Heart Still Hurting, Seeing other old guys around Options

[My Buddy]

Hi to my old friends, I haven't checked in lately but I feel I must talk about these feelings, we lost my beloved boy on Christmas morning, and lately have been talking about getting another buddy and happen to live in Boulder Co just moved, which happens to be the dog capital of the world, more dogs than people because most people have two, I am so happy about this but I have seen a few old buddies limping along on walks and my heart just breaks, wondering how can you go down that road again with another one, their lives are so short, plus I am kissing and hugging all the doggies that people walk to my daughters school, whether I respond to their owner or not, I am the crazy dog lady now...I can almost not write this message right now, my heart hurts so much...plus everyone has a golden retriever here...so wonderful but so painful...when will the pain go away, maybe never really....I miss my guy so much. We just moved here and with all the stress I keep looking at photos of my old friend Hrudey saying, if only you were here I could handle all this, how can I handle life without him...obviously I am going on but not in a good way, not like the old days...anyway just throwing this out there for ideas, support or just someone to listen...thanks as always, Much Love, Hrudey's Momma

[Tiffany]

I just lost my puppy Rajah Pony a week ago. I know how you feel. I go to a school where they bring their dogs to work (Geology/Anthropology Department) and for the first couple of days after Rajah was gone, I couldn't get any work done. So I just went from dog to dog and sat and pet them and played with them. My professors probably thought I had lost my mind, but that's all I could do.

I have a 5-year old son, and the house is just empty without Rajah, his brother, as he calls him. I know we are going to have to get some new life in the house, but I'm afraid to. I want to mix it up a bit. Maybe get two instead of one, maybe get different breeds, I don't know. Just something to make sure that I'm not comparing the new pups to my best friend in the whole world. Rajah was certainly one of a kind, as I'm sure your pup was.

Keep me posted on your thought process. My loss is still so new, but it helps to talk.

[dusktodawn]

Welcome back...I'm sorry you are still hurting so.

Of course you will never replace your precious boy, but I believe that loving a dog honors the one that is gone. So many lonely dogs out there looking for homes.

The pain is the price we pay for the wonderful richness of having a furperson in our lives. I don't believe that I could live without one, or would want to.

[Amarna]

Welcome back, Hrudey's Momma. Missed you. I never forgot your story about losing Hrudey on Christmas morning, as that's around the time we sent our Caesar on his journey. I can relate about what you said about hugging and kissing all the doggies you see, now. I'm doing much the same thing. I always loved crossing the paths of dogs whenever I saw them, but now... the moments spend giving them a bit of love is even more of a special feeling. As for what you said about seeing another golden retriever like Hrudey, I totally know what you mean. My heart skips a beat whenever I see a picture of another keeshond like Caesar. They're not a very common breed so I know that when I see another one in real life, I can only well imagine how I'm going to feel. Sometimes, I think that only keeshond fur can dry my tears anymore. And one keeshond, in particular...

I'm glad you posted, again. Please talk whenever you want... We'll always listen. Please take care.... *hugs and love*

[My Buddy]

Hey Thanks to Tiffany, Dusk to Dawn and Amarna, for listening...its these weird moments that hit you...I agree that I can never be without a pet pal in my life, and we are thinking of two this time too, but its the first time in "replacing" our best number one pal...I always told him and continue to tell him in my prayers, he's the first one and there is only one first boy in my life, all the rest will be in memory of him.. this community is so dog friendly that it is so supportive of our plan, and I understand what you mean, when you look in any dogs eyes they are all needing love and so dependent upon humans for their care, there really isn't one kind of dog I wouldn't like, they are all precious...thanks for listening and always being there, Amarna, I am happy to hear from you again..it really helps, and D to D, what wonderful pictures of your buddy, so cute, and Tiffany, well honey you are just beginning this journey now, it is a hard one but I think all of us would agree we would rather have the pain than never have loved our dearest pet pals, my heart goes out to you, and thanks for responding to my weirdness....I do feel like a crazy dog lady..but funny thing is usually pet owners understand, especially if you tell them your story, very cool the connection we all have. Prayers and blessings to all of you.. Much Love, Tory, Hrudey's Momma, my Christmas Angel.

[ryancat]

Tory, so good to see you post again although I am so sorry your still having a rough time.I know how you feel, I am still missing my boy something awful.We adopted a new kitty named Smoky and he is wonderful,playful and so loving but he's not my boy and it doesn't change the fact that I miss him.I do think it honors our lost loved one when we can open our hearts to a new pet but it does take time.Be gentle with yourself and you'll know when the time is right.I'm glad you decided to check in with all of us, I for one have missed you.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)

[Moose Mom]

Hrudey's Momma

It is so nice to see you again. I live in Colorado too, lots of dogs here for sure. So you are the 'crazy dog lady" so what? I think that's a good thing. I'm sorry things are still rough for you, I understand it takes a while. A new buddy would be lucky to have you guys as his family.

Love

[My Buddy]

Hi to Ryancat and Moose's Mom, Nice to hear from the old familiar friends...you're right being dog crazy, actually pet crazy is just a part of me...I kind of need that animal connection, when they wiggle and are happy to see you it helps alot...I think its all the changes going on for us, the move was really for the best and we love Colorado, but with changing jobs, new school for my daughter, new job for my husband, no time to process my grief, so I kept it under control like that...its when the dust settles that your feelings come to life again...thanks again for listening friends, keep on posting. Love Tory, My Boy,... My Forever Christmas Angel
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