Alex, I Shall Love You Eternally, My Best Friend Ever! Options

[AngelCareOne]

Good Morning Sweet Alex. I've come to sing a Blessing to you. You're Here by my side - So Contented and Feeling Great Joy!

I Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Please Click on Blessing Angel

"The Blessing"

In the morning when you rise . . .
I Bless the sun, I Bless the skies.
I Bless your lips, I Bless your eyes.
My Blessing goes with you.

In the nighttime when you sleep . . .
Oh I Bless you while a watch I keep.
As you lie in slumber deep . . .
My Blessing goes with you.

This is my Prayer for you!
There for you, Ever true!
Each, every day for you . . .
In everything you do.

And when you come to me . . .
And hold me close to you . . .
I Bless you!
And you Bless me too!

When your weary heart is tired . . .
If the world would leave you uninspired . . .
When nothing more of love's desired . . .
My Blessing goes with you.

When the storms of life are strong . . .
When you're wounded, When you don't belong . . .
When you no longer hear my song . . .
My Blessing goes with you!

This is my Prayer for you!
There for you, Ever true!
Each every day for you . . .
In everything you do.

And when you come to me . . .
And hold me close to you . . .
I Bless you
And you Bless me too!

I Bless you . . .
And you Bless me too!

I Carry Your Heart In My Heart Always - My Precious Feather Child!!!

[havana]

AngelCareOne, thanks for your words again, that is so nice of you. I just finished reading your last posts to your sweet and beautiful Alex and my heart goes out to you and understand your pain and like I said it before I feel it like my own, I am sure Alex knew the special kind of Mom he has [allow me to say it in the present time] believe he knows and some how he encourages you to write to him this way a very unique way like only you know how and when, you know exactly what to say, that tells me he is all over you fliying and dropping so much love for you everywhere you are, thanks again good friend, Jorge

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Jorge, God Bless You Most Abundantly!!! And you are right. Alex is here with me at this very moment. I came to sing him to sleep as I always did every night when I tucked him into his nest box. Here is one video that Alex loves tons and tons! I'm going to tell him something now. Okay, Jorge? Here goes . . .

Hi, Sweet Baby Alex. I came to sing you to sleep and share the video you loved so much. Remember my Precious Feather Child it is true that "When you Wish upon a Star Makes no difference who you are Anything your Heart desires will come to You!" All ya gotta do is Believe and you know your Mama always told you the truth. So you just Believe!

I Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Please Click on the "Believe and You Will See" Image

"When You Wish Upon a Star"


When a Star is born . . .
They possess a Gift or two.
One of them is this . . .
They have the Power to make a Wish come True!

When you Wish upon a Star . . .
Makes no difference who you are . . .
Anything your Heart desires will come to You!

If your Heart is in your Dream . . .
No request is too extreme . . .
When you Wish upon a Star as Dreamers do.

Fate is Kind.
She brings to those who Love . . .
The Sweet Fulfillment of their secret longing!

Like a bolt out of the blue . . .
Fate steps in and Sees You Through . . .
When you Wish upon a Star . . .
Your Dreams come True!

Mama is Wishing Upon that Star for You, my baby boy Alex And Sweet Dreams!

[AngelCareOne]

Well, Sweet Baby Alex, today is 11 months on the nose when were to be returned to me. Please don't be sad my Most Precious Feather Child. Remember it is true that time can be transcended and you are here . . .

Somewhere In Time! I will travel through time today and be with you as we are and have always been. Alex, some things were just meant to be and you and I are one of those things. I'm on my way right this moment to see you Somewhere In Time my Most Beloved Baby Boy Alex. Here I come . . .

I Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Please Click on the "Somewhere in Time" Globe Depicting Alex and I Together

"Somewhere In Time"

Where there is time . . .
There is tomorrow.
Somewhere in time . . .
All sorrows pass to memory.

And so the end . . .
Is the beginning.
Somewhere in time . . .
We are as we're meant to be.

Where there is time . . .
There is a circle.
Somewhere in time . . .
The circle yearns to be complete.

Though you may feel . . .
This is illusion.
Somewhere in time . . .
I know we're certain to meet.

Somewhere in time . . .
Love is forever.
A love that's here, a love that's now.
To last for all time.

Somehow I know . . .
This moment's waiting . . .
Somewhere in time.

Where there is time . . .
There is a circle.
Somewhere in time . . .
The circle will be complete.

Somewhere in time . . .
Love is forever.
A love that's here, a love that's now.
To last for all time.

Somehow I know . . .
This moment's waiting . . .
Somewhere in time . . . . .

There You Are Alex! I See You and Feel You All Around Me!

For Always and in All Ways! Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Oh Man, Alex and Doh on me! This is September 14th and it was October 14th when ya didn't come home. Mommy got mixed up. Do ya forgive me, Sweetie? Awww, thanks Alex! You're so nice to your "doh on me" Mommy. Can I have a hug please? Well, that felt great! Pssstttt, I'll go fix that other message I wrote to you and make the correction.

Love ya to bits and pieces, My Wonderful Feather Boy!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Most Cherished Alex, "I Hear your Voice on the Wind! And I Hear you call out my name! I am the Voice of the past that will Always Be! I am the Voice of your hunger and pain. Answer my call, and I'll set you Free! I am the Force that in Springtime will Grow! I am the Voice of the Future! I Will Remain!"

I Love You Sooooo Much!!!

Please Click on The Voice Image

"The Voice"

I Hear your Voice on the Wind!
And I Hear you call out my name!

"Listen, my Child," you say to me . . .
"I am the Voice of your history . . .
Be not afraid, come follow me!
Answer my call, and I'll set you Free!"

I am the Voice in the Wind and the pouring rain.
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain.
I am the Voice that always is calling you.
I am the Voice! I Will Remain!

I am the Voice in the fields when the summer's gone.
The dance of the leaves when the autumn winds blow.
Ne'er do I sleep throughout all the cold winter long.
I am the Force that in Springtime will Grow!

I am the Voice of the past that will Always be!
Filled with my sorrow and blood in my fields.
I am the Voice of the Future bring me your Peace!
Bring me your Peace and my wounds they will Heal!

I am the Voice in the Wind and the pouring rain.
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain.
I am the Voice that Always is calling you.
I am the Voice!

I am the Voice of the past that will Always be!
I am the Voice of your hunger and pain.
I am the Voice of the Future!
I am the Voice! I am the Voice!
I am the Voice! I am the Voice!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[Zita'sMom]

Thanks for posting that - you find such healing songs - so filled with reassurance and peace...

thanks from Alex and from me.

Jan.

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{Jan}}}}} You are so very welcome! But Ut Oh. Alex just spoke with Ziggy and Ziggy told Alex for me to get this over to your thread quick fast and in a hurry cuz Ziggy wants You to have this, too! Get ready cuz here it comes ...

Big Hugs and Lotsa Love to You, Ziggy, Zita and Zeus from Me and Alex, too!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Bubba]

hey Dottie-----Not to be pushy,but just droppin by to make sure your cool.Didn't hear from you today(don't mean to sound possesive either) Just hope your ok and all is as well as can be expected considering the reason we are on this forum in the first place--------virtual atcha later----------Bub...........(remember him on "My Three Sons? I think I'll start wearing my pants up to the middle of my chest like he did)--------

[Mikki]

Dearest Dottie,
I so think your rage is justifiable---people who abuse animals are dispicable, low-lifes who really have no right to inhabit this planet. Your story breaks my heart and fills me with rage. I pray that you get your just revenge. People who don't love and cherish animals are SOUL-LESS!
With care,
Mikki

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Bubba and Mikki, thank you both so much. This is the very first time in days that I've turned on my PC and I came directly to this safe haven.

Yes, Bubba. I remember. You are a hoot and thanks so much for caring about me and your support to me and my fur and feather kids in this time of your sorrow and need. I guess I gotta learn to listen better to that song, "Lean on Me." You know the words, right? Bless you, your dear wife and fur kid Willy! I'm so sorry I haven't been here for you, Dear One. I hope you know that you and all here have been in my thoughts and prayers. Of course you know that. Thanks again, Bubba!

Thank you, Mikki and Bless you, too. I truly appreciate you validating my feelings of rage about what was done to my fur and feather kids. Thank God I got to Buddy dog and Styx kitty in time due to the one monster being so ignorant as to not remove their current tags when she took them to the pound as strays and tried to rush them being euthanized. This raised a major flag in Dana's mind at the pound so many miles away so she played along getting Ida to fill out all the paperwork, get her photo ID and so forth. Then Dana got on her computer, used the information on my doggie's and kitty's tags to lead her to me which is when she did call me on the phone on October 16, 2007 ... The very same day that Ida brought my Buddy dog and Styx kitty to that pound. Bless Dana, Bless you and Bless all of you!

To Omarmommy: I owe you an apology. Marcie, I'm pretty sure there's a PM from you that I've not answered yet. Please forgive me. I will get to you. No, I'm not ignoring you, Dear One. My gosh, you are so very, very dear as is everyone here.

To Ann: I haven't looked at any of those dream Websites but I feel pretty sure I know what that "barricade" in my dream represents. Possibly others have figured it out or will figure it out by the end of this message. God Bless you, Ann!

To: Jan, Jorge, LoveThem, Ann, Bubba, Mikki, Marcie, Warren, Chris, Deanna, Sissycat, Jon, Liz, Dele, Corina, Suzanne, Laura, Christine, Michelle, Moon Beam, Belle's Mom, Meens, Mark, JKay, Beth, Jools, Brittany, Mickimom, Nemo's Mommy, Candy's Dad, Victoria, Janet, Lynsey, Gizmo, AppleCat, Daisysmom and all the rest of you and to our new arrivals ... I am so sorry I have not been here for you all. Indeed, you and your precious fur kids have all been in my thoughts and prayers.

And, to my most cherished beloved baby boy Alex: Mama is so very sorry. Buddy dog and Styx kitty both got sick throwing up a few days ago. They're fine now but both appear quite depressed and I don't blame them. Mamma has felt physically sick as well as depressed, sorrow, grief, guilt, and more about what was done to my fur and feather babies. I've tried to go into denial and put my mind in a safe place but that doesn't last very long.

Denial of those feelings does a great injustice to your memory, Alex. It also holds me back from what I need to do to get to the bottom of all the lies, find out the truth and put three monsters behind bars. Gosh knows I have enough evidence. Oh, that evidence may have nothing to do with what happened to my fur and feather kids but it sure is enough to put at least two people behind bars and get a fourth person fired from a very high ranking position which that person has betrayed at the request of Nico time and again. Hey, any port in a storm and ammunition is ammunition to make them all pay for what they did to my fur and feather kids.

Mama has not been strong. I was told by my internist physician that the gosh awful physical pain I have most of the time is due to stress and anxiety and I wouldn't believe him. Instead, I insisted my aches and pains are because of me being so overweight due to the thyroid nodules that no doctor will treat with suppression therapy because of this stupid mitral valve prolapse of my heart which is about as significant as a benign freckle on the skin. True about my mitral valve prolapse and my tiny frame wasn't made to support all this weight. Well, the aches and pains do come and go depending upon the level of stress I am experiencing so my internist must be right. Hey, many times I can walk just fine without using the cane while other times ... Let's just say, I don't get around very well.

Still, I need to allow myself to feel and express what I'm feeling or what use is it of me being here and what use is it to my sweet boy Alex? I must learn to lean and I shall. I'm still jumping through all kinds of hoops to get help here at my home dealing with the terrible anger and rage that I feel as well as the sorrow, grief and devastation stemming from what was done to my fur and feather kids but I ain't gonna give up and am gonna get that help and plow ahead. Heck, if I have to get to that office again, then that's what I have to do.

Dang. There used to be a very old comedy show called Life 'O Riley where I watched reruns and I recall whenever the main character played by William Bendix would say, "What a revoltin' situation this is." Then came the laugh track. However, I know this is nothing to laugh about no matter how hard I try to put a spin on it to make it seem more cute, or make myself appear stronger or this whole situation look any less hideous than it really is. And that's what it is: A gosh awful terrible horrible situation. What happened is betrayal ... Several cases of unconscionable acts of betrayal to my fur and feather babies and to myself by those three monsters with a hand from the fourth who will not go mentioned at this time . . .

I'm getting tired now so again, God Bless All and more later. Thank you for your kindness, support, more ... Thank you for understanding me not being there at this time. I must better learn to do what everyone else here is doing. You guessed it. Here's the song . . .

Please Click on The "How Ya Doing?" Kitten and Baby Duck

"Lean On Me"

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain . . .
We all have sorrow.
But if we are wise . . .
We know that there's always tomorrow.

Lean on me, when you're not strong . . .
And I'll be your friend . . .
I'll help you carry on.
For it won't be long . . .
'Til I'm gonna need . . .
Somebody to lean on.

Please swallow your pride . . .
If I have things you need to borrow.
For no one can fill those of your needs . . .
That you don't let show.

Lean on me, when you're not strong . . .
And I'll be your friend . . .
I'll help you carry on.
For it won't be long . . .
'Til I'm gonna need . . .
Somebody to lean on.

If there is a load you have to bear . . .
That you can't carry.
I'm right up the road . . .
I'll share your load . . .
If you just call me.

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand.
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'd understand.
We all need somebody to lean on.

Lean on me when you're not strong . . .
And I'll be your friend . . .
I'll help you carry on.
For it won't be long . . .
Till I'm gonna need . . .
Somebody to lean on.

Lean on me . . .

Thank you so much to Everyone and God Bless!!!

Alex, I Miss and Love You Sooo Much!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Bubba]

Dottie--I KNEW something was wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!You are takin care of all of us here while you are suffering mentally AND physically!!!!!!!!!! JUST TAKE A BREAK NOW THAT WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU HAVE SOooooooooo MUCH TO DEAL WITH.We all want you to be well.Just say "I'm OK " and sign off.We will all know that your chillin till you get better.That stress thing has got my guts in a physical twirl everyday since Willy passed.My B.P. is high and I can't have a drink to chill as I don't drink anymore(course I don't drink any less either!!!!!!! BAAARRRRRRRRRump Bump!!!!) Hopefully God's little tranquilizer will be legalized in our lifetime----ear----
Prayers about to be sent upstairs for you buddy-----------Bubba................

[AngelCareOne]

Awww Bubba, I really can be a strong and "cranky old git" as one of my friends called herself. Hey, last time I was here typing a message, it was about 3:30 AM and Buddy dog started barking outside. Mind you, Buddy dog will bark at ducks, possums and the odd paper bag floating by but I could tell this bark was different. I went outside in my back yard, yelled out, "Who's there?! Someone's there and you'd better speak up!" Bubba, it was so dark. No lights. This frail male voice said it was him so I asked him who he was and he said his name was Wayne and that he was a friend. I said I don't have any friends named Wayne especially at 3:30 AM stalking around in the back with no lights and all the crime that's been going on here. He said no. He was visiting one of my friends. I asked him what is my friend's name? He stammered. I yelled out again, what is my friend's name that you're visiting or leaving at this hour? He just stammered, apologized ... Heck, he was scared. I told him I was sorry but too much crime has been going on in the back of our townhouse complex so for him to be careful ...

Dang, Bubba. That guy could have been one of the bad dudes with a gun. Oy. How stupid of me to do what I did but I felt ticked off like someone was messing with my Buddy dog. I did say God bless to the fellow before he left and he said God bless to me. The next day is when Buddy dog started throwing up. (Actually later the same day.) Styx kitty throws up every now and then so that didn't surprise me but Buddy dog throwing up? Oh No. I thought he may have been poisoned and yada, yada, yada ... Buddy is fine and so is Styx ...

Bubba, you poor dear!!!!!!! I sure wish the other was legal, too. However, I am deathly allergic to it myself but am a huge advocate of it being used for medical purposes and such. Gee, let's move to Amsterdam where all that stuff is legal! (BAAARRRRRRRRRump Bump!!!!!) Bubba, you gotta take care of yourself, Hon. What would your dear wife and other fur kids do without you? Are you taking anything for your blood pressure? For that stress? Oh My Goodness, Bubba ...

Thank you so much for your prayers and you know that I'm sending up prayers right this moment for you and yours!!!!!!!

Tons of Hugs and Lotsa Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Fur Kid Willy and all the Rest!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Bubba]

Yah Mon-------How do you say BAAARRRRRRRRRRump BUMP in Dutch? I am taking Lisinopril.And it has worked well for years.It's just that Willy's passing has hit me especially hard and just a couple of times it spiked after a particularly hard crying session.But 99% of the time the average is 120/70.So i am ok and the REALLY INTENSE crying sessions are subsiding.Just a few unannounced 'regular' jags as the days continue to pass.Hopefully my wife would take a long overdue vacation if I 'KACKED'. You take care of yourself too.....ok? Get yourself one of those 'Life of Riley' hammocks and have a good snooze!!!!!!!
Take care.......Bubba...........

[Bubba]

By the way it might be a good idea to get a light installed in your backyard.Post haste!!!!!!!!!
Bub.................

[Bubba]

One more thought-------Get BUDDY DOG an oversized George W. Bush mask for halloween and beyond.That along with your new backyard light would scare the crap out of anyone.Or better yet a Sarah Palin mask with an optional velcro-affixed semi-automatic rifle.Just in case your in the mood for Moose stew.
BUB..............

[AngelCareOne]

Yah Mon-------How do you say BAAARRRRRRRRRRump BUMP in Dutch? I am taking Lisinopril.And it has worked well for years.It's just that Willy's passing has hit me especially hard and just a couple of times it spiked after a particularly hard crying session.But 99% of the time the average is 120/70.So i am ok and the REALLY INTENSE crying sessions are subsiding.Just a few unannounced 'regular' jags as the days continue to pass.Hopefully my wife would take a long overdue vacation if I 'KACKED'. You take care of yourself too.....ok? Get yourself one of those 'Life of Riley' hammocks and have a good snooze!!!!!!!
Take care.......Bubba...........

Bubba, I know what you mean. There are times that the big time screaming and crying has helped me sooooo much but a couple times (or more?) that I could hear my heart beating very loudly in my right ear which is not my good ear. I knew it was my blood pressure. Once, it got so bad that I did dial 911 to have them send the paramedics. When the paramedics got to my home, I started crying to please not let me die until after I got justice for them killing Alex. I could tell my BP was down by the time they got here cuz my heart beat in my right ear was less intense. Still, I ain't gonna tell ya what it was cuz Oy. I was so sure I was going to stroke out and die before I had time to get justice done for my fur and feather kids ... The guyze were kind and assured me that my seizure medication would help and I'd be okay without going to the hospital. I went back inside the house, took my medication, lay down with Buddy dog and Styx kitty and ... Well ...

So I do know what you're saying, Bubba. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!! Keep up with your Lisinopril, don't miss a dose, do allow yourself to cry and cry and cry cuz ya gotta let it out!!!!!!! And ... Hey, you can get one of them Life 'O Riley hammocks and chill out, too ... In Dutch ... In Amsterdam where the stuff is legal. Oh "BAAARRRRRRRRRRump BUMP" is an international language, Bubba. Yep, it is. *Smiling at You.*

By the way it might be a good idea to get a light installed in your backyard.Post haste!!!!!!!!!
Bub.................

I do have a light right outside my back door up against the wall. The bulb had burned out. I have two bulbs in the car port where I'd be parked if I did have a car anymore. Something has happened to that light fixture. I'll look into it. Probably the last time someone smacked at it when they stole or brought back a stolen car and parked it in one of my two spaces. Hey, when I had a car, it was broken into twice and stolen once pretty soon after I got it those many years ago. Great car and she served me well for almost 20 years before she went to car Heaven. Bless that car. I miss her. Oh, they found my car 3 days after it was stolen in a grocery store parking lot with a bashed in fender which probably happened with the thief or thieves tried to back it out of my parking space. It is tricky and ya gotta know what you're doing to negotiate that turn.

I also have motion detector lights on the wall up high on the other side of the outdoor back wall that my late hubby Kenny had put there. Bless him!!! I think they still may work but need the bulbs changed. I do have a handy man and will call him about that. Thanks, Bubba!

NOW YOU TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! And do all I said to TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! Okay? Okay? Okay!

Tons of Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Fur Kid Willy and all the Rest!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Bubba]

Yes Ma'am I will.Calling that handy man(Is it Emmett from the old Andy Griffith show? Hardy Har Har!!!!!) will make Kenny and me happy campers.
God bless you pal-----Bubba
P.S. Google.....Ram Dass for tapes and books.Particulary the audio recording of his lecture called 'Seasons of our lives' It got me through college when I was drowning in mental illness and severe panic disorder.He is a former Harvard professor who gave up everything to study in India back in the 60's when he and his colleague,Timothy Leary, were thrown out of Harvard because of their experiments.In fact I just listened to it today.Incredibly comforting and brings things into focus.Alot of the ideas I posit on this site are direct quotes from him.People like Wayne Dyer,Eckhart Tolle and Deep Pockets........OOPS........I mean Deepak Chopra are mere regurgitaters of his work.Ram Dass is quite old now and is incapacitated because of a stroke and is basically broke.All the money he made through the years he gave away to humanist foundations.To him though he is working out his Karma.I have read all his books(and countless others) and have listened to the 'Seasons of our life' recording at least 500 times.No kidding........

[Zita'sMom]

Oh Dottie

Sorry to hear about Buddy and Styx and the weird guy in your backyard. And I hope you are feeling better.

I really, really want peace of mind for you - I so empathize with your pain. I have some thoughts on this intense and heavy experience we call "life" and I will try to post them soon.

I think the one thing we can do for each other, which you are very good at already, is to reach out. It means so much and is the one thing we can do...

I hope all of you are feeling better and I wish you peace, peace, peace. I wish I could bring Alex back to you.

take care

Jan.

[AngelCareOne]

Yes Ma'am I will.Calling that handy man(Is it Emmett from the old Andy Griffith show? Hardy Har Har!!!!!) will make Kenny and me happy campers.
God bless you pal-----Bubba

Hardy Har Har!!!!! Nope but close. His name is Scott Marshall and his brother Jeff Marshall does the bigger stuff. Still got that Andy of Mayberry feel about 'em though. *Smiling at you!*

P.S. Google.....Ram Dass for tapes and books.Particulary the audio recording of his lecture called 'Seasons of our lives' It got me through college when I was drowning in mental illness and severe panic disorder.He is a former Harvard professor who gave up everything to study in India back in the 60's when he and his colleague,Timothy Leary, were thrown out of Harvard because of their experiments.In fact I just listened to it today.Incredibly comforting and brings things into focus.Alot of the ideas I posit on this site are direct quotes from him.People like Wayne Dyer,Eckhart Tolle and Deep Pockets........OOPS........I mean Deepak Chopra are mere regurgitaters of his work.Ram Dass is quite old now and is incapacitated because of a stroke and is basically broke.All the money he made through the years he gave away to humanist foundations.To him though he is working out his Karma.I have read all his books(and countless others) and have listened to the 'Seasons of our life' recording at least 500 times.No kidding........

Oh Wow! Will do and thanks so very much, Bubba!!!

More Big Hugs, Love and Peace to You and Yours!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox