A Very Tough Day, one week after Leon died Options

[Leonpup]

Today feels impossible. I'm just not sure what to do- nothing seems right, I miss Leon so much. I don't know how to get through these days. I am thinking that the shock of it all is ending, and reality is setting in. I just want him back home so bad. I am so completely lost. I can't make sense of any of it.

Thank you for the kind words. I am just struggling so much right now- as I am sure so many more of you have been/ or are.

I really miss him so much, I don't know how to get through this.

-Rebecca

[karen424]

Rebecca,
I'm so sorry you are feeling so heavy-hearted during the Holidays...that's the toughest time of the year to grieve...

When I lost Buster someone on the board here suggested that I make a memorial of him so I made a picture collage. I cried, I smiled, remembering my 15 years with my precious boy. You have to cry and you have to feel in order to begin to heal. And you will with time just like everyone on here says. There are times you might think you are going to go insane with grief - just come here and know that you are not alone with your pain ~ we all care and we all know the pain you feel....

Take care ~ you're in my thoughts...

*HUGS*

Karen

[parker]

Rebecca,
It truly is just going to take time. I know you are probably so sick of hearing that, but it is true. It has been almost 3 months since I lost my boy Parker and I still cry heavily everyday. I talk to him every night before I go to sleep and constantly think of him. He was my soul mate, and it sounds like Leon was yours. There is no way to just get over it. Just cry.....and talk to him.....and remember, and hope that someday you two will be reunited. I long for that day. Hope is really your best friend right now.

Parker's Mom,
Kerry

[Leonpup]

Thank you so much for all the thoughts and support. It is just so hard!!! I feel like I can't always remember what I want to remember about him- like his face, his happy smile- him playing. Now I am just stuck with the terrible picture of seeing him on the table with all the tubes being injected with a chemical to stop his heart. It is just too much! I was always so worried about him- I hated leaving him home alone because I was so afraid there'd be a fire or something would hurt him- I always protected him. My husband thinks that somehow I was like that because my soul just knew that Leon and I didn't have a long time together.

He was such a good boy... I hate going home and not having him there to greet me- to jump on me- It is just unbearable to loose someone that you love that much. I feel for all of you, having to feel the same way I feel now. It is just a difficult time, I guess.

Thanks so much for being there to help me out.

-Rebecca