Snookie Ruled The World, My World Options

[Ann H]

I just feel a need to talk about my precious Snookie. I know I made the tribute post yesterday for her but I still wanted to say more. Those beautiful eyes of hers could have gotten me to do anything. Just a glimspe into them was enough for her to wrap me around her paw.

Snookie ruled my world and I was happy to let her do it. She would let me know when she wanted out, or to go for a walk or to play or even when she wanted a snack. If we stayed to long at someones house Snookie would bark and tell me it was time to go. I never stayed long when she was ready to go home. What made me let her rule my life, well, all I can say was it was love.

My girl would have been 11 years old next month and she still played like she did when she was a puppy until she got so sick she couldn't hardly hold her head up. I still after all those years got the toys jammed into the back of my legs like she started doing when she was old enough to play with toys Snookie would squeak it as she jammed it against my legs. I don't know why that thrilled me but it always did. Maybe I thought she wanted to be one with me and share everything with me, her love, her toys, and her devotion.

When we were watching tv she would curl her 16 pound body up and sit in my lap. Sometimes she would rest her head against my neck and let out a contented sigh and I felt like letting out a sigh too my world was complete and we both felt so loved and secure.

Snookie loved to go to work with me I was a security guard and I never felt any fear in the empty buildings when she was with me. I would take food, water, bowls, toys, and blankets for her to lay on. In between rounds we would play and have fun my boss thought it was cute that I took her with me. We did motor patrols too and she loved that but I think she loved lunch time best of all.

I gave a 2 week notice and quit work when she was not able to go anymore. I knew she was to sick to work when I had to carry her to the car after work and then into the house when I got home. My boss wants me back but I can not stand the thought of my little girl not being with me.

My darling girl was just like my child to me and I miss her so very much. My husband put her ashes in the new urn today and I think I just needed to talk about my sweet baby girl. When I first came to LS I did not say very much but now I can't seem to shut up and my post are long these days. It sure does help to be able to talk about my Snookie Cookie and her great love.
Ann

[jinx]

I think that Snookie will be with you where ever you go... Back at work you may even feel closer to her. I believe she would still protect you and follow you on your rounds. She clearly loved you enough for that...

[Steph]

Hi Ann,

My Luba used to come to work with me too. It was devastating to go in after she died. I just sat there crying my eyes out.

When I had Kimba (the dog I was supposed to adopt), she came to the office with me, but it wasnt' the same. However, when she was gone I felt the emptiness that Luba's departure had left all over again. I'm ok going in now. Sometimes I'll take one of Miriam's foster dogs along, just for company. Falkor can't make it in because of his arthritis (I don't drive, so I have to walk to work).

Anyways, I understand what you are saying about Snookie ruling your world. Luba ruled mine. It does get easier.

[Kristie]

Ann,

I can also identify with Snookie being the Queen of the household. We actually called Kash "Queen Akasha" and she would respond to it! When I gave the cats their dinner I would always say "Dinner is served your Royal Magesty" when I put her bowl down (Kasha was ALWAYS fed first).

She would prance around the house, stopping only to pose for us with her chest all puffed out and her little black nose in the air, asking to be praised and complimented on her beauty...and we would always do it, no matter how busy...no matter what we were doing. You could catch my husband or I on our knees with a load of laundry beside us, dinner on the stove, and a newborn baby in our arms directing ALL attention to Kasha....."Oh LOOK at my beautiful girl!" Many visitors rolled many eyes over our ritual greetings...but I didn't care, I loved my girl and she ruled our house!

All of these thoughts....it's funny, these were the things that made me so sad to remember when I first lost her. Now I smile as I remember her....most of the time.

Warm thoughts,
Kristie

[Kathleen032]

Isn't amazing how our little furbabies rule the household!!?? Shiloh was the queen, too. Whether she was breaking up disagreements between the kitties or telling me it was dinner time, she was ruler of all things in my house.

I used to love to take Shiloh to work, also. The other teachers enjoyed seeing her as much as she enjoyed going. Whenever we'd have an inservice day, several teachers (even teachers that aren't fond of dogs) would ask if Shiloh was coming to school with me.

Snookie and Shiloh sure touched a lot of lives. We are so blessed to have had them call us mom.

Take care, Ann.
Love,
Kathleen

[Kathleen032]

Dear Ann,

I just read your post to Abby's mom and I want to assure you that you've been such a big help to me. You've said so many kind things to me and about Shiloh. I think you a beautiful person inside and out. You've offered support and comfort to many of the members of our LS family. It's important to remember that grief comes in cycles...when you're feeling down, someone else may be feeling better and will be able to offer you the same support you offerd them. Who knows, tomorrow I may have a major set back and need some kind words...and you know what, Ann, I know that you would be one of the first to respond to my call for help. I find much comfort in just knowing you're there.

Take care, Ann.
Love,
Kathleen

[Ann H]

Thanks everyone,
You are so kind and good and always offer me such words of encouragement too. I was just so afraid people might think I was taking over the board since I keep putting post about my precious Snookie on it. I want people to know more about her and how she was the love of my life. Yet since I have felt so down these past few days I was afraid I might bring everyone down too. You are so right Kathleen, I would try to respond to your cry for help as fast as I could. Sometimes I feel so morbid I am afraid I might say the wrong thing and I would never want to do that. I guess maybe the sun will shine in the days ahead but right now all I see is the fog and the pain.
Love, Ann
Snookie's Mama