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[Dixie's Mom]

Hi All,
I have not posted here in a while.
I lost my Dixie to an accident that should have never happened.
She was hit by a car and died in front of me on July 5th.
The pain at first was indescribable. Then it got easier.
And now, well, here I sit in tears realizing that I will NEVER be ok.
I want my dog back. I am so sad. She should be here.
All I have is her ashes. She was my baby for 7 years. And gone in a second.
I have nothing to say...just wanted to get it out.

[PreciousPrincess...]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers.

[Steph]

Hi Dixie's mom. I'm so sorry about your loss. My border collie died June 5th 2004. You are right - it will never be entirely "ok" again. However, it will be a different kind of life, and somehow life will become "normal" even with out your Dixie.

I still think of my girl all the time. I believe that there are special "soulmate" furbabies, and losing these precious souls is particularly difficult.

Good luck to you on your journey.

[Paulina&Tory]

hi dixie's mom,

I too grieve still. my Ollie died march 31, the day after my own birthday. It's hard to believe that it will get much easier with time. He was still healthy untill he died from surgery due to a bone lodging in his intestine; they had to shoreten his intestine and he did not survive the recovery.This has all made me value my own life differently.This has to be the crap in our lives that must come our way. Tears accross our lives that we must bear.I just updated my avatar and that was Ollie

Tory

[alwaysrememberin...]

I understand about the having one "sould mate" for an animal, I had a pekingese named Chloe who only lived to be eight months. A dog on our road attacked her and killed her when I was inside my house (not knowing that my father let her out). Chloe, she connected with me from the first time I picked her out. She was sitting right in front of me, staring right up at me when I was choosing which puppy to get, it's like the whole time she was saying I'm right here, mom. From then on she was with me day and night, since I am home most of the time. She had confidence and loyalty. She changed me, showing me how to love unconditionally. I don't think I will ever get over this, still today I am in shock.

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[Caroline]

Hi there- I remember your previous postings. It has been almost a year since I lost Lucy, my lab. She passed away on February 1st from lymphoma. I feel very sad right now because it was around this time last year we got her diagnosis. January was a horrible month. It is so hard, I know. Just hang in there and try to get through the rough times. Dixie is still with you....she always will be.

Caroline

[Dixie's Mom]

Hi,
Thank you all for your kind responses.
Hearing from you makes me not feel so alone.
My thoughts are with you all, too. This is so hard for all of us.
It sure feels like the pain will never pass- it goes in phases for me.
The first few months were unbearable, then it eased and I felt like I had come
to grips with reality. Then I became angry, VERY angry. I even left a
personal ad in the newspaper for the "woman" who hit and killed Dixie IN FRONT OF ME as I stood helpless and all this "person" could do was say
"sorry" and drive off. I'm not going to lie, I wish nothing but the worst for this despicable creature. I find it impossible to forgive at this point. I know it was an accident (even though she was SPEEDING) but her failure to stop and HELP ME save my dog possibly cost Dixie her life. I also haven't forgiven myself. She shouldn't have been off the leash. I loved her SO MUCH, more than anyone in my family, and I contributed to her death. How to move on?
God, help me. I feel like I'm falling apart (again).