My Girl Monkey, (p.s. not really a monkey..........ok, kinda) Options

[Monkey's daddy]

Well, I did it. I finally picked up Monkey's cremains. It only took me 4 1/2 months to get up the nerve to do it.

I've got them put up in her room in a closet. I can't see ever wanting to look at them for any reason, I like to remember her the way she was.

Someday I hope my ashes get mixed with hers, and the rest of the kitty tribe.

Aint life grand?

[Monkey's daddy]

It's been 5 months today that I had to let you go Monkey.
Lord knows I would have done anything or given anything to have made you well again, but that was beyond my control.
As hard as this has been, I wouldn't hesitate to do it all over again.
You were the sweetest cat I had ever known.
Loving you more than ever,
Daddy

[LoveThem]

Sorry...these kinds of "anniversaries" are for the pits. I missed your other post about getting Monkey's ashes home. I am glad she is home.

About mixing ashes...my parents had the ashes of their pets saved. They had joined the Neptune's Society which will scatter ashes at sea. When my parents passed away, the Society asked me if I would like the pets ashes to be scattered at the same time in the same place...no extra charges. It was a nice offer and I thought my parents would have liked that. It was a good idea and I said yes. So there is something to be said about...mixing ashes.

My anniversary comes up in September....I think the first year is so much harder because one always knows that "last year at this time they were with us"....until the anniversary.

Hugs....today and everyday

[Monkey's daddy]

Ahh, the old "this time last year" thing.
This time last year...we just moved into a new house
This time last year...I was oblivious to the coming sadness.
This time last year...I didn't have a care in the world.
This time last year...Monkey was still with me.

Coming up in September with be the "this time last year" that I found out she had cancer.
So September is going to suck for me too.

Speaking of spreading ashes at sea...
When my dad died he said in his Will that he didn't care what we did with the ashes. I looked into his service in the Navy and found out that they will do a full honors burial at sea, (21 gun salute and all!!) for anyone who served and was honorably discharged.
So thats what I did for him.
They film it and give you a DVD of the ceremony and a map with the exact latitude, longitude that the ceremony took place. Pretty cool.
I love you Monkey and Pop, miss you both.

[LoveThem]

What a great thing to do for your Dad...21 gun salute and all......AWESOME. I am always glad to hear the government willing to do something extra for serviceman. They are really extra special.


Well, I see we will both be glad when past September. My boy started eating trouble once in July, some in August but then we found a painful dental lesion in August so he had dental surgery about the 15th and within 10 days he was jumping from the floor to the top of the couch and eating much better. Then his major emergency came out of the blue on Sept 10. Talking about going from one extreme to the other. We were hoping it was not cancer as signs were pointing to it and his twin has passed in 2002 because of it, and so after the painful dental condition was taken care of...we were cautiously starting to hope he was going to be okay. Well, it didn't turn out as we hoped.


Monkey looks so much like my Little Girl..she was the short-haired one, very vocal. So my trio with her and her two longhaired brothers filled our home with happiness too...like Monkey with you.

They may be all angels now but I sure wish they were back with us instead...healthy again...with lots of time to spend with us.
Just a fantasy I think about from time to time.

Hugs to you and Monkey. Her tribute is beautiful and so is she.

Judy

[Monkey's daddy]

Haven't posted in a while and just wanted to say how much I love you and miss you sweety. I miss my old life with you. Life was much simpler when you were here, now everything has changed. Hard as it's been, I would do it over in a heartbeat though.

Love, Daddy.




Well, I still haven't unpacked after over a year in the new house. I just can't get used to the new place and have no desire to "move in" any more. I got mad about the water pressure one day when I was taking a shower and kicked a hole in the fiberglass bath enclosure. That was probably about a fifteen hundred dollar kick. Oh well, I don't care. Good thing I have a second bath. I remember last year cleaning the walls if there was even the slightest smudge on the new paint, now I don't give a crap. Today I ripped a door off of one of the oak cabinets, probably shouldn't have done that either. I don't care about those things though.

You know what, I think I might be a little pissed off at life.

Don't worry, the other kitties weren't around to see me do it.

[Monkey's daddy]

Finally decided to write down a few of the dreams I had about Monkey. I wish I would have done it at the time I had them because I can't remember them all now. Didn't think I'd be having so many though.

Here's what I can remember:

You were sitting in the middle of an empty room looking at me as I walked around you from right to left and your eyes followed me. You looked healthy and content. (Had this one within days of her passing. It's strange, I had the EXACT same dream about my dad within a week of his passing.)

I awoke to look up (actually just dreamt that I woke up) and you were right up to my face looking at me and your pink tongue came out and licked your nose. That’s all.

I think there was another where there was a close up of your face and you were just watching me as I slept.

I had a couple dreams not related to you where I’d be doing something in the dream or going somewhere and all of a sudden you were walking around following me or underfoot, (you know how cats try to trip you up it seems sometimes?) Kind of funny because the dreams weren’t about you but you ended up in the dream somehow.

The dream where you were licking my face. (a month ago)

The one where all I remember is you laying on your back and I was rubbing your tummy. (a couple weeks ago)

I vaguely remember a few others, a couple you were limping in and one that was disturbing. I try not to remember those.


Well hopefully there will be more. I'm going to start recording them right away from now on.

I miss you Monkey. Love you now and forever.