Just Lost My Kitty Chloe, I have a few questions about something I experienced today |
Just Lost My Kitty Chloe, I have a few questions about something I experienced today |
Jun 24 2019, 11:16 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1 Joined: 23-June 19 Member No.: 9,272 |
Hi everyone,
I just lost my Chloe this past Friday June 21st. She was almost 20 and my very best friend. She let me know she was ready and I got her to the vet and her passing was peaceful. I never possibly thought anything could hurt this bad. The weekend was bad but today I felt a bit better so I went to the library as I needed to print some forms. I was fine until right when I finished. Then out of nowhere a particular memory from Friday hit me. And suddenly it felt like I was right back in that moment experiencing it for the first time. I started crying as discreetly as possible, put my sunglasses on so no one could see, and made it home where the crying and sadness were as bad as Friday. And then when I got my mail, there was a pet food coupon in it which absolutely killed me. Has anyone else had that kind of thing happen while out in public? How did you handle it? And why do those memories just pop into my head without anything triggering them? It’s beyond horrifying. There are two specific memories in particular that I cannot get out of my head no matter what I do. I also cannot stand to listen to any music that’s even remotely close to being sad. I had to mute my TV tonight at a car commercial because of the music. And the idea of looking at any photos of her is unbearable right now. I can’t look at her little paw prints from the vet either. Is all this normal? This was my first pet on my own as opposed to a family pet. I live alone too. So her passing is having a major impact on my entire life. Sorry this is so long. I haven’t had anyone to talk to about this until now. |
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Jun 24 2019, 11:58 PM
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Forum Administrator Group: Admin Posts: 1,073 Joined: 3-March 03 From: Midwest USA Member No.: 1 |
20 years is a long time to be with a companion animal. it would be an equally long time with a human as well.
while it may sound cliche, time does heal. you are going through completely normal emotions right now. grief from loss often manifests itself in unexpected waves, and you were hit by a large one today. there will be more large waves for a while. but they will get smaller and easier to swim through, with time. you'll soon be able to look at her photos and footprints and relive other memories, fond or otherwise, with less pain and with greater understanding. the time it takes will vary from person to person, don't ever think you've been grieving too long or too short. the grief will release when it's ready. condolences for your loss, i know it is difficult 💖 -------------------- |