A New Baby, mixed emotions Options

[brat's obsession]

[FONT=Geneva]i found out yesterday that my mom has found me a new puppy. for those of you who don't know, i lost my bubba on mother's day and i miss him still. this new chihuahua won't be ready for another 7 weeks or so, (he was just born on monday). i have been looking for something to fill the void that bubba left behind. it is sometimes a physical pain, this emptyness he left behind. a part of me is so excited to be having a new baby, yet another part of me is crying out for bubba. i am torn between feeling guilty and being happy that i will have a new baby soon. i know bubba would want me to be happy, and the fact that it is a chi would make him happy. i am just confused. the one thing i do know, is i miss bubba's presence. i miss his warm little body, his pretty face, his bada*** att*itude, and his love. i don't even know if i am making any sense here. i want this new puppy. i want to not be lonely anymore. i want to not cry when i think about this. why must this be so hard? any advice?

vicky