My 2 Babies In 2 Weeks, Gone..., I can't take it Options

[mxmelba]

Oh my breaking heart. I just lost my other cat tonight. Two weeks and 1 day after Ginger was killed we had to put Mary Ann down. I can't believe it. Why did this have to happen? Mary Ann was so sad when Ginger died. Watching her grieve was awful. My heart went out to her. Then this past Monday, one week after Ginger was gone Mary Ann started acting weird. She was extemely lethargic. She just wouldn't move. My husband and I brought her to the emergency vet, they said she had a fever and her white blood count was high. They weren't sure what was wrong with her. She stayed in the ER vet at night and then at our regular vet during the day for two days. Her white blood count dropped and the fever went down. They weren't really sure what was wrong with her. We were able to take her home on Wednesday night. Wednesday and Thursday she seemed to do ok. But she wasn't really like her old self. She wouldn't come to my husband or myself when we called her, she wouldn't purr, she wouldn't rub up against us. It was strange. Then Friday night she started to seem wobbly, we went to bed, thinking she was tired, but in the morning, she was very unsteady so we brought her to our vet. When we were at the vet she started having ocular siezures. The vet said that she had gone blind and deaf. My heart broke. They thought she had gotten into poison or something and wanted to keep her to watch her. That was today. At 6:00pm my vet called and said she was ok, but doing much better. The vet tech said she was crying when she went to check on her. I suggested that maybe she should go to the ER vet where she could be watched 24-7 instead of at my vet where they checked in on them. The vet tech said she would bring her to the ER vet. When we got there the ER vet told us that she was not doing good. That her brain had lack of oxygen. That she had been seizuring for so long that there wasn't anything to do for her. I couldn't believe what she was saying. I can't believe the vet tech from my vet thought she was ok. She wasn't. My poor baby. I hate to think that this afternoon she was suffering. I couldn't believe they said she had so much brain damgae that there wasn't much they could do. I just lost my other cat 2 weeks ago. I couldn't put my other cat down. I just couldn't. But I knew I had to. When my husband and I went back to see her, she was on oxygen and just trembling. It broke my heart. She was doing what they call paddeling. Moving her feet around. They said she had none of her senses left. Oh my poor baby. To see her like that. I knew I had to help her, so she could be with her sister. I held her as they put her to sleep. It was the hardest thing to do. At least now she is at peace. The ER vet thinks that she had an underlying disease that was unmasked by her grief for her sister. That poisoning didn't completely matchup. I am just empty inside. I loved my babies. I can't believe I have lost them both in 2 weeks. Ginger died 11/4/2005. Now Mary Ann is gone. Anyone that has dealt with loosing 2 of their babies so close together, I don't know how you got through it. I feel numb. We are planning on burying her tomorrow morning. I can't believe I am having another funeral so soon. I always thought they would die close to each other because they were so close, but they weren't even 2 yet. Please help me get through this. The sadness is overwhelming. These two cats were my babies. I can't believe I had to put her to sleep tonight. I feel guilty. I keep thinking what if. But when I saw her, I couldn't let her suffer. I have to go now. I can't see I am cryihng so hard.
Thank you for listening.
Melissa

[clubkobe]

MxMelba,
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my dog one week ago today. I was fortunate to have 11 yrs with him. He went suddenly and unexpectedly. To lose two is a real tragedy. I also lost a cat earlier this year, in March and then my dog on Nov. 12th. The only way I can justify this or make sense out of it is to tell myself that I was with them for the time they were supposed to be on earth, I treated them with dignity and plenty of love and they are with me forever. We are both better for it. The way you are right now, I was like that last weekend. I was so overwhelmed that I couldn't see thru my tears either and I wasn't sure I was going to get thru it. I truly felt a broken heart. When the shock wore off, the reality set in. I will say that I don't think you ever get over it, you figure out ways to deal with it. I know my dog and cat were grateful for the kindness I bestowed on them. The way you talk about your Ginger and Mary Ann, I'm sure they feel that too. The hard part is the emptiness but my way of coping with that is to never forget my pets and I have things to remind me of them around the house. My dog's dish is where I left it, his leash still hangs on the hook, his collar is next to the front door. I see it everytime I leave the house. I also wrote them both letters, I buried the first one with my cat, but I kept a copy and with my dog, I just kept a journal and he knows what I've written. The harder you grieve, the more you must have loved them. Try to take solace in that. You are a loving person and you know how pets are, they understand and appreciate better than humans how much we care. They wouldn't want you to be sad forever. They need you to go on with your life but Mary Ann and Ginger never want you to forget them. They are forever a part of you because you agreed to be a part of them. Your memories and their spirits are inseparable.

Joe & Kobe & Chiba

[Rockasheri]

My cat Beau died in my arms on the way to the hospital. He was 20 1/2 years old. A beautiful Siamese, and we loved him like our son. we had another cat named KIKI. After Beau died, my Kiki went down to 3lbs. I have never seen a cat grieve for another but Kiki did. Before Beau died we found a kitten and took him in, because I live in Chicago, and the cat could of been ran over. I didn't want a kitten, because we had 2 older cats, and Kiki was always telling the kitten to get away, well, when we got Kiki to the doctor we found Kiki has oral cancer. I am feeding my baby by cyringes, giving her intravenous every other day and pain killers, and medicine for her thyroid. I love her, and my husband and myself had no children, this is my second marriage. I do not think I can bear her dying. I asked the doctor when will I know its time and she said when she starts coughing. I try so hard, I sleep with her every night instead of my husband, and she waits till I get home from work to eat. She has developed a wierd habit, she sits near her bowl of water, i feed her water, and sometimes she falls asleep right next to her water bowl. can you answe why? THE VET DIDN'T UNDERSTAND WHY EITHER. But I feel for you I am in the same boat I dont think
I can bear to loose her. Please write back Sheri

[pamurchu]

I am grieving for your loss and am praying for you to find peace. All I can say is that you came to the right place. This board saved my sanity in September when I unexpectedly lost my Sheltie, Bailey. Someone wiser that I am told me that, "I guess your pet had other plans." We have to trust that everything that happens for a reason. Most of the time we do not understand why. God bless.
Pat

[mxmelba]

Today marks 4 weeks since I lost Mary Ann and 6 weeks since I lost Ginger. I am still struggling with their loss. I miss my girls so much and having the holidays here just makes it so much harder. When I unpacked their stockings, it was just so sad. I breaks my heart. Most of my friends have pets and understand what my husband and I are going through, but say they can't imagine losing 2 pets in 2 weeks. I believe that there is a reason for everything in life, but I don't see it here.
We have new furbabies, but it isn't the same. After Ginger died our vet recommend we get Mary Ann a friend, so we did. Then when Mary Ann died a week later we were left with a sweet 4 month old kitten who was lonely. So we went back to the humane society and adopted her brother and step-brother. They are sweet babies who were all bottlefed together, so I had to get both of the boys, I couldn't separate them. I am glad we have them because in some ways it has helped with dealing with Ginger and Mary Ann's deaths, but in retrospect I wouldn't have gotten new babies so soon because it also makes me miss my girls so much. I have read that sometimes your babies "pick" new furbabies for you....I sort of think that Mary Ann did that. Is it possible she made sure I had Lucy before she left? Maybe? The vets think Mary Ann had an underlying issue, like a brain tumor or some disease which caused her to go so young. I still can't believe they are both gone. I love my new babies, but it is so soon. Anyways, today marks the 1 month anniversary for one of my babies and I am hurting so much. Thanks for listening.
Melissa

[5catsmom]

I just read through your thread, and oh my, I am so very sorry for your double loss. I lost my Magic Cat a week and a day ago, and the pain has been so intense that I cannot even imagine it being doubled. I know you probably don't feel like it, but I think you must be a very strong person to be able to struggle through this. When my first cat died 4 years ago, I got another cat soon after, and I believe it really made a difference. I think it's entirely plausible that Mary Ann made sure you had Lucy before she left, I like to think that Heidi's spirit hovers around here watching over me and now my 5 remaining cats. I don't think she'd care for them very much (she was always very solitary) but I think she's happy that I have furbabies to love and help me through difficult times, like now.

Thank you for your post. I have moments during the day when I even wonder how I'll make it 2 weeks out, or a month, and hearing from other people who have struggled and survived this agony gives me hope. I wish you didn't have to go through this but would like you to know that your words are a comfort, and I thank you.

[ladyofcats]

I'm so sorry for your losses, that is a horrible blow. My prayers are with you
~Diane