Not Doing So Well Today Options

[mommytofred]

i havent been on here for awhile, but its been a bad day. it's been almost two weeks since i lost fred. i guess it really didnt hit me until today. i found his harness in my car, thats what set it off. i was trying to keep everyone else from falling apart. i havent stopped crying. i feel kind of dumb, because i didnt have him for very long, but for some reason that makes it hurt even more. my boyfriend said he wnet through what im feeling now. i guess it hits every one differently. it just makes my heart ache because now i fully realize that i will never again wake up nose to nose with him anymore because he snuck onto my pillow when i was asleep. i know now that i am definetly not ready for a new puppy. how can i be....when i am finally starting to feel the full effects of losing fred? anyway, thanks for listening. its such a great comfort to be able to talk about it.