1 Year And 9 Days, but I have a band-aid now Options

[mosmommy]

Hello to all friends in grieving,
It has been a while since I needed to be here for giving or receiving comfort. I sought out a grief counselor last August, and she has helped me along, now I still see her for other life events.
Those who know me, know I lost my beloved Cosmo on May 24, 2005, to kidney failure. The pain was so hard to bear, and still is at times, and it forever changed who I was. I don't know if I am a better or worse person for it, but I believe all changes help us grow, no matter how painful they are. I still miss him like crazy, and I am anxiously awaiting for the Jacob's Ladder that I planted in his memory last June to bloom. Seeing that will bring a smile to my face, just as all of the wonderful memories of our 10 years together has done.
On January 11, 2006, I finally felt brave enough to reach out and open my home to a new loving soul. It was as if it was meant to be. I live in N.Y. so finding a new kitten at that time of year is not always easy. I called my vet to see if there were any bulletins, and lucky for me, there was a posting of 2 female kittens, and 1 male kitten free to a loving home. I called the number at 9:15 a.m. not actually expecting anyone to answer until after 5 or 6 p.m. To my surprise, she did. I told her that I wanted to come and see the male baby she had, and we agreed to meet at 11 a.m. When I got there, and saw him, LIGHTNING STRUCK! By 12:15 p.m. I had brought my new baby home. It took us several days to choose the right name, out of a list of 50, but we chose to name him Wilson- and it's perfect.
I just wanted to say to all out there, no matter where you are in your grief process, that I never thought I'd be able to love a new soul again after all the pain and heartache, but Wilson became my band-aid. Now he holds my heart together every day. I believe that Cosmo brought us together, for mutual need and love. It amazes me, but he has alot of similiar behaviors that my Mo did, although they never met in life. He makes us happier every day, and those are the smiles I'll cherish when it is his time to go to the Rainbow Bridge. ( Not for a long, long time, I pray).
I am putting up pics of my sweet Wilson, who is now 9 months old- he's just beautiful!
Take care all of you who are in such pain, and know that there is light at the end of the dark tunnel.
Peace and Love,
Michelle

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