My Precious Chihuahua Lollie, Death of my precious Lollie Options

[rlanier]

On September 6th, our precious Lollie passed away. One of the worst days I have ever had. We adopted her almost six years ago from a rescue center in South Carolina and at first she was very stand offish of everyone and everything, then in just a few short weeks she became the light of our lives. She was the sweetiest and best friend that I have ever had. She just loved to be hugged on and cuddled. Her life was just too short, she would have been nine years old this December. The saddest thing is that we don't even know what happened to her, one minute on Sept. 4th she was running around and the next she started having these terrible seizures so we rushed her to the nearest emergency hospital which was over 30 minutes away and she seized the entire trip there and we thought we would lose her before we made it there, but my husband and I prayed all the way there and to our surpise she came back home with us that night. But the next day she acted very confused and disoriented, so I took her to her vet which is only two doors from our house. If only the seizures had started during the day when our vet was open. The vet said that was normal to be confused after such a bad seizure like she had and he had gave her more medicine. The next day while at the vet's office she died and my life has forever changed. She had so much personality and so lovable, I just miss her more than words can describe. The vet thinks she could have possible had something that happened to her brain and I just couldn't let her be cut on to do an autopsy. If anyone knows how I'm feeling right now, please tell me that it will get better. It seems like all I do is cry every time I talk about her or think about her. I try to think about all the beautiful memories we have of her and that helps, but sometimes it feels like my heart is just breaking. Thanks for listening!