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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 8 Joined: 20-February 05 From: Missoula, Montana Member No.: 717 ![]() |
It's been over a month since I put my beloved horse Jameel down. It's been several weeks since I've been to the site as well. I have not allowed myself to cry or feel those painful emotions that go along with the loss of my pet, that was until yesterday when my friend came out to trim my other horses feet. He asked where the "old black mare" was and when I said that she had colicked and I had to put her to sleep, it was like tearing an old wound open again. I so much want her to be there every morning waiting for me when I wake up. I can't stop looking for her.
I can't seem to let go of her and believing that she will be there waiting for me when I open the door to go feed the others. I can't seem to get past this... -------------------- Jameel, you are gone but never forgotten. I know we will run through green fields once again. Until then, you will live on in my heart and in my dreams.
Saab's Jameel - May 1981 - February 19th, 2005 |
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 256 Joined: 31-March 05 From: Upstate NY Member No.: 789 ![]() |
I send so many healing thoughts to you ~ the loss of a faithful friend is something that touches us so deeply ~ we are so blessed to have shared this earth with our animal spirit friends and guides to help us along our way ~ You have such compassion and love for you dear Jameel and that is such a gift ~ I feel the same loss ~ my Amber has gone from this earth ~ and she was a faithful feline friend and spirit guide for nearly 20 years ~ we grew old together ~ I was 35 when she came to me and now I am 55 ~ I feel so disconnected without her ~ however please know that you are not alone ~ those who come here are all feeling the same grief ~ Blessings to You ~ In Peace ~ Kathryn, Angel Amber and C.C. (this cat is a big mush of a boy ~ but I cannot find comfort there yet ~ I know how you feel that way~) Take Care ~
-------------------- Peace Be With You ~ Kathryn ~ Angel Amber ~ Angel CC~ and Sammie
I lost my Amber Tabby Girl of nearly 20 years on 3/28/05 after a valiant battle with end stage CRF. Always a beacon in the storm ~ steady and true. C.C was my purebred White Angora I lost to cancer on 10/22/05 at age 13~ A Big Gentle yet Oddly Eccentric Creature ~Through his congenital deaf ness ~He brought an innocent joy to my life and light to my heart I also adopted an 8 yr old Burmese named Samantha who led me back into my own room ~ still a stranger to me ~ she sweetly gives peace to Amber's final days spent there and lights my way to see in the darkness of the spaces that my precious CC has left behind. |
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,165 Joined: 31-October 04 Member No.: 538 ![]() |
I am glad to see you are back and sorry to hear you have not allowed yourself to cry. I know how very painful it is and my heart has had a hard time healing too. But don't you see as painful as it is we all need to cry. We need the tears to help cleanse the heart and to allow us to grieve for all we have lost. All it will do is fester and the scars will never heal if we hold the pain and tears in.
The tears are for healing and I know many people say our babies would not want us to keep being sad. They say to remember the good times and that's what I do. But sometimes it is those memories that keep our hearts and souls longing for our babies. They loved us with a love so pure and good. I know that it is not good to cry all the time but when I yearn for my darlings I can't help it. I just want to be holding them and touching them and have them run to greet me. But these things can never be again upon the face of this earth. So I think we have every right, every reason to cry when we need too. Stay with us this time, let us hold your hand and share in your pain. The pain does lessen but the longing to see and hold our babies remain. It is hard to give up their earthly body but we will make it. We will learn to learn a new way of living with out them. We will learn to laugh and smile again and perhaps give our hearts to many others throughout our life time. Don't give up, hang in there and come back often. Hugs Ann -------------------- My girls went to the Rainbow Bridge 6 weeks and 3 days apart. Snookie had cushing's disease, and later developed diabetes. Both had cancer, Snookie had cancer of the liver, and Chili Bean had cancer of the pallet. Chili Bean was our son's chihuahua but we kept her often throughout her life and she stayed with us for the last 9 months of her life. Chili Bean also had asthma and heart failure. We will see you in Heaven my precious darlings. Snookie Lynn Howard 2-04-94 - 12-26-04 Senorita Chili Bean Bubbles Howard 11-05-94 - 11-11-04 |
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 217 Joined: 25-March 05 Member No.: 777 ![]() |
I'm so sorry for your loss. Jameel sounds like a beautiful horse.
![]() Ann is right...the tears are a paradox...they hurt and heal at the same time. Sometimes we can't feel how they heal, but I know for myself, I have to have hope that in time, I'll be as healed as I possibly can. I lost my dog 2 weeks ago tonight, at this exact time....I can't believe it...it seems like AGES ago but then again not. We're all here feeling the same things and simultaneously leaning on each other and supporting each other. Please post when you're ready to talk and we'll be here to listen. Post a picture when you get a chance too. I'd love to see her. -------------------- "He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog.
You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion." ~Unknown |
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 36 Joined: 8-April 05 Member No.: 813 ![]() |
Dear Cwgrlsrck,
I am so sorry that you lost your beloved Jameel. Her name sounds Arabic. Was she an Arabian? I have two Arabians--a mother and son. My gelding's name is Khem-Aliq and his mother is Moonlyte Velvet. She's 25 last month and he'll be 19 in May. My, how time flies. We share your sorrow. Losing a beloved horse is very traumatic. they are so dependent upon us and when they're not there, they leave a terrible void. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. God bless you, --Susan ~ a voice for the voiceless ~ |
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 496 Joined: 6-November 04 From: Lynden, Wa Member No.: 548 ![]() |
cwgrlsrckI just wanted to say to you I know how you long for your horse. These beings that grace us, come in all shapes and sizes, each one has a unique personality and there is not another exact. I think they come to us for reasons...
Not crying is not a good thing because it comes out in other ways..the grief cannot stay down!! My grief for my parents came out 2ys later, not that I did'nt grieve when I lost them but I didn't grieve as fully as I needed to and supressed alot of feelings. Then I wondered why I started having panic attacks, tired all the time, couldn't make decisions...it was that grief I had tucked away. I had dreaded that time(losing my parents) for my whole life and it was just a bit more than I could handle. So maybe this is your lesson......to not hold things in anymore. Pamela -------------------- Moose, you were a gift for my heart and my soul. I am so thankful to have had you. I love you forever My Mooser.1995-2004
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