One Month,not Much Better, My boy Options

[parker]

Well, one month later, I expected to feel a little better. I still cry every moment someone leaves me alone. It's like I sneak them in so as not to appear so pathetic. I cry hard too, that hasn't lessened a bit. I feel like I am just missing him more and more everyday. Part of me wants another baby. I still have Roxy, my Great Dane, but I am missing something. I know it is Parker that I am missing, I just wish it was in my control to bring him back to me. So, I am stalking shelters and humane society's for a dog whose eyes "speak to me". But then, I come across a dog that looks like my baby and I just sit at the cage and cry. One of them was admitted into the shelter the day Parker died, which of course seems like a sign. But, I am so afraid if I adopted that one that I would be trying to replace my boy and no one can ever do that. I don't want to pet another dog and cry because it's not Parker. That isn't fair to anyone. Maybe that means I am not ready, or maybe I need to do a puppy and start from scratch like I did with Park. I am so confused, but I know my family isn't complete without another baby. I am even 4 months pregnant right now, and everyone of course thinks I shouldn't "take on" another dog, with one child and one on the way.......but my fur babies fill such a different space in my heart, that I know there is room. What I wouldn't give for just one more hug and smell of his beautiful hair. One more kiss on the freckle on his lip, or smell of his salty ear. I swear I will never heal from this, I will never stop longing for him. Thanks for listening to my ramble.

Parker's Mommy,
Kerry

[hjsunflower]

Kerry,

I'm sorry for your loss of Parker. It has been one month for me since Cobbles died too. I am not a whole better. I too wish for one more hug and Cobbles kiss. He used to love to lick people. I cry about Cobbles a lot too when i am alone too. I too am thinking about adopting another Rabbit and i still have one rabbit named Pebbles. I think Pebbles misses Cobbles, but i am not sure that i would be ready to adopt another one right now. I think when it is the right time to get another dog you will know.

Heather with Cobbles always in my heart.

[Parkersdad]

We lost our boy and his name was Parker also. I posted his story as "We Lost or Boy Yesterday" He was an eleven year old Golden Retrever and his death was sudden and unexpected. Please hang in there

[babybear2005]

it was a month on tuesday for me and i did think that i would be feeling atleast a little bit better but i seem to be getting worse, it seems that at the begining of every week it seems to get better then as soon as i get to sunday (babybear passed on sunday 11th sept) i just go back to square one. i am starting to get nice thoughts and remembering him doing silly things more but the pain is still there as strong as ever. Hold on in there you can get through this we are all with you

hugs and kisses to everybody on the site and all there furbabys who are still with us and those who have passed

[JenniferLynn]

My most beloved is dying. We're waiting to bring him home from the hospital now. I have been sitting here, unable to work or sleep or eat...Your post touches me....I just want to smell him and kiss him and touch him and breathe him....I feel your longing and my heart breaks for you. I, too, have another one, but it's not the same as my Freddy, who is my first baby and who save dme years ago when I found him in the shelter. I feel so guilty about that, about the fact that I feel that my second baby isn't enough. Please try to be strong. They say it will get better eventually.... I guess all we have is time. I will pray for you.

[parker]

Thank you so much to everyone who responded. Jennifer, I feel for you and the pain you are enduring and about to endure. Love every inch of him before he goes and we even cut some of his fur so we could have it after. Take a paw print, anything you can think of... it all helps. Please come back on after it is over to let us know how you are doing. Babybears Mom, I read your post actually before I put mine on and it just felt like it was coming out of my mouth. You're feelings are exactly what mine are. I went to the shelter today and looked at babies, I found one that speaks to me, but I am torn between feeling like I am betraying Parker and really needing that love. I feel so guilty because my other dog just doesn't fulfill it in the same way. She's one of those dogs that doesn't really connect for some reason. We love her dearly, but she is more our dog than our child. If you know what I mean. Everyone says Parker would want me to save another dog and love him, but I know my Parker and he wouldn't want to share!! I hope that he is ready for me to get another lovey, it will never replace him and I will never stop missing him. Should I wait until I am at least not crying everyday???? I am so confused.

Forever Parker's Mom,
Kerry

[tammy]

Parker,

I got a new kitty 3 weeks after my cat died. I was worried it was too soon because I was still crying everyday also. Now I think it was a good decision because it helped take my mind off of Diapey's death, and focus on creating a new life for a new kitty.
Looking online for pets helped me get mentally used to the idea of getting a new cat.
I don't handle shelters very well at all; I can't stop crying when I get into one because I feel sorry for all the poor little animals!
Anyway, I felt guilty for a while after getting the new kitty, and continued to cry for my old one, but it helped tremendously - giving a rescue kitty a new (and quite spoiled) life helped me focus on the positive.

-Tammy