Orion Crossed The Rainbow Bridge Options

[fuzzysmom]

Kittymomma,
Orion is such a big, beautiful kitty. I had one who looked like him that we named midnight. I'm so sorry that you lost him, he looks like such a gentle guy. It's so hard to let them go. I hope you find peace during this sad time.

[kittymomma]

Thank you so much LoveThem and Fuzzysmom! Orion was a special boy and he knew it! He always had a sly way of getting treats from mommy when daddy wasn't looking and he just made you want to give them to him. He was a charmer, that is for sure. My hubby had a really rough day yesterday with his grief. I have been going off and on, it is almost 3 weeks now and I miss him like crazy. My hubby's stepmom asked us if we had gotten another cat yet to replace him. They don't understand animal people. They have never had the love of an animal so they just don't know what it is like. I could get angry, but I know it is only because she was raised with no pets, ever.
We are thinking of starting to look for a kitten or two after the first of the year. I like having a houseful of cats. They liven the place up and give so much to us. We still have our 15 yr old (the cat of my heart) Tawny and 10 yr old Oliver and 5 yr old Tinkerbell. I think it would be great if we could bring home another kitten or 2 WHEN we find ones that we connect with. I will always have cats in the house. I love them so much.
Here is another picture of Ori after getting one of his treats, he really isn't sticking his tongue out at us!
Orion, you are a well loved angelcat! Mommy and Daddy are thinking about you every single day!

[kittymomma]

I think it is time for me to add a tribute to Orion in the Tribute section. I am feeling like I can talk about him without bursting into tears everytime. I still have those dark moments that sneak up, as does my husband, but it does get easier with each day. I love my little Orion, he is in my heart and head and no one can ever take that away. I want to give him a fitting tribute and memorial. I will start to work on which pictures and stories to add there.
You have all helped me so much here. It is an honor to be here and help others as they come to us with their stories of loss and pain. I have learned from this site how to help heal myself by helping others in their grief. I thank all of you here and will continue to post and come here daily to build Orion's tribute and help others if I can.
susan

[kittymomma]

I have been thinking about Orion today and I am crying again...I miss him so much. I have been looking through pictures of him to do a memorial and it hits me; he is gone. I can't hug his furry little body anymore and I can't kiss his soft head. I can't hear him *talking* to me in his little meows and purrs. All I have are my memories and I want HIM back in my arms.

I had been doing very well for days, looking at his pictures made me smile...for some reason it makes me cry today. It has been 3 weeks. I miss him so much and I just want to go lie down and sleep so I won't remember he is not here. It is a beautiful sunny day here and Orion would have loved to go outside with me for a walk. He never went outside, only when I took him for a short walk. There is too much danger for outside cats here in our neighborhood. He would be lying in the sun right now and purring so loud.

I just wonder how long this will last, this horrible depression. I know that I tell clients as a Vet tech what they need to do as someone who loved their pets. I tell them to get some good books about grief and to go through the grieving process with honesty. I have the books, I go through it. It is all well and good to intellectualize the process, but it is not an intellectual pursuit. It is an emotional one, that takes you to the deepest depths of your soul and then up again and back and forth.

I know I will miss Orion until I meet him again. That will be a day of joy for me.
I keep looking at my other cats and imagining when they leave, especially my Tawnygirl who is 15 now. I cannot shake this. I know it is torture to think about it, but I fear the pain again when the next one goes.

I am fortunate enough in life to still have both my parents who are still married to one another after 64 yrs and are 85 yrs old. I have not ever experienced the death of one so close to me. I have lost other cats in the past and dogs when I was younger, they never affected me as strongly as Orion's death did. I was saddened by the loss of my other pets and cried and grieved but not in any way as strong as I have for my little boy, Orion. We had that special connection you have with some creatures. We love them all, but somehow there are a few who get into us and we are one with them. Orion is a cat like that. He is still a huge part of me. Even without his physical body here.

I was feeling bad and needed to get it out, so I came here. This place has been a place of comfort to me.
susan

Oh Baby, I love you much! I miss you with all my heart!

[LoveThem]

What a sweet boy and beautiftul too! I understand the need to just say something. That's what this forum is all about. I feel about my Little Guy the same way. I call his name wondering where that little soul is. He would never leave me. I was the one who took him out the door to the vet, never to return. Oh, gosh, now I'm breaking up.

Keep communicating and finding more pictures of Orion.

Take care................

[kittymomma]

I am going to finish up my thread in this forum with a picture of Orion and start working on a memorial/tribute for him in the other forum.

Orion, the supacat!




susan

[NovaJade]

Orion was very majestic looking. Those eyes are intense. What a great member of your family. And to second everyone, I'm very sorry for your loss. I am finding that being here does help, if only a little at first. And that's something I think we can all find valuable right now.

If you're like me it's hard to look at photos right now. I really had to work up some courage to post the pics of Nova in the other thread. But it does help when others get a chance to meet your children.

[forduffy]

Before you move to a new forum, I wanted to come by and pay my respects to your beautiful little Orion. What a regal name. His coloring is gorgeous! I am so sorry for your loss. I know how every so often, you get a punch in the stomach and it hits you as the grief comes flooding back. It's so hard. My thoughts are with you.

[Bue's Mommy]

OMG the pics are just oo cute of Orion, I thought I was the only one who's male cat used my boobs as a pillow, lol. I really love the one of him winking.

In my mind the pics help us to understand the bond between us, and them. I'm so glad you have so many pics, looking at Orion reminds me so much of my Twubby.

I realized that most of my life I have had a grey kitty in the household, even as a kid. Barnabus was a female that my mom adopted, she was really mean, but we loved her anyways. she lived until she was 23yrs old.

I love looking at your pics, it makes my heart feel good.

This is a pic of Clohe/nickname Ka-Ka, you guessed it, she used to urinate in my bed, and poop at my front door. I adopted her because someone dorpped her off where I used to work. she had lumps in her belly, and was malnourished, but I got on the trolley, and took her to the vet, and she became healthy. I'm not sure how old she was when I found her on the grounds, but I had her for 13yrs.

Talk to you soon

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[kittymomma]

I want to end this thread with a picture of Orion...He will see you at the Tributes Board!!!

[kittymomma]

I honestly thought I wanted to close this thread and move on to a tribute/memorial thread, but I find myself in deeper pain now than 2 weeks after we lost Orion. I just can't put up a memorial right now. I did not think that the pain would get worse. I thought I would somehow feel better. Orion is the first cat that we ever called our son. I believe I am feeling what a mother goes through when she loses a child. I have never had such empty and painful holes in my heart and my other cats don't seem to be helping when I hold them. I want to hold HIM! I cry and long for HIM! He was a cat like no other and I miss him. Everyday I awake to fresh tears and go to bed at night crying more tears. I could not believe when the pain came roaring back to me after a couple of weeks of being able to talk about him and even smile when we spoke his name. Then for whatever reason, about a week and a half ago, this terrible pain came back and I cannot shake it. I miss him more now then ever. Maybe because he has ben gone for longer now and I kept telling myself he would come back from the vet as he did so many times when he would go in for Ketosis or Hypoglycemia or dehydration. He would sometimes spend weeks there and then come home. We would visit him and knew he would be back with us soon. But not this time. He is gone, his ashes are on a beautiful mantelpiece with his memorial and pictures and whiskers and fur. I touch the fur everyday, hold it to my cheek and cry. It smells of him and I am having a really hard time understanding why he had to die so young. 11 yrs old. He could have had more yrs like some others. I just want him back so badly. So I will continue to come here back to this thread where I first came and cry and post and hope that I can find some peace myself.

susan

Oh, how I miss you babyboy...

[daisysmom13]

He is so beautiful, kittymomma.

He reminds me of a cat at the shelter I work at, Mischief. He has the same piercing eyes and handsome coat. I am sure you miss him terribly. He looks like he was such a sweetheart. *sends you a hug* I can't imagine all of the hurt you are feeling, especially since he was so close to you for so long. Please comfort yourself with the good memories. Try to remember his purring and sunbathing, and all of the things he did that made you and him so very happy. You gave him a great life and a warm home, and I'm sure all of the love in your heart.

-Daisysmom13