Another Really Hard Day Options

[Tiffany]

Went out last night and drank myself sick, literally! Found a bunch of Rajah's hair in the backyard from his last bath and haircut that was buried under the snow. We always threw it out in the yard for the birds to use in their nests. Now I have some of it. I just hope it dries to be as soft as my little one was. My 5-year old, Sawyer, who always called Rajah his brother, said he had a dream where he talked to Rajah and asked him about Rainbow Bridge! I'm so happy that Rajah is happy, but so sad at the same time! Life is supposed to go on, but I'm dreading tomorrow already!

[dusktodawn]

These first few days are a nightmare...just try to lean on us. What a great dream...out of the mouths of babes.

Just keep breathing in and out, honey, and think about how happy your Rahja is

[Tiffany]

Thank you so much for always responding to my posts! I hope Rajah has met Jakey and that the two wild boys are running and playing and smiling. Nighttime is the worst time for me since Rajah always slept with me. The sleep I've managed to get is pure exhaustion taking over.

[Mo&Maisie'sMom]

I understand how bad the nights are. I've just started to sleep in my bed again after almost 7 weeks on the couch because my boy slept next to me every night. Ther are no words to describe this pain. I am thinking of you..

[Beaglegirl]

Tiffany, I'm so sorry. Some days really stink.
Last night I dreamed of my Boo, we were camping and she was there in the forest, playing on bolders and getting really dirty (her favorite thing to do)
I still woke up crying for her, but after I thought about the dream I quit crying.
She could see in my dream, but she was a blind dog. (Only had to pay $350 for an opthalmologist to say, "Yup, she's blind." Only kidding
In life, I had to restrain her and carry her, even though she was very independent I didn't want her to get hurt or lost in the woods. But, this dream she could see and finally run free.

I'm hoping you can get some sleep and have good dreams of your Rajah. It took me almost 4 months now to have a "happy" dream. All of my others were nightmares, and I had fitful sleep.
I finally see peace on the horizon. I wish I could share it with you, but I know everyone heals differently. My heart has just started the healing process, and man-o-man is it slow. But I do feel some progress happening, but don't give up hope, it is taking a LONG time.

Take care, I hope to dream tonight of my Boo teaching your Rajah how to get dirty. (Jakey and all the others can join, even the cats if they want-- Boo was smaller than most cats)

I too, found some of Boo's hair on Christmas eve. I was rushing around, trying to cook for the entire family, and thought I had a wrinkle in my sock. When I pulled my shoe off, I found a string of her hair (probably wound up from the dryer) and OH, did I just lose it. It had been a month at that point, but you would have thought she just died. For me, the first few days I was just numb and in shock. I really haven't started "grieving" until recently.

Keep posting Tiffany, getting it out and sharing with others helps you, and it helps others too.

[radgirl]

I know exactly whatyou mean about the hair collection. I tried to empty the vacuum on the dining room floor a few days later. There is still some hair on the back porch in a spot where he layed around Halloween......not enough to collect, but we are leaving it there........

Please know that I am thinking of you during these first few weeks.......keep us updated.....

[dusktodawn]

Go Rahja! Go Jakey! Go Boo! Go all of you, run and tumble and take part in the endless dance of the Summerland. Your precious people will be loving you and waiting for you.

[danslady]

Tiffany,
Wish I could be there to give you a hug. I too drank myself sick last Monday night. Of course it didn't help a bit. Perhaps Rajah met Katie and Gizzy at the bridge, and escorted them in to all the animal delights that animal paradise has to offer. I would love to think so. Along with all the other beloved babies that are now on their peaceful journey.
I'm trying to learn to lean, but I do know how to let others lean on me. Feel free anytime. May your days be filled with the loving memories of happy times that will lighten your heart, and ease your pain.

((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

Diane

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