Our 2 Precious Girls Options

[LJP]

Hi everyone,
I've been looking for a site like this for a long time and through my tears this evening, have found a little comfort. Thank you. We lost our first girl, Fluff, in October last year, age nearly 14. She was a beautiful long haired tortie and had such a sweet and gentle nature. Her favourite thing was lying on her back, legs all over the place, meowing to us - she always " spoke " to her dad whenever he sneezed, as if to tell him off. She lost weight over a couple of years, but nothing ever showed up in her exam or bloods. About 6 weeks before we were due to go on holiday last year though, the appetite went downhill. The vet couldn't find a thing wrong and despite numerous pills she never got better. I'll always feel guilty for not being there those last 2 weeks. My brother in law looked after all our 4 babes while we were away. We phoned home every day, but something kept nagging at me - our worst fears were confirmed on our return - Fluff had almost faded away, but still tried to get up and greet us. My heart was broken. A shadow on her CXR finally showed up. We let her go the following day, with both of us cuddling her. Every time now we see a rainbow, I know she is watching us and saying hello.
Cleo went to join her yesterday. She was our first baby, came into our lives almost 17 years ago. Where has that time gone. I loved her so much - she was a black and white cat and ruled the roost! She was wrongly diagnosed with a nasal cancer 6 years ago ( turned out to be chronic rhinitis ) and battled through times of infection, but rallied with courses of antibiotics and steroids. She was so pampered, never ate cat food - always turkey, chicken, tuna , prawns or anything else tasty she fancied. Her eyes were so expressive - really let you know if she was annoyed!! But she was my ever present on the bed or under the duvet - always sandwiched in between us. Cleo suddenly went off her food last weekend. Our last trip to the vet in March showed a mass on her kidney. Our worst fears were confirmed. Our girl was ready to join her sister at the rainbow bridge. The weird thing was that Cleo hated going out, yet on Thursday she kept taking little walks and just sat looking around her as if to take everything in - that day, it showered and the sun shone - we counted at least 5 rainbows, the last a really bright one just after 8pm. I like to think that Fluff had come for her. Our baby was helped on her way yesterday at 12.30pm - my broken heart is now in pieces.

[Ann H]

I am so sorry for the loss of both your precious Fluff and Cleo. I know how broken your heart much be. It sound like they were wonderful and so very loved. I lost both my girls 6 weeks and 3 days apart. My journey has been long and hard but everyone here at LS is amazing in the love and compassion we give to each other. Knowing there are people who really care helps so much. Come and talk often about your babies.
Ann

[luv_my_catz]

I am so so sorry for your loss ~ my heart is saddened as well by the loss of my Amber tabby girl after nearly 20 years of gracing my life with her presence ~ they are the sunshine on a dark day and the moon glow on the pillow while we sleep ~ I feel for you ~ your love and tenderness comes through for your babes ~ you had such long and wonder filled time together ~ they are our angels that are sent from God to be with us and now are among the angelic once again ~ to hover close and be near to our hearts with that same love and companionship ~ there is a cloud of love forever where there used to be meows and purrs and "Bless You's" after sneezes ~ may His blessings be with you and may you be held in the hollow of His hand ~ Sincere Condolences, Kathryn

[kimberlyheide]

I am so sorry for your loss. Your 2 girls had a very wonderful life with you for many years. No matter how many years they are with us it is never enough. I lost my very special Bubba cat last December, he was 14 1/2. There is not a day that goes by that I do not have him in my thoughts. I still have his mama Mort, she is 16 years old and I know our time is getting very precious.

I am sure that Fluff was there for Cleo in her rebirth into the next life. They are probably chasing butterflies together, and playing as they once did when their bodies were young and healthy.

My thoughts are with you. The bond of love never dies, and your girls are now with you in spirit.

Kim

[Kathleen032]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Fluff and Cleo. It sounds like you gave them both a wonderful life and in turn they gave you the unconditional love that only our furbabies can give.

You've come to the right place to grieve the loss of Fluff and Cleo. You'll be embraced here with the kindness and understanding.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen

[LJP]

Thank you for your kind words everyone - they mean a lot. The house just feels so quiet and empty right now. Yesterday was a tough day - coming home for the 1st time after Cleo was gone. She was the one that was always there - either on the bed or on her stool. Her " battlecry " sounding out when she was hungry. When Fluff died i found so much comfort in Cleo - we always imagined that she would live forever, particularly after battling her other health problems. She was a fighter who had just had enough. I didn't know what to do with myself this morning - no litter to sweep up or " Madam " to get a saucer of prawns for. God this is hard. I know we still have 2 other furry girls ages 9 and 5, but at the moment it's not them i want. I feel so guilty for admitting that my bond was with the 2 who have gone - they spend all their time outdoors. Who will stay with me in the bed on dark nights now.

[FurBabyMom]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sounds like you've had a year like mine. I lost my 16 year old Friskie kitty last July, my 4 month old Dorian kitty the end of August and now my 11 month old Gandalf has been missing for 5 weeks.

I know how lucky we were to have had our babies for such a long time but it still doesn't make it any easier to let them go. Friskie was very vocal and I still miss his greetings in the morning and at night when I came home from work. I do find comfort in knowing that Friskie's not sick anymore and that he's waiting for me.

I can also relate to your feelings towards the ones still here. I have two 1 year olds at home Sabrina who is a beautiful tabby and her brother Max who is black and white like a tuxedo. Sadly it's the little gray kitty Gandalf who touched my heart and he's who I want.

I hope you find some comfort from this site.

Hugs,
Dawn

[Rusty's Mom]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious Fluff and Cleo. I know the emptiness you speak of, even when there are other pets in your life. I believe the last, bright rainbow you saw was from Fluff and that Cleo is now with her, along with all of our beloved pets, awaiting the day we'll be together again.

Take care. Wishing you peace and strength.

Hugs,
Lynn

[Caroline]

I am so very sorry for your loss...To lose 2 babies in such close proximity. Just think that Fluff has been reunited with her friend Cleo. I am sure they are so happy together, healthy, running and playing, and waiting to see mommy again one day...You are in my thoughts...

Caroline