Alex, I Shall Love You Eternally, My Best Friend Ever! Options

[Bubba]

Howdee again--Drunk or High? Well it dosen't make you a bad person----I will for sure tell you all about the dream in detail.But iffin ya don't mand I will write tomorrow as I am pooped.Funny thing though, that thing you said about your dream-the "bye the way" thing,you jarred my memory as I had something similar happen in a dream in the past couple of days.I'll have to think about that and include it with the Willy's dream story.I'll post back tomorrow after my 'beauty' sleep-----as my Mom used to say.....toodle loo.........ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz...........Bubba

A quick P.S. remember that thing I visualized about Willy and Alex with Alex riding on Willy's back yellin "Yee Haw!!!!!!!!!!"----Just thought of that for some reason---------All of a sudden I'm laffin................

[Bubba]

P.S. P.S.-----Want to talk about the rest of yer Post also----the coping----bad eyes(me too)----aren't we the chatty ones now?--Bubba...........

[AngelCareOne]

Sure thing, Bubba. Nitey, Nite and Sleep tight. Don't let them freaking bed bugs bite.

Hugs to You and Yours!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. I can see Willy and Alex, too. "Yee Haw!!!!!!!!!!" *Smiling at You!*

[Bubba]

Ah!!!!!!!!! Morning!!!!!!!!!!-How U doin Dottie? Thought I would tell you the about the Willy dream B 4 the day gets goin as it will be a busy one.Last week in the dream,Willy was exiting my music studio into the hallway where he died 2 months ago.As he came out of the studio he took a series of leaps much like he could do when he was young.When he first appeared at the door of the studio,he was silver in color when he took his first leap he landed and turned gray.Then took another leap and turned and sort of dark brown-brindle.On the last leap he landed and became his original color of a honey-brown-brindle-white coat.Where he landed and where the dream ended was at the same spot in the hallway where he died.He was also about the size of when I first got him at 5 months old.Alot smaller than he was in the end when he was much larger and weighed 70+ lbs.He sort of had this brilliance as he lept from color to color.Almost psychedelic but with limited colors.Sort of a chromatic abberation and quite beautiful.This to me signifies his return to youth and a continuum of his life.The most amazing about the dream,while brief,was the clarity of it.As he lept he was looking at me and sort of smiling(I'm starting to cry.Every time I relay this story this happens)....................I'm back..............and he was telling me,I think that he is ok and,in my mind,waiting for me.I F--KING miss him so much!!!!!!!!!.............................Gotta go out to the west coast for a couple of days.I'll catch up with ya on monday or so.............Peace my friend-------Thanx for being such a good friend..........God bless Alex bird and Willy dog.

Bus schedules arriving on time.........Gods time.............Bubba..................

[Zita'sMom]

Also, I am back to using several different "coping mechanisms" which I used to use in my 20's and 30's. Great stuff and I'd love to share with you. I think you're the type who'd get into that sort of thing and it would work for you as well. Perhaps others here, too.

Okay, do tell, Dottie... are they legal?

Like Bubba said, my priorities in life have totally changed since Ziggy has left me. So many things just do not matter at all. I also am finding that people who I thought were friends, aren't, people who I thought supported me, don't, but also that there are many people - like yourselves - who would reach out to a total stranger in need in a heartbeat. These are also the people that give their complete love and devotion to a pet. These are the people who actually make a difference in "my" world. I keep having dreams that I can't remember - one was a wise old man telling me something, but I forget what! Neither Zita nor Ziggy has ever clearly shown up in a dream, but my old Merlin and my husband's cat Tiffany have. Everything about them in those two dreams was real - details that I can't remember even now about Tiffany's colouring, the smell of Merlin's fur etc etc.

I do not know if the pain of my loss will really ever leave me. I guess it will get easier to accept the new patterns as time goes. I have a new part time job right now, out of the house, which is good for taking my mind off Ziggy's death. I hope someday I'll be able to think of Ziggy and only feel love, not pain.

take care my friends!

Jan.

[AngelCareOne]

Yes, Jan. It's all very, very legal regarding the coping mechanisms. Please forgive me for not being able to elaborate right now and go into specifics as I've not slept for about ... Errr ... Going on day three now which happens sometimes. And, when I become so sleep deprived and read what you just wrote ... Jan, I'm so very choked up, tears ... I'm fine though. Promise. But, I cannot even see what I'm typing right now because of my tears.

Please give me some time to collect myself and I'll begin with the (imaginary) "Hot Air Balloon" coping mechanism. It works wonders! *Sniffle!* Darn you, Jan. Please pass the Kleenex again. Ut oh. Never mind. I used my sleeve.

Great Big Huge Comforting Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Dear Lord, please don't let me have to many gosh awful typos. Amen. And More Hugs!!!

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Sweet Loving Alex, I came to sing you a lullaby. It took me ages to choose the video I want to give you of this song because the most adorable one that I really believe you'll enjoy has photos that are a little "jumpy" so to speak. But, it is by far the best of all I viewed and I watched a whole bunch. You know that, My Precious Baby Boy.

You always loved the golden image of the fluttering butterfly sitting on the orchid that's reflected in animated water. Yes, Mama remembers, Little One. I hope you like the lullaby, the pictures of oh so many different animals sleeping so beautifully and the image of the golden dove flying downward, opening the gates, showering you with flowers and telling you how much You Are Loved. Oh, Alex, you truly are. My Most Beloved Cherished Feather Child, you sure are Loved more than you'll ever, ever know and I'm saying to you everything this lullaby is singing, Alex. Please know that.

I Love You and Miss You Sooooo Much!!!

Please click on the Dove

"Goodnight My Angel"

Goodnight my Angel . . .
Time to close your eyes.
And save these questions for another day.
I think I know what you've been asking me.
I think you know what I've been trying to say.

I promised I would never leave you.
And you should always know . . .
Wherever you may go . . .
No matter where you are . . .
I never will be far away.

Goodnight my Angel . . .
Now it's time to sleep.
And still so many things I want to say.
Remember all the songs you sang for me.
When we went sailing on an emerald bay.

And like a boat out on the ocean . . .
I'm rocking you to sleep.
The water's dark and deep.
Inside this ancient Heart . . .
You'll always be a part of me.

Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu . . .
Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu Lu . . .

Goodnight my Angel . . .
Now it's time to Dream.
And Dream how Wonderful your Life will be.

Someday your child may cry . . .
And if you Sing this Lullaby . . .
Then in your Heart . . .
There will always be a part of me.

Someday we'll all be gone . . .
But Lullabies go on and on.
They never die.
That's how . . .
You And I . . .
Will Be.

Good Night My Angel Alex. Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

My Sweet Baby Feather Child Alex, I miss you so gosh awfully terribly fierce. My Friend, I haven't been able to eat or sleep but at least I keep busy and do put on my happy face, voice and appearance. Most Beloved Alex, you know that I don't want to bring you down, make you sad or have you worrying about me. It's just that I really need to get these feelings out. Perhaps that will help and lead to healing. Know what I mean? Yes, I'll bet you do.

There are two songs that I want to tell you. Both say in words just how I feel. I know this first one is sad but it's very pretty and I hope you like it as well as the images I chose. They are very lovely indeed. Still, I really need to express my sorrow, grief and devastation from having lost you. Alex, I've witnessed you going through the grieving process and expressing yourself, you poor thing! Oh, how I tried to soothe you. At least I know you understand and here's the first song that I want to say. Every word of this song including how the Light of You will Stay, Dear One!

I Love You and Miss You Sooooo Much, Alex!!!

Please click on the Birdhouse and Birds so Far Away from Home

"If I Could Be Where You Are"

Where are you this moment?
Only in my dreams.
You're missing, but you're always ...
A heartbeat from me.

I'm lost now without you.
I don't know where you are.
I keep watching. I keep hoping.
But time keeps us apart.

Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I could follow ...
To bring you back home?

Winter lies before me.
Now you're so far away.
In the darkness of my dreaming ...
The light of you will stay.

If I could be close beside you ...
If I could be where you are ...
If I could reach out and touch you ...
And bring you back home.

Is there a way I can find you?
Is there a sign I should know?
Is there a road I can follow ...
To bring you back home ... To me ...

God Bless You Precious Alex! Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Hello again My Loving Baby Alex. Here's the second song I want to tell you. It does start out sad but then becomes Hopeful and Determined in the end just like me, Your Mama! Alex, I will find a way. I am determined to find a way, My Feather Child!

I Love You and Miss You Sooooo Much!!!

Please click on The Celestial Journey Image

"Exile"

Cold as the northern winds in December mornings.
Cold is the cry that rings from this far distant shore.

Winter has come too late. Too close beside me.
How can I chase away all these fears deep inside?

I'll wait the signs to come. I'll find a way.
I will wait the time to come. I'll find a way home.

My Light shall be the Moon and my Path - The ocean.
My Guide the Morning Star as I Sail Home to You.

Angels Embrace and Love You! Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[sissycat]

AngelCareOne,
I love the way you talk to your Alex. I love to talk to Sissycat too.

Just wanted to give you a hello and hugs. Always good to have a post from you!!

Hugs to you and your Angel Alex!!!!!!!!!

[AngelCareOne]

{{{{{{{Sissycat}}}}}}} I very much love reading all you say to your sweet Sissycat, too. I sure do! Awww!

Thanks a million for all your Hugs to me and my Alex baby boy, Sweetie. I really needed them and now ... Ahhh and Sweet Sigh! One can never have enough hugs. You betcha.

Big Tight Comforting Hugs to You and Your Sissycat!!!!!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. I'm so pleased you liked the post I made to your Sissycat. I have 3 more at this time to give you and Sissycat which are oh so very, very cute (yep, with pictures) and I hope and pray you like them, they make you smile and bring you comfort. More Hugs!!!

[AngelCareOne]

Good Morning, Sweet Baby Boy Alex. I wish you Much Love and am blowing Many Kisses to you all made of Fairy Dust! Muah!

I Love You and Miss You Sooooo Much!!!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Oh, My Sweet Baby Boy Alex. I keep thinking about all those years I just spent passing though. Not really living but only existing. Then it happened when you showed from the very beginning your love to me and trust ... And so much more ... And so much more ... God bless the broken road that led me straight to you, Alex!!!

How very, very many times you smiled at me and took my hand. Countless times if the truth be known. I mean literally took my hand as well as metaphorically. I want so badly to give back to you all that with which you've blessed me so richly. How can I ever, ever, ever even begin to express how grateful and thankful I am to you for decorating my life?! Alex, it is all part of a grander plan and this plan that's coming true is you and me together for all Eternity and longer!!!

What's meant to be will always find a way, Alex. Perhaps it's really true that ya gotta go through a storm to get to that rainbow. And, anyone can catch your eye but it takes one so special as you to lovingly steal my heart, my soul, my world, my everything! Truly the Wind Beneath My Wings!!!

Thank you, Alex!!! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! Thank you!!!

I Love and Miss You Sooooo Much!!!

Please click on the Beautiful Long and Winding Road

"Bless The Broken Road"

I set out on a narrow way many years ago.
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road.
But I got lost a time or two . . .
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through . . .
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you.

Every long lost dream led me to where you are.
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars.
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms.
This much I know is true . . .
That God blessed the broken road . . .
That led me straight to you.

I think about the years I spent just passing through.
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you!
But you just smile and take my hand . . .
You've been there you understand . . .
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true!

Every long lost dream led me to where you are.
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars.
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms!
This much I know is true . . .
That God blessed the broken road . . .
That led me straight to you!

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Keeping records and all here informed as to the latest should you be interested. Thank you!

Firstly, please see the very last post on page one of this thread. It's a copy to my attorney John Hamil regarding leveling all charges against all three monsters. Here is the direct link: Click Here and Go to Very Last Post at the Bottom Dated June 19, 2008. I never did share John's response to me. He said that the fee for each case could easily run anywhere from $20,000.00 to $40,000.00. Again, that's for each charge for which those monsters would be prosecuted. To date, there are minimum of 5 different and unrelated crimes all for which I have tangible evidence proving cupibility/guilt. If you're interested in knowing what they are, I'm an open book.

Also, as wonderful, genuinely caring and dear as John is, he informed me that he's not set up to handle any cases on a contingency fee basis. Darnit. Well, since I've not been able to sleep (this is day four oy) nor eat and yada, yada, yada then I did some major googling about a half hour ago and made selection from all attorney firms in this area which clearly has experience in prosecuting every crime I wish to level as well as providing investigators for those crimes which do need that service. Click here for their Home Page: Robbins Equitas Lawyers and Counselors

Next, I clicked where it says "Contact Us" located in the upper right page. Yes, they do have several phone numbers but I want to get this ball rolling quick, fast and in a hurry so hopefully they will get my submission when they get to their office at opening time, take interest and give me a call.

Here is a very brief query I sent hoping to get their attention. The place one does this is: Click Here and Look to Far Left.

The following is a copy and paste of what I submitted. As I stated in the query, it's only the tip of the iceberg and I wrote as follows hoping it makes sense seeing how I've not slept for days. Another Oy. The copy and paste that I sent them begins now ...

Dear Sir or Ma'am,

Please, do you litigate any of the following: House robbed (all three culprits known), HOA fraud by HOA president and the owner of the management company, all three breaking laws governing the US Disabilities Act, it goes on like the Ever Ready bunny.

I do have many photos, their own incriminating documents (doh), tape recording of the HOA president and owner of the Management company ... Not taken surreptitiously but with their knowledge and permission, most recorded tapes prove many laws broken.

Put it this way, I have many, many pages of all counts of ... Everything typed up and on file in my computer. Yes, I witnessed the robbery with my own two eyes, they kidnapped my dog, cat and parrot after having been paid $100.00 to care for them 2 days while all 18 town houses were being fumigated. One is positively identified as bringing them there, they have photo ID and all paper work. She claimed they were strays, requested they be euthanized ASAP but forgot to take off their current tags. I am disabled, on SSI and they murdered my companion animal.

This next part is very, very confidential. The HOA president always has his sister, a high ranking district attorney, do background checks on everyone who owns their home or rents here, yada, yada, yada. Records prove that he does more than embezzles HOA funds for his own benefit with the management company owner's knowledge and blessings. HOA president and management company has double billed regarding assessments to every homeowner here on at least three occasions for which I have tangible evidence as I've already mentioned.

I really don't care about them robbing my house of over $12,000.000 worth of ... Everything because it's just stuff. However, they also stole sealed, unopened US mail to me. Isn't that a federal offense?

They also stole several years worth of bank statements. I do have the years and all information about that, too.

The worst thing is that I initially went into physical shock for the second time in my life and had to be treated. The other time was when 9/11 was in process. Also, I've had 3 "nervous breakdowns" so far due to ... Dang.

There's a whole lot more believe me but I'm trying to ascertain if you prosecute for any that I've mentioned so far.

Also, as I said, I am on SSI. Would anyone in your firm consider taking on any of these cases on a contingency fee basis? The honest truth is that I don't even care for any money so all that is awarded ... You can have it. What I do want to see is those three monsters prosecuted to the full extent of the law. That would make me a happy camper and hopefully help me therapeutically. This is truly a nightmare from which I cannot awake and I'm no drama queen in any way, shape nor form

Please, is anyone interested having been given only the top of the iceberg information? If so, please contact me.

I am Doris (Dottie) Z****** and my telephone number is 1-813- ###-###. I look forward to hearing from you one way or the other.

Many Thanks,
Dottie

PS. I just submitted the above but it appears not to have gone through so I shall submit again. Please pardon me if the initial query did go through and this is a duplicate. Again, Many Thanks!

*End of submission and dang, I left out sooooo much. I just hope someone there will see dollar signs, hear the kachink, kachink, kachink from the little I related to them and will want to buy that brand spanking new Ferrari or what have you. I'll keep you posted and thank you all, each and every one of you for caring, sharing and all your support to me. Blessings!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[Bubba]

Hey there Dottie---------Back in town.It looks like you are making some inroads into your case.I really hope and pray you can get the right lawyer so those monsters can be brought to justice and put away for a long long time.That sleep deprivation thing can be grueling,I know.I have had it in the past and it really messes with one's clarity after a few days.Seems to me when this case is concluded that you will have a heavy,heavy burden finallly lifted and you will be able to focus more sharply on everything and also be able to communicate,without distractions to Alex knowing that you have done all you can do and you will be able to wait for that sweet day of the reunion without any further distractions.All of your pals here at LS are rootin for ya.Today I was feeling a little lonely and I realized that today,the 3rd,is the 2 month point of Willy's passing.Like you and our buddy Jan we will never really 'get over' these losses.Just cope I guess.Ho Hum.........that sort of dull ache accompanied by intermittent anguish.Thank God we have each other.When you do get your appetite back may I suggest a large pizza with your favorite toppings and a cold adult beverage? Hmmmm...........I wonder if it's too late for take out?-----Hope to hear from ya when ya got a minute.God bless our babies Alex and Willy boy.
your pal,Bubba.......................

[AngelCareOne]

Hey there Dottie --------- Back in town. It looks like you are making some inroads into your case. I really hope and pray you can get the right lawyer so those monsters can be brought to justice and put away for a long long time. That sleep deprivation thing can be grueling. I know. I have had it in the past and it really messes with one's clarity after a few days. Seems to me when this case is concluded that you will have a heavy, heavy burden finallly lifted and you will be able to focus more sharply on everything and also be able to communicate without distractions to Alex knowing that you have done all you can do and you will be able to wait for that sweet day of the reunion without any further distractions. All of your pals here at LS are rootin for ya. Today I was feeling a little lonely and I realized that today, the 3rd, is the 2 month point of Willy's passing. Like you and our buddy Jan we will never really 'get over' these losses. Just cope I guess. Ho Hum ......... that sort of dull ache accompanied by intermittent anguish. Thank God we have each other. When you do get your appetite back may I suggest a large pizza with your favorite toppings and a cold adult beverage? Hmmmm ........... I wonder if it's too late for take out? ----- Hope to hear from ya when ya got a minute.God bless our babies Alex and Willy boy.
your pal,Bubba .......................

Thanks for your concern, support best wishes to put those monsters behind bars, Bubba. Hey, I'm hanging in there and it sure will lift a heavy burden and keep away distractions regarding my relationship with my Mostest Bestest Friend, Alex. You betcha! And how true that thank God we have each other. Bubba, ain't it something how I posted that video of Sharky Pit bull doggie with the teeny tiny baby chicks before I even knew it was coming up on the 2 month point of Willy going to The Bridge? Well, I don't think it was a coincidence at all because GMTA ("Great Minds Think Alike") and we sorta gotta kind of psychic connection. Hey, don't you poo poo me. In fact, I know that you know that I know that you know it's a fact, Jack!

Mmmboy, a veggie pizza sounds awfully good right about now. Drool! Take care, Bubba. Lotsa Hugs, Love and A & W Rainbow piggy back rides! Peace Out, Dude.

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Hello My Best Pal and Beloved Feather Child Alex. I'm swinging by to let you know I think about you all the time and am sending you God's Many, Many Bright Blessings of Love, Light, Laughter and Music! Music! Music!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Dearest Alex, I want to show you how very, very much you mean to me, how much I Love You, Miss You and, as the song goes "Need You Back to Stay."

My Sweet Feather Child, it appears this is a sad song and it is sort of. But see the awesome colorful fireworks and Disney World images in the video? Those represent lovely, adorable, cute, wonderful and fun memories that I'm so blessed to have every now and then. And that last line means "Hope!" It means that we will indeed be reunited again on that One Sweet Day.

We sure will, My Baby Boy!!!

I chose these three images because you're so beautiful, peaceful, contented and happy in that first one. The one at the bottom expresses my Eternal Love for you and also I brought you some more friends. Awww! I know you'll be the best of buddies, Dear One. And, of course, you know that God Made You Very Special!!! Oh, so Very, Very Special ...

And so much more ... And so much more ...

I Love You and Miss You Sooooo Much!!!

Please click on Alex

"Lost Without Your Love"

Lost and all alone.
I always thought that I could make it on my own.
Since you left I hardly make it through the day.
My tears get in the way.
And I need you back to stay.

I wander through the night ...
And search the world to find the words to make it right.
All I want is just the way ...
It used to be with you here close to me.
I've got to make you see ...

That I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of ...
I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel ...
A touch without a feel ...
I can't believe it's real.

And someday soon I'll wake ...
And find my heart won't have to break!

Yes I'm lost without your love.
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of ...
All I want is just the way ...
It used to be.
I need you here with me ...

Oh Alex can't you see?

If we had love before ...
We can have it back once more!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[Bubba]

Hey there Dottie--------That video is a new all-time fave.Your timing is impeccable!!! I really needed that.Those psychic moments you have happened more than once to be sure.Every time you relay one to me it lines up with what is going on with me at the time.Imagine how hard it was before the internet when people lost babies(human or otherwise) and had a limited or even less amount of people to talk with about their loss and such.We are lucky to have this forum.Especially as these life changing events will not have 'closure' till the lights go out and the 'new' light is turned on for good!!!!!!!!!!........just gotta wait.............We will add Pizza for that 'road trip' we been tawkin bout.know wha awm sain???????

Catchya on the rebound homey..........B man..........

P.S. Who is your friend in the swing................God I feel old

[Bubba]

I have shoes that are older than her!!!!!!!!!!ARRRGHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Phew.........that's better...........Bubba..........(The old lech)