My 4th Day Without Teddy Options

[rsmiller]

Well, today will be the 4th day without Teddy. The past few days have been so tough for the whole family, but I do think things are starting to get a little better. I think getting out of bed in the morning is the hardest. It is such a disappointment to get up and see once again that Teddy isn't here. Although I am beginning to believe that in spirit he is always with us, sometimes we really can feel his presence. I guess that makes sense though, he is a part of us, so he will always be with us. I know this might sound strange, but I woke up at 5:00 yesterday morning, thinking of Teddy and crying, of course. I went and laid on the couch in the family room. My daughter had left a stuffed horse toy on the floor. It's one of those toys that if you squeeze the ear, it makes a galloping sound and the sound that a horse makes. That toy started making sound on it's own. It has never done that, you have to squeeze the ear to get it to work. I really do believe that it was Teddy trying to tell me that he is o.k. I hope that doesn't sound crazy, but I have to believe that. I want to thank everyone here for all of the support and understanding that you have been giving me. It has really helped me get through the last few days.

[Kathleen032]

Teddy's spirit is definitely with you, that's something that you'll carry with you in your heart forever and ever. And I truly believe our furbabies send us signs and little messages to let us know they're alright and still around.

You continue to be in my thoughts,
Kathleen

[Pamela]

You are still in the beginning stages of your great loss. You know what? I had one of my great nephews toys in the back of my car,,,,it would keep going off, I could hear it going off in my car as I slept in my room...was the strangest thing and it did cross my mind ......Moose?
It is a hard journey through grief and loss as you struggle to accept it. I honestly could not get off my couch for many many weeks, I never slept in the bedroom again....and moved from that home..
During those first several weeks I just wanted to speed the process up in anyway I could, I just wanted that emptyness to leave me. Now that I look back, I grieve for myself too, that poor girl that lost the most precious thing in her life, the deep agony she felt that could only be expressed in unledgeable groans..agony so deep. So, I can tell you now having walked thourgh the fire that it will get tolerable, and yes you will always miss them deeply, I learned the lesson of how they are part of our spirt our mind and our soul, that can never be taken away from us. Pamela

[Snickster]

I have no doubt that Teddy is making his presence known to you. Isn't it wonderful when they do that?? Teddy is with you constantly and that beautiful little spirit will never leave you. You loved Teddy so very much, and evidently it was mutual!!

I'm sorry that you're going through this pain. We're here to share it with you and support you however we can.

Hugs,

Pat

[Jazzygirl]

That's wonderful that you feel him and I do believe that he was trying to communicate with you.
It's my hope that I will feel Jazzy around us sometime soon. I have felt nothing since she died...no essence of her spirit at all. Perhaps I'm just too numb and in too much pain to feel it. I haven't even dreamed of her. We'll see as time goes on I guess.

[Nanpacific]

I am glad Teddy made his presence known to you. I don't think it is strange at all that the toy made sounds. I had a couple of similar things happen to me after my Sasha died. She died on a Saturday and Sunday I really felt low. Skipper, my surviving dog, was in bed with me. We both heard Sasha bark at the foot of the bed. Skipper even got up to look for her. At first I thought I was hearing things, but Skipper confirmed I was not and wagged her tail. She also knew it was her friend Sasha. The next morning I got up to make coffee in the kitchen. We have one of those atomic clocks that tells time, moon phases etc. It had gotten set to eastern time (I am in the Pacific Time Zone) all by itself. In fact it is such a pain to change anything on it, we had to get the directions out to figure out how to change it back. We figured it was Sasha teasing us and telling us she had been there. I already knew it because I heard her bark. I also think it was her way of telling us she was OK.

I know how hard these first days are for you. I remember them all too well. I found for me I tried to think of my happy times with her and not the last day of her life. I still cry and miss her, but I am doing better and you will too with time. I am so sorry about your loss of Teddy. I am thinking of you and wishing you the best.

Nancy

[Caroline]

I was so saddened to hear of your Teddy's passing. The first few days are the worst. I remember them well as my Lucy died on February 4th of this year. It still hurts a lot, but it does slowly get better. I remember people writing that to me when I was in the early stages of grief and it never seemed like it would happen. I am sure you have many wonderful memories of life with Teddy, and you will draw from those memories to maintain that deep connection with him.

Thinking of you during this difficult time, Caroline

[Ann H]

I do not think that anything is strange anymore. Our babies are with us forever even though we don't see them now. I believe they let us know they are still there loving us and watching over us. Death has left us all with shattered hearts and broken souls. So no doubt our babies find ways to tell us they are well, loving us and waiting for us.
Ann