhancements and sharpened correctly.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS.../ZIGGY2-2-1.jpg
Simple Gold Frame.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS.../ZIGGY2-2-2.jpg
Poster. Jan, I can make the poster say anything you wish in any color text. Okay?

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...IGGY2-2-3-3.jpg
Hearts, Butterflies, Caption. No Frame. Jan, I can make anything a different color, put it anywhere on the photo and put any caption you wish in any color with about 7 frame choices. Plus, I use double and triple frames on one photo to make it look really lovely. Okay? Also, there are many, many different "stickers" besides the those hearts and butterflies and I can make them any color you wish.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...IGGY2-2-3-1.jpg
Hearts, Butterflies. In my opinion, the Caption is too high inside the Frame so ...

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...IGGY2-2-3-2.jpg
Cropped off the bottom just a tiny bit then: Hearts, Butterflies, Caption, Frame.

Jan, I pray these bring you some small comfort and please let me know what you'd like next if other than Zita as I said. Okay? Okay!

Tons of Hugs, Love, Peace and Hope to You and Your Fur Babies!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Hi again, Jan. Here's what I have so far for Zita dreaming on the bed with the beautiful comforter. I hope it brings you comfort, Hon. Click on the URL links to bring up the photos. Hugs!!!

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MySpotFour/ZITA5.jpg
Original with no enhancements.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...our/ZITA5-2.jpg
Enhanced and sharpened.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...our/ZITA5-1.jpg
Antique Gold Frame

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...r/ZITA5-2-1.jpg
Triple Framed.

http://i96.photobucket.com/albums/l179/MyS...r/ZITA5-2-2.jpg
Simple gold frame and captioned using same color text as one of the colors in the comforter. Jan, I had to make the print pretty small to get it all in there. Just click to bring up the photo and you'll see why.

I hope you like them.

Tons of Hugs and Lotsa Love to You and Your Fur Babies!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Zita'sMom]

{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}} I've been wanting to do this for a very long time. It's good that I waited because Photobucket has added many, many new features and I'm finally figuring out how to use them all. I pray this brings you comfort, Dear One! I began with the awesome photo of Ziggy ... Well, I hope it's Ziggy but if I'm wrong then all I need do is change the poster which only would take a minute. I can tell you what all is available and I hope to gosh you know me well enough by now not to be shy and that you realize how much I love doing this. Big Hugs!!!

Dottie - those are so great - thanks so much!

This picture of Ziggy I posted is a closer version of the original and I was trying to make her eyes brighter and get rid of the background stuff. I gave up after brightening, but I wanted originally to make the green background (the shrubs behind her) continue on the left hand side instead of the side of the building and the wooden cat that are there. I will get around to trying to do that some day, but I'm not a photoshop expert. Your sharpening worked really well! I will keep all these pic's.

I will post you a pic that is really blurry - it's of Zita. I gave it an effect because I think it is beyond "unblurring" but I'll show you what it looks like here, with and without the effect. If you have any ideas how to bring it "to life" I would love to hear them..

Thanks again so much Dottie!

Jan.

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[Zita'sMom]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6JYV1Hp8xT0

Give Me Love

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

PLEASE take hold of my hand, that
I might understand you

Won't you please
Oh won't you

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

Won't you please
Oh won't you

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul
Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me, Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

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[AngelCareOne]

Dottie - those are so great - thanks so much!

This picture of Ziggy I posted is a closer version of the original and I was trying to make her eyes brighter and get rid of the background stuff. I gave up after brightening, but I wanted originally to make the green background (the shrubs behind her) continue on the left hand side instead of the side of the building and the wooden cat that are there. I will get around to trying to do that some day, but I'm not a photoshop expert. Your sharpening worked really well! I will keep all these pic's.

I will post you a pic that is really blurry - it's of Zita. I gave it an effect because I think it is beyond "unblurring" but I'll show you what it looks like here, with and without the effect. If you have any ideas how to bring it "to life" I would love to hear them..

Thanks again so much Dottie!

Jan.

Oh, she's beautiful, Jan! Great photo of Zita. Yep, I think I can do quite a bit. As is said in the movie Blazing Saddles, "I'll go do that voodoo that I do so WELLLLL." Please give me at least 15 to 30 minutes and I'll be right back. Here I go >>>>>>>

Big Tight Hugs!!!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Can you post the original one of Ziggy that you're talking about above so I can see what I'm able to do if anything? Thanks, Jan!

Okay, here I go for real this time >>>>>

[Zita'sMom]

PS. Can you post the original one of Ziggy that you're talking about above so I can see what I'm able to do if anything? Thanks, Jan!

Hi Dottie - I think we are posting at the same time...

Here is the original photo of Ziggy, reduced in file size so it can be posted here, but it's before I cut it down in size. You'll see why I cut it down in size and brightened it - it's not a very good pic, but I have so few of her.

I am also posting the revised pic I made of it.


Need to go walk doggies but talk to u soon!

Jan.

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