3 Months Today Charlie Options

[beecherbabe]

IT HAS BEEN 3 MONTHS TODAY MY HANDSOME BABY BOY THAT YOU HAVE GONE TO THE BRIDGE! MOMMY MISSES YOU SO MUCH THE HURT HAS NOT GONE AWAY, I HAVE JUST LEARNED HOW TO LIVE WITH IT. I HAVE BEEN HAVING A ROUGH WEEK WITHOUT YOU. I KNOW YOU ARE WITH ME, YOU HAVE SHOWN ME MAY SIGNS. I HOPE YOU AND YOUR BROTHER ARE PLAYING TOGETHER NOW. YOU AND GIZMO WERE MY BABIES AND I MISS BOTH OF YOU SOOOO MUCH! YOUR SISTER DARLA IS MISSING YOU ALSO, BUT IS NOW THE CENTER OF ATTENTION (SHE BITES ME NOW INSTEAD OF YOU). I JUST WANTED TO SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS YOU BABY BOY.


LOVE YOUR MOMMY,

MICHELLE

[5catsmom]

Michelle,
I always appreciate it when others come back and let us know how you're doing - it gives us hope in times when we feel there never will be any again, although the pain is always there. I'm glad that you've had signs and know that your baby boy and your Gizmo are together. That's a great comfort, I know. Thank you again, and take care - Barbara

[xrayspex]

Please God tell me I'm not going to feel like this for the next 3 months...suicide is becoming an attractive option for pain relief if it is.

see post "She was only 4"

[ryancat]

Hello.I think what you wrote is sweet...and I can tell it came straight from your heart.I am sorry that you are still hurting so much.It's hard to let go and I do understand your pain.I know how you feel because one month ago today I had to put my 16 yr. old kitty Sox to sleep because his kidneys were failing...and it still hurts at times.But I'm kinda different because I am starting to remember him more with smiles than with tears.I don't think he would want me to be so unhappy for very long.I know that my baby boy is in heaven and that he is waiting for me there until it is my time to pass on.It helped me alot to put out pictures of him around the house,I also made a scrapbook with lots of pictures of him and funny little stickers that make me laugh when I see them.Oh,I still miss him and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him,and most nights I still want to cry myself to sleep because I miss him so much,but I just ask God for the strength I need to get me thur this most difficult time in my life.I will keep you in my prayers tonight and most of all I wish you peace.Sincerely,Renee (Sox's mom)