My Blade (tribute) Options

[dudabug]

I lost my beautiful orange tabby, Blade, on June 22, 2007. He was 12yrs old and just had the sweetest personality ever. He suddenly fell ill in early June and within 3 weeks he was gone. One of the things that makes it so hard is the fact that I still dont know what happened. He was fine and Saturday the 2nd of June, I can home and found him not doing so good. For 3 weeks I had 2 clinics, 4 doctors and in the end we had 4 different theories. I've had him and his lil buddy, Quincy, both for 12 years and now Quincy and I are just lost without our Blade. They were each others shadow for 12 years and we indeed feel the void without him here. I miss him everyday.

Below is the poem that I wrote for Blade a month after his passing.

-------------- Shane


My Tribute video:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=lXkkJ6nGpQU



I miss you Blade,


Twelve years ago an angel came to me
Full of life and love, an orange tabby
You came into my heart and made yourself a home
In every fiber of your being, an angelic glow was shown
Unconditional love, you gave by the ton
I thought we had forever, me and my fur son
The years flew by as they usually do
Those wonderful days with Quincy, Dudabug and you.
The days marched on, days into years
Soon from my dry eyes out would flow the tears
A sudden illness, it caught us by surprise
My greatest fear I did soon realize.
That evening, I’ll always recall
I came home to find you, not doing well at all
I held you tight as we went for care
And tried to wipe from your eyes, that distant stare.
Test after test after test we ran
Trying to find what was at hand
The Doctors were all puzzled
We didn’t understand
For a few days at least, you were feeling better
Only for more test to run and more storm to weather.
And as your little body gave way, your spirit held strong
For three weeks my Blade, you held on
During this time of medication and test
Your glorious personality never did rest.
June 22, 2007 was the day you let me know
That it was our time, for me to let you go.
As I prepared to make that decision, the one I knew I’d regret
You had one more act of kindness, one more blessing yet.
In one final act of courage, you spared me that decision to make
As it was you that decided, when your last breath to take
That’s just like you, so courageous, so loving, so smart
Even in your last breath, you were more worried about my heart.
And then the silence………..as it was abound
I just wanted to hold you tighter but my knees hit the ground.
I shook and I cried from a place deep inside .
I don’t even recall that drive home
How I got there, its beside me
I just remember being alone
Me and my empty pet taxi.
Those first few days without you were just a blur
Because around each corner there was no orange fur.
There is now a void in our life as you are not home
Twelve years together, one month since you’ve gone.
I miss you my ole boy, you know that I do
I’d give my next ten years for one more with you.
And Quincy doesn’t use the window perch anymore
As it was built for two
Seems she would rather lay on the floor
Than to perch without you.
I know our days today are sad
And they may last that way for awhile
But I know one day soon
I’ll think of you and smile
Thank you, my ole boy, for choosing me to care for you
I hope you realize, I did the best that I could do.
In my life, I suppose in time
New paw prints will be made
But in my heart, none will replace
The paw print left by my Blade.



I love and miss you my Blade




Forever owned by my Blade
Quincy 12yrs
Dudabug 11yrs
Smokey 1yr (new addition)
Lilly 1yr (Smokey's brother and also new addition)

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[Muffins]

Dear (((((((Shane)))))))

The poem you wrote for your precious, handsome guy Blade is full of absolute love -- very, very touching & beautiful. Did he have double paws?

As I prepared to make that decision, the one I knew I’d regret
You had one more act of kindness, one more blessing yet.
In one final act of courage, you spared me that decision to make
As it was you that decided, when your last breath to take
That’s just like you, so courageous, so loving, so smart
Even in your last breath, you were more worried about my heart.

It is just like our blessed furkids to put us first, isn't it?

I saw the video tribute you made -- it's a wonderful tribute -- All of your furkids are beautiful!

I've had him and his lil buddy, Quincy, both for 12 years and now Quincy and I are just lost without our Blade. They were each others shadow for 12 years and we indeed feel the void without him here. I miss him everyday.

Lil' Quincy & his beloved friend Blade really were shadows ..... So easy to see that they truly loved one another....

I really am so very sorry for your loss, Shane. I can see how much you loved Blade ...... He will always be with you, right inside your heart!

Please keep coming here and writing about your feelings -- there are many kind & loving people here who really care.

Peace, comfort & love,

Denise

[dudabug]

Denise,

Thank you for your kind response. They become such a part of our lives and its so hard to say goodbye. Im sorry... but what did you mean when you asked if Blade had " double paws".

----------- Shane

[Muffins]

Hi Shane:

Oh....I'm sorry - I should have used the correct term instead of saying double paws. It's "polydactyl", which means that a cat has extra toes. Your handsome Blade looked like he had big paws, so I had wondered whether or not he had extra toes.

I found the following site showing furkids with extra toes

http://www.thecatgallery.com/polydactyl_cats.html

I hope that you are doing okay. (as well as can be expected...)

You are in my thoughts & prayers,

Denise

[toonie]

I’d give my next ten years for one more with you

Dear Shane, What a beautiful poem and straight from the heart, one can feel this.
Your Blade was so beautiful and he was very lucky to have someone like you to take care of him, you seem to have handled all of this beautifully for Blade, hug Quincy often because he must be really lost without his lifetime pal, I know my cats really depended on each other because we got them at the same time, when they were both 2 months old and when the first died at thirteen years old it was traumatic for his brother. I only wish I would have known this site then, but like you I was on my own for a few months before coming here. You did your best and the best for Blade. He must be showering his love on you and your house, hope all of you will feel his vibes. Take care, with much admiration, Toonie

[dudabug]

Toonie ,

Thank you too for such a heartfelt reply. Blade's poem did indeed come from the heart. I wrote it one day as I worked. I wanted to write it as the pain was still very raw. I put a blank piece of paper in my back pocket and as I felt a wave of emotion come on I would just write. So I wrote, I worked and I cried and a short while later that's what was there, Blade's poem. He is so so missed. Thanks again for taking the time to respond... it really really helps to hear from people like you and Denise... I guess we all have that common thread. We have all loved and lost and our lives will forever be changed for it.

Best Wishes,
--------------- Shane

[dudabug]

Your handsome Blade looked like he had big paws, so I had wondered whether or not he had extra toes.

Hi Denise,
No Blade didn’t have any extra toes. Didn’t Hemmingway’s cats have extra toes? My Blade was just a big ole boy. He was 18lbs before he fell ill. He was like a big old teddy bear. He did have a strange tail though. It was about 3 inches long and was bent at a right angle. He was a lil tiny stray when he adopted me. The vets always said he was most likely born that way. I sure hope that is true. I hate the idea of someone doing that to a little kitten. If you notice the pic... you can kind of see his tail. Thanks again for taking the time for responding.

Blade's Dad,
---------------- Shane

and Quincy's
and Dudabug's
and Smokey's
and Lilly's

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[Furkidlets' Mom]

Dear Shane,

Blade was/is such a beautiful boy and I can just imagine the heartbreak you and his pals must be going through now. A beautiful boy, a beautiful poem and tribute to his glorious self, from a equally-beautiful daddy. They DO 'own' us, just as much if not more than we 'own' them, don't they? And they DO come from Grace......

(I also was stunned to see who I assume might be Smokey, your grey baby, who looks so much like my Nissa, except with deep blue eyes)

I hope you might eventually, somehow, find out what Blade really had, as there's nothing worse than unanswered questions to have to live with. But even if not, you were there with and for him, and he did leave in the way he chose for himself, so I hope those small blessings will help carry you as you mourn your great loss. I'm so sorry.

[forduffy]

Hi Shane,

My heart goes out to you and your bereaved family. Blade was a beautiful, little kitty. He looks so huggable. I know the pain and it hurts so much. Both your poem and your tribute made me cry so much. It's never enough time that we have with them. Please give my love to poor little Quincy. I wish you peace and healing wishes. Thanks to this website, I'm here for you.

Hugs to you and your little furbabies,
Stephanie

[Lucy1Josie2]

Dear Shane --

I just read your beautiful poem, and I miss Blade along with you. What a wonderful, special cat, friend and soul mate. You have my very deepest sympathies and heartfelt good wishes for your comfort.

-- Michelle K.

[dudabug]

Furkidlet's Mom
Stephanie
Michelle K.

Hey, thanks to you all for taking the time and responding to Blade's post.
It really helps to hear back from people like you. Folks that can relate to what I am going through. They all mean so much to us. I feel like the heart that beats inside my chest does not beat for me, it beats for them. I hope one day soon, when the dust settles here, I'll be able to help others the way you have helped me.

Thanks again,
--------- Shane

Blade's dad
and Quincy's
and Dudabug's
and Smokey
and Lilly