10 Days Until Picasso's Been Gone A Year, I still feel totally in denial :( Options

[crazycatwoman]

Hey all

i thought i would come type on the boards, as im feeling really down. I cant believe its been almost a year since my sweet Picasso died. If i had only know a year ago what i know now, i would have taken him out of the situation, and not let him get hit by that car. I still feel very angry at my dad ( for those who havent read my post, my dog was with him when he was hit, i was not there ). I have a hard time allowing him to be around Stinky, as i dont trust him to protect him, i refuse to leave them alone, and its caused some hurt feelings, but after my horrible feelings of regret i will never leave stinky with him alone .

I love Stinky and Candy both of whom i got after Picasso died. Stinky in November last year, and Candy in July of this year, but i still feel such a emptyness in my heart for Picasso. He was my first dog, and he was perfect. I know one pet can never replace another, and my other two babies have helped, but i still would give anything to have picasso back.

As i said in my other post about my husband not liking the pets, i feel like i have to save other little dogs, like Picasso would want me to, almost like thats why he died. Had i not adopted him, and had he not died, i would never have got another dog, so really Picasso opened my eyes to a whole new world. I had always been a cat person . Now as much as i love my cat Orlando, i feel much more emotionally close to Stinky. He reminds me alot of Picasso, thats probably why i love him so much .

I feel stupid like i should be over this already, everyone i try to talk to about it in my "real life" seems to think that i have two new dogs so i shouldnt be thinking about it , but i just continue to feel like its a dream , like i will wake up and find him with me someday. I just have never accepted he is gone , and i cant.

thanks all for listening

amber

[LouAnn6]

Hi Amber,

Like you I loss one of my fur babies, Smokey - cat, almost 1 year ago on Sept. 30 and as I do have other fur babies in my life I also still miss my Smokey. The years does make things easier, but the longing to hold my past fur babies never goes completely away and will be something that is with me for the rest of my days. My first fur baby, Jacob - dog, I loss back in May of 1999 and still to this day I find myself talking to him and wishing that I could kiss that face that I miss so much. I believe that my Smokey & Jacob are now together at the rainbow bridge and are playing with each other just like they use to when they were with me. I take comfort in the knowledge that some day I will be reunited with all my fur babies that have gone before me and that is one of the things that keeps me going. Love the fur babies past, present and future and they all will bring you joy for the rest of your life. I for one will be looking forward to the day that I am back with all my fur children, but until that time I will love every fur baby I can, as I believe that is one of the greatest gifts in this world. Rest asured that you will also be reunited with your precious fur baby when the time is right, until then keep the ones you have at home close to your heart and they will help you get though all the rough days in the future.

Sincerely,
LouAnn
Mother of: Jacob - doggy angel, Smokey - kitty angel, Ziggy - dog, Quinton - dog, Tyler - cat, BobCat - cat & Phoenix - cat

[luv_my_catz]

Dear Amber - It is so easy for me to understand how you feel - I lost my tabby also named Amber in March after 20 years of companionship - for some reason her death was the "icing on the cake" for me and my ability to deal with and understand the concept of losing someone I love. The bounce back this time has not come - although I have learned to find her spirit and carry her with me in ways I did not know about before she left this earthly way of being ~ and so I send you love amid the clouds of uncertainty I feel there is that one thing that is constant and true ~ I can close my eyes and see her here ~ breathe in her soft fur and warmth of the tiny body she inhabited through those years ~ I send you comfort ~ and most of all LOVE to grasp on to and share with those you hold dear. This is what I have come to believe is the reason for life and the reconciliation of death - that we would love one another more than before ~ I hope you can find this amid the myriad of emotions and whirlings of life in the days ahead - Best wishes with your new animal family members - it is a blessing that we have them in our lives ~ Take Good Care and God Speed ~ Kathryn