Devastated, My baby Chino Options

[mychellea1]

I don't even know where to begin to talk about the sudden and tragic passing of my baby shih tzu, Chino. It's only been 3 days since he passed and I can't bring myself to come to terms with the fact that he's gone. I am in tears as I'm trying to write this post. We were in Vegas for the weekend with friends celebrating my husband's bday as well as my bday (today is actually my bday). We were all having a good time when my husband said it looked like his father tried calling him. We had left Chino with my husband's parents for the weekend. I immediately had a bad feeling in my stomach and went to check my cell phone. His father had tried calling me as well. It was 10:30 pm at the time. When I told my husband that his father had called me too. He immediately called his father back. His father had told him the news. It was between 8:30-9:30 pm. Chino was out in the backyard when he went to check on him. Chino will normally run up to you excited, wagging his tail and happy to see you and when that did not happen, my father-in-law panicked. He called out his name and went to check the gate to see if perhaps he had escaped. He checked all over the backyard and finally he saw Chino lying on their makeshift basketball court. He had blood all over him. It looked like he had been attacked by a coyote. My father-in-law tried to take him to the emergency room but it was too late. Chino had already passed. My father-in-law was in a panick trying to get a hold of us. He called and called and when we finally got the news, we went back to our room, packed our things and drove to his parents house. By the time we got there, it was 3:30 in the morning. My father-in-law came out crying, he could not sleep, he kept blaming himself for what had happened. When I went to check on Chino, he was wrapped in a blanket. It's all a blur now. I remember bending down, bawling, my husband crying, looking at Chino, blood, hugging him, kissing him, rubbing his legs. My mother-in-law hugging me trying to comfort me. We buried him the next morning. We went home to an empty house and all day I just cried and cried and cried. I'm still crying. Today is my bday and I can't even be happy. My baby Chino is not here w/me to celebrate. He hadn't even lived half his life yet. He was only 2 and half years old. I never understood the bond between a human and a dog until we had Chino. People would always ask us, when are you going to have kids? My answer would always be, "We have Chino." So now, not only are we a house without children, we are a house without Chino and I feel so empty inside. Our house is so quiet and I keep thinking Chino will come around the corner and want to play. He was such a good boy. Always so happy and excited to see us and we smothered him with our love & affection. He was our baby. I don't think any of my family or friends really understood how much Chino meant to us and so I came upon this site hoping to share my story and knowing that many of you all understand what my husband and I are going through. I don't know how long my grieving will last but thank you so much for letting me tell my story. I miss you Chino and I will always love you.

[k9pal]

Mychellea1, I'm so sorry for your loss of Chino. What a devistating post, reading it made me cry. I don't believe that I have anything to offer you that can give you any comfort at this terrible time of grief. Your loss is so recent that at this point in time I'm sure the pain that you feeling is pure anguish. I just want you to know that all of us here understand and feel your pain and that we are here for you. Whatever you are feeling come here and post it. We will try and help you work through your grief. When I read your post one thing was clear, that you were a great parent to Chino. You didn't leave Chino at a kennel or at home by himself, but with someone you trusted. You provided him with the best care that you could offer. That alone proves how much you cared and loved him. I'm sorry Chinos time was so brief. I'm sure that is was filled will happiness and love from you. I'm sure Chino knew how much you loved him. Once again I am so sorry for your loss. Take care K9pal

[kittylove]

Mychellea1, I have tears running down my face now as I type this. I am so very sorry for your loss. I know how terribly painful it is, especially when it is so sudden like that. It's such a shock and you just can't believe your baby is gone. I know because my beloved cat, Mama, passed away a month ago. She just dropped dead from heart worms. I was so shocked and devastated, as I know you are. Coming here has helped so feel free to post whenever you need to. Everyone is so supportive. It sounds cliche but it will get a little easier with time. It still hurts like crazy but I am starting to be able to live with it a little better.
Grieve as much as you have to and don't let guilt eat you alive. You gave Chino a loving home and I'm sure he passed in peace with your heart wrapped around him.

Carolyn

[zookeeper]

I'm so sorry to hear what happened to your baby Chino. What a nightmare for you and your family.

I hope your healing goes easy. It's a horror to lose a pet and worse to lose them to violent cir%%stances. My sister lost a sixteen year old cat that she had rescued and nursed back to health in a freak dog attack back in April. Buttercup was on the lawn with her Labrador Jet, when a dog walking by attacked her. It happened so quickly, there was nothing anyone could do.

Like your family, they are devastated but have begun to focus more on the gift that they had in her presence, and that they were able to be together for a time.

I know that's far away from you right now but there will come a time when you can remember her without incredible pain.

Take care of yourself,
Sharon

[Mink&WillowsMom]

I'm so sorry for your loss of baby Chino. It's those sudden, tragic, early deaths that just rip us apart. I lost my beautiful Mink (below) a year ago, two days before my birthday. He was only three, hit by a car. It nearly broke me. This is the place to come to, I'm glad you found us. (I'm back because I'm grappling with the loss of yet another beloved kitty, Twitchit, missing 23 days.)

The poem below was sent to me recently, and I believe it applies to pets as well. I had the hardest time accepting Mink's death because he was SO young. Why would he leave me? I'm now trying to believe that he had a lesson to teach, and when it was done, or perhaps by his leaving, the lesson was left for me as a gift, to help me grow in wisdom in this life.

~~~
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
~~~

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[John B]

I'm so sorry, mychellea1. I feel so bad that this happened to you. One moment all is fine and the next our entire existance seems to crumble around us. Chino was a special dog and loved beyond measure...this is undeniable. You words and tears are a great tribute to his memory.

I hate that anybody ever has to get to this place, but unfortunately we all do. It sucks and I hate it. I can't wait for the day when there will be no death or sickness or suffering anymore.

mychellea1, I know what you are feeling. You wonder how you can live in that house that seems so lifeless without chino in it. You feel sure that you will see him run up to you again. You wonder how anybody could ever expect you to move on and function like you were before chino was taken. It is hard beyond words, but when you pass through this incredible pain...just know, as crazy and unbelievable as it sounds, that as Zookeeper Sharon said, you will be able to remember Chino and talk fondly about her and even laugh again, without the incredible pain.

God bless
John B

[toonie]

My heart goes to you and your family, what a horrible thing for everyone to go through.
Your in laws sound so nice and definitely your kind of people, animal lovers too. There is, and will be, enormous pain for all of you and I hope that your love for each other will help pull each one of you through. Mychellea1, you are to be congratulated for your immediate understanding that no one is to blame, that terrible things like this do happen to beautiful people like you and we are left to wonder why it had to be.
Just yesterday I wrote that our for our pets, the reality of their last moments may be undistinguishable from nightmares:you yourself must sometimes still be asking isn't this just a bad dream? When the event is so quick, it is just another nightmare. Chino
will always be there for you in your heart and soul until you are together again. Remember for every great pain, there will be a greater joy, Chino will see to this for his beautiful mom. Be strong, come back here whenever you want to talk we will be there for you.

[Lucy1Josie2]

I'm so sorry about what happened to little Chino. What a shock for all of you, I'm just so, so sorry. I cried while I read your post. You gave Chino a wonderful life, and after the first shock of grief is lessening, I hope you know that and remember it. What a sweet little dog he was, what a sweetie.

Oh, dear, I'm crying again. Come here whenever you need us, Mychellea1, we will be here for you.

-- Michelle K.

[kimm]

Dear Mychellea1,

I was so heartbroken when I read this. I can't tell you how sorry I am for the loss of your sweet Chino. He was a very special dog & you had a bond with him that can't be broken. You will be with him again someday, I am sure of that.

Please let us know how you are doing. We're here for you, anytime you need to talk.

[Mistletoe]

Dear Mychellea1,

I am so sorry and I know what you are feeling as I just recently lost my cat over a tragic accident---
Let yourself feel all the feelings--it will help in the healing--
Long ago--I never thought there could be such a bond between a person and their pets---it can be as devestating as it is joyous!!!!

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